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Aidan J. Reilly (redclayheroics) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2015-01-04 23:41:00

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aidan reilly, sougo okita

Day 304 - closed action to Sougo
[ Despite the long sleeves, Aidan was painfully aware of the blue band on his wrist.

It had seemed like such a good idea at the time, to just go with it and be selfish for once. It wasn't like he was actually dating anyone and Rebecca made everything feel so easy, like you could just hook up with a friend and that was it. It reminded him of when he was eighteen and new to the city and how Tessa taught him the same thing — you don't have to be madly in love with someone to bone. It's fine if it's just for fun. It's fine if it's not serious.

Now, of course, back in the apartment where he stayed most nights, he couldn't help but wonder if it really was so easy. There's always other people involved and even though he couldn't care less about what most of the dome thought of him by now, it wasn't that long ago that he broke things off with Euphie. For damn good reasons, at that! Good, emotional, mature reasons but he knows what this must look like from the outside and the last thing he ever wanted was to hurt her. It was just... he needed good things too. He needed some intimacy and warmth because heaven knows when he'd get that next, if ever.

He sighs, head leaned against his arms where he sits by the kitchen table. Boy wouldn't it be nice if he had a best friend somewhere around here who could help him straighten this mess out? ]

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sadistfaction
2015-01-04 11:25 pm UTC (link)

[Sougo makes his way out of the bathroom after taking a shower. His hair is still somewhat wet, a towel draped over his shoulders and sportin' some PJ pants with S' all over them because he is cool (read as: geeky) like that. He goes into the kitchen to grab a snack so that he'd brush his teeth afterwards. He was going to have it done already but then that would ruin snack time.

From the pantry he grabs little packages of cookies, tossing one onto the table in front of Aidan while he seats himself, opening his own package.]

Your face looks like how I feel, so I thought you could use a snack.

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	redclayheroics 2015-01-04 11:39 pm UTC (link)
	[ He looks up when Sougo enters the room, mustering up a smile at the pack of cookies. ] Heh... thanks. [ Tearing the package open, Aidan fidgets restlessly with a cookie. ] How, uhm... you alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-04 11:47 pm UTC (link)
	I'm mad at you 'cause I was gonna ask you that first. [Joking, yes, but his plan was to be the first to ask all along! All along since like 1 minute ago but still.] What else am I supposed to do when you're sittin' at the table like that, you know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-04 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry. [ Heh. He heaves a weary sigh. ] 'm fine. It's... fine. [ ... ] I think I screwed up, Sougo. A lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-04 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	[What the what. He slides his chair on over to get closer.] Why? What happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-04 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	Ah, well... I dunno if you know 'cause we kept it kinda quiet but a while back, me an' Euphie started kinda datin'. Just to feel it out, y'know? Nothin' really came of it and she likes another guy anyway so... So during th' anniversary, I told her we should call it quits. [ So far so good, right? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 12:14 am UTC (link)
	[He wasn't going to admit that he did find out because it didn't seem appropriate, so he just nods.] I see. [He eats a cookie.] Did she get all crazy or something and you stabbed her in the chest? [So much for being appropriate but his imagination is always a wild one.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 12:26 am UTC (link)
	What? No! No... of course not. We're fine. Everything is fine. [ For now. ] But, uhm... couple of days after that, when I went out for th' night? I kinda, uh... [ Just... gonna show off the blue band okay. There it is. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 12:30 am UTC (link)
	[He stares at the band and is now a little confused.] ... You did it with Euphie? [He is now imagining that they had breakup sex or something.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Nooo... [ He groans, resuming his previous position of pooling out over the table. ] You know Rebecca, from dispatch? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 12:42 am UTC (link)
	[Another cookie into his mouth.] Uh-huh. I know her, yeah. You spend the night with her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 12:47 am UTC (link)
	I did. [ Ugh. ] It just... kinda worked out that way. I don't wanna gross you out or nothin'. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 12:54 am UTC (link)
	Me. The guy who thinks blood and guts are funny. [That gets a little laughter out of him.] Grossing me out is impossible. What happened, though? Got regrets? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 12:57 am UTC (link)
	That's not th' same. [ He grumbles, forehead pressed against the table. ] And no... no regrets. It was pretty great. Easy, you know? We kinda just-- Fuck, I don't know. Agreed to keep it easy. I'm not worried about her. [ A beat. ] 'm more worried about what Euphie'll think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sadistfaction
2015-01-05 01:08 am UTC (link)

[Sougo nods.]

Ah. Well. Euphie's Euphie. [He puts a hand on his chin as he figures out the right way to explain what he wants to say without saying something crazy.] You think she's gonna think badly of you 'cause you went out and did something fun? I know I'm not close with her or anything, but I know she's the type who wants people to do what makes them happy. Obviously being with her didn't make you happy. But if this made you feel happy and at ease, what's the problem?

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redclayheroics
2015-01-05 04:26 pm UTC (link)

See, that's what I'm thinkin'? But I also don't want her to think that I... y'know. Broke up with her 'cause we never did nothin'.

[ She accused him of being lonely way back when he first confessed to her and although that was true, it wasn't a loneliness in this sense. If it had been, he wouldn't have pursued a girl that much younger than him and that confused about her emotions. ]

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	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 06:12 pm UTC (link)
	[He stares at a cookie as he listens to Aidan.] If you're gonna tell her, just tell her how you told me. You didn't go with the intention to wave your dick around. All you did was go hang out with a friend and things just happened naturally. [He shrugs.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 06:13 pm UTC (link)
	[ He lifts his head from the table to give Sougo a long, hard, confused stare. ] How are you this smart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	[He shakes his head and holds out a hand.] I'm not. I'm just really good at making shit up that sounds smart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	I dunno, I think this is pretty smart for real too. Especially if it works. [ Which he doubts but what doesn't he doubt right now? ] I'm gonna spend some nights away from now on. Not often, just... sometimes. Is that okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 07:20 pm UTC (link)
	[He's not sure it'll work because that would be too easy, and nothing is ever that easy. And it's stuff that would work in TV, which is where he picks things up since he certainly doesn't have experience in this sort of thing.] Go ahead. You can do whatever you want. [He says with an expression of great uncertainty.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 07:58 pm UTC (link)
	[ Some things are that easy, he hopes. It must, right? Sometimes? Some rare glimpse of easiness? This doesn't feel like one of those glimpses tho. ] Sougo... c'mon. If you're not okay with it, just tell me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	[He slides over to be even closer, placing a hand on Aidan's shoulder.] If by spending some nights away you mean with her, it's fine. You said you had a great time with her. I want you to have a great time all the time. I'm just gonna worry that she's gonna slash your throat or something 'cause that's how my mind operates. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2015-01-05 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	C'mon, she's not gonna slash my throat. [ But it's sweet that he worries. Aidan scootches in an inch or so more to slide an arm around Sougo's shoulders. ] Would you feel better if I called you? Let you know 'm still alive? I'm not gonna bring her here, that's for sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2015-01-05 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I'd appreciate that. [But he's still gonna look at you like a grumpy pants right now!] And if you don't call me I'm gonna kick your ass. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)