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Tweak says, "Bufugee! Atibitiba!"

Spike (chipswiththat) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-08-16 16:11:00

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anya jenkins, brian moser, deanna troi, doctor facilier, euphemia li britannia, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), rebecca crane, spike, zatanna zatara

284 // voice
[ The feed starts long before anyone speaks, lingers in eerie silence broken by the clicks of a stubborn lighter, the dry crackle of tobacco being set alight, the hollow intake of smoke in dead lungs. The trembling exhale, functioning as an initial indicator to just how rough and ragged his voice is when he does speak. Strained, like he's been screaming himself raw or perhaps the measured and stilted words are a product of him trying to keep himself from doing just that. ]

Are you happy now? Is the world all bright, full of puppydogs and rainbows again? Messing with things you don't understand... makes you feel powerful, doesn't it? Like you're in control. Like you know something. Let me tell you a lit'le secret: you don't know shit. You've never been in control and you never will be. Always somethin' else, calling the shots... whether you realize it or not.

The real monsters aren't out there... but in here. [ Punctuated by the hollow knock of knuckles against breastbone and then he cuts the feed. ]

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	friendly_fire 2014-09-21 03:23 am UTC (link)
	But what happens if you don't? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-21 07:30 am UTC (link)
	...Nothing you need to worry your pretty lit'le head about. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-21 07:46 pm UTC (link)
	Spike. [Listen to that tone. She is clearly worrying that pretty little head as we speak!] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-22 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	What. [ And he's honestly too tired to deal with all this misplaced worry. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-24 04:36 pm UTC (link)
	Is there something I can do to help? Or the wardens maybe? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-25 09:12 am UTC (link)
	No, there isn't. [ Forcefully. ] And I didn't ask for your help, did I? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-28 03:26 am UTC (link)
	No, but if you're not eating... You need to eat. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-28 09:10 am UTC (link)
	You're not my mum. [ Ah fuck, don't think about that, don't think about that- ] I'll be fine. It's not like it'll kill me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-30 04:25 am UTC (link)
	It won't? You're sure? [So much skeptical.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-30 07:31 am UTC (link)
	I'm a walking corpse, Princess. It'll take more than that to off me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-10-03 03:32 am UTC (link)
	Ah... If you're sure. But... [There's a pause here.] You shouldn't do bad things to yourself when you feel guilty about things you've done. It won't help anyone. [This is just speaking from experience or at least her own perspective from her experience with tremendous guilt.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-10-03 12:57 pm UTC (link)
	You think I want this? That I'm doing it by choice? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-10-07 07:11 pm UTC (link)
	No, no, I... I'm sorry, I shouldn't presume to know how you feel. I'm just concerned. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-10-07 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	Well, don't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-10-07 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	Why shouldn't I be? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-10-07 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not asking for your pity. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-10-07 07:21 pm UTC (link)
	I wasn't offering it. I just know how I would feel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-10-07 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	[ He tries to find some retort to this, but finds none. Click goes the feed. ] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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