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Tweak says, "It's all happening"

Spike (chipswiththat) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-01-11 14:30:00

Entry tags:

ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), malcolm reynolds, rebecca crane, sam winchester, spike

358 - voice + action
[ It's surprisingly early, for him. Vampire habits and all that, this transmission should happen later in the afternoon but it doesn't. He also sounds surprisingly drunk for it being this early in the day — effort was taken to reach this level of inebriety. It's clear in the tone of his voice, the stubborn lack of video, the briefness of the message. ]

Rose is gone. She was a good person even if you wankers didn't appreciate it.

[ And off goes the feed. He'll make his way to the graveyard with as many bottles of whiskey as he can possibly carry. Gotta start early in the day if you want to drink yourself to oblivion. Anyone coming across him can expect to find a fumbling mess of a man and more than one smashed bottle. ]

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	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 02:04 pm UTC (link)
	Right. [ Should he know that? Maybe. Anyway, he knows people can be two things. He's not nearly as bigoted as he makes himself out to be. ] What happened to her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2016-01-13 02:48 pm UTC (link)

[He doesn't think this topic has come up with Spike. He told Kitty about it, but generally it's not something he talks about. In this case he doesn't mind sharing though.]

She was partially converted to a Cyberman. They're humanity upgraded, in these metal bodies with all emotions removed. They just convert more people - I suppose they're rather like vampires. Her conversion process wasn't competed though so it was still her, mostly and I thought I could save her. Turns out I was wrong. She killed a lot of people before Torchwood stopped her.

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	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 07:47 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. [ So, like Adam's deal. That was a shitshow... maybe if he tries really hard he'll remember how much of a shitshow and avoid affiliation whenever he goes home. ] They... they did something like that, too. The assholes who nabbed me... The Initiative. Bad idea all around. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 08:10 pm UTC (link)
	I never thought of your chip that way. [Maybe he should have. It does give the thing a bit of a new perspective for him.] Anyway the point of it all is I wanted to do anything to save her and I shouldn't have. I don't think she would have wanted me to. I should have let go. And I don't think you should try anything to bring Rose back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	Not my chip... another of their projects. [ But again, in his not too distant future. Let's not get too deep into things he hasn't lived yet. ] And you're a little late with that advice... not with Rose. Dru. I was ready to end the world if I could have her back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	You'd really end the world if you couldn't be with her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 08:35 pm UTC (link)
	I nearly ended the world so I could be with her. [ Or, Angelus did. Same difference. ] She was sick. I worked to make her better. When she left on her own accord, I did this. [ He raises the bottle in a toast, taking a long swig. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2016-01-13 09:05 pm UTC (link)

Sorry you don't have the world ending option here. [A little dryly. It's hard to know what to say, especially since they just did this with the roles reversed so recently and he knows exactly how much it still hurts even with all the best words and intentions in the world. It hurts to lose someone, and that's all there is to it.] Maybe she'll come back. Rose, I mean. Jack did.

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	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 09:16 pm UTC (link)
	[ It's kind of besides the point but he's drunk and heartbroken and doesn't care enough to correct Ianto about what actually went down. It doesn't matter. It was years ago. ] Maybe... doubt it. No one I know does. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 09:54 pm UTC (link)
	Jack did. [He repeats. He knows the two of them aren't exactly close and maybe Spike doesn't want to count that but still. He did come back.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	Sure... Jack did. [ He scoffs. ] I'm sure you're over the moon that he's back, but I'm not quite as excited. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 10:12 pm UTC (link)
	I know you're not. You don't have to like him to acknowledge that he came back. He's immortal; he can't change too much. The same might be true for Rose. [He is friends with a lot of people who don't physically change, isn't he?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 10:15 pm UTC (link)
	Angel stopped coming back. Eric's gone... and Jessica. Claire, too. Not even Buffy made it back here. [ He used to have a ton of friends. These are just the ones that are harder to kill, that tend to not care so much about great difficulties. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	You don't have anyone left here that you care about in the slightest? I find that a bit difficult to believe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	[ He gives Ianto a long, pointed look. Does he really need to spell it out? Does he have to say it? Only you, mate. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	I meant besides me. [Annoyed/fond eye roll.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	Then no. No one. [ He isn't even being dramatic about it. Rebecca might count but he's pretty sure she still hates him a lot and is just too nice to show it. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2016-01-13 10:46 pm UTC (link)

[Alright, he wasn't quite expecting that. And he's a person who has always had a very limited list of friends or people he trusts both here and at home. He knows Spike isn't the most popular person here and that he doesn't exactly go out of his way to make friends but he thought for sure there must be one or two other people he cared about.] Suddenly I feel like a lot more pressure has been placed on this conversation.

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	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 10:57 pm UTC (link)
	[ He did but they disappeared within relatively short procession of each other. Rose today and Tyki a while back but he's not all that interested in talking about either of them right now. ] What, you're worried now? After spending... I don't even know how long alone in a graveyard with a vampire? [ Nerd. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-01-13 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	Worried about you, not me. Anyway as far as safety goes I'm getting fairly used to you biting me. [A little smile to ease some of the tension.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-01-13 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	You like it. [ Teasing, for sure. The best defence. ] And don't worry about me... this is- this is par for the course. I'm my own man. I'll be fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2016-01-13 11:12 pm UTC (link)

Only the one time. [Yes, he did and yes it's an awkward subject but he still manages to make it sound teasing. They might as well not take it seriously since it's just going to be uncomfortable otherwise.] It doesn't have to be par the course for you, you know. I'm not saying you should suddenly become some social butterfly but people might be willing to give you a chance of you make the effort. I did.

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chipswiththat
2016-01-13 11:19 pm UTC (link)

You know how to find me if you want another hit. [ Like that is ever going to happen but he's decided to accept that day as something Good and Nice rather than be homophobic about it and so here they are. The poofter talk was never more than part of the well 'ard image anyway. He's a demon. He doesn't care what people like to fuck, at the end of the day. ]

I used to... for her, you know? [ Rose. ] She was all about that... redeeming yourself and maintaining humanity, all that bollocks. A wonder she stayed with me as long as she did.

[ And now there's no her and he's always been bad at doing things when there's just him. Cecily, Drusilla, Harmony for a time that he'll later blame on temporary insanity... Buffy. Buffy Buffy Buffy, from a moment he hasn't even had the privilege of living yet 'til the end of time.

And now, just him. It's empty and purposeless in ways he can't describe. ]

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readystopwatch
2016-01-14 01:02 pm UTC (link)

I'll give you a call. [This little crush of his feels less distracting now that he knows what it's like to lose Jack and knows he never wants to do anything that could cause that to happen again. It's still there but it feels less distracting than it did before. Or maybe he's just telling himself that.]

She sounds like a good person. I wish I'd gotten to know her better.

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	chipswiththat 2016-01-14 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	You never talked to her? [ He may be feeling somewhat bad for dragging Rose into that whole mess. He doesn't know how to be a good person and she didn't know better than to stay by him. Maybe it ruined her chances at friendships. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)