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deanna troi (counselled) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-06-22 22:48:00

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data, deanna troi

late day 276 | closed to data
[ a lot has happened lately, a lot of things distracting deanna, both good and bad. it's kept her mind of the hole she's been feeling, the emptiness that was once filled by someone very important. her anchor, her rock... she could no longer sense him. at first, she had thought he had merely spent a lot of time outside her limited range here, or that her empathic abilities had been one again dampened. but she soon realized that they were working with everyone else... just not with him.

and so she had thrown herself into her work, barely noticed much aside from trying to deal with nathan and his situation. today had marked another step with that as well and she found it all exhausting. it was god work, though, and she wanted to keep working with nathan. she wasn't yet willing to give up on him.

with all of those thoughts swirling around in her mind, it was little wonder that she was up this night, little wonder that she had a cup of tea brewing and was sitting at the kitchen table to wait for it. she was also staring at the table, as though it might hold the answers she needed, the comfort that she sought. living with two androids, she should have expected at least one of them to be up and about, to notice that she's still awake. but for once, she is too lost in thought.

she could use the distraction, though. ]

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counselled
2014-07-09 02:18 am UTC (link)

[ that makes her smile just a little bit. she understands what it means to him to keep that chip active and she thinks it's a good idea. after all, the rest of them can't exactly turn theirs on and off when they want to. ]

I think that's a very good thing to do, Data. [ she pauses for a half second, watching him to see how he's doing. ] Would you like to talk about it? I know it isn't easy to deal with any of these emotions for any of us.

[ it's as much an offer to talk about her own feelings on the subject as it is for him. it's not easy for her, so she knows it must be doubly difficult for him. ]

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thirdcriterion
2014-07-13 09:40 pm UTC (link)

[ He considers that, with a slight inclination of his head. It likely would help him, and he knows very well that she's going through much the same herself. ]

That could likely prove beneficial to assist in the processing of said emotional responses.

[ For both of them. That meaning is clearly there, and he's fairly confident it makes it across. ]

I have often had trouble reconciling my emotional and rational responses. It is disruptive to the timeline for us to be here and none of us would wish to be imprisoned, yet I have been happy to see all those who have arrived here in spite of that knowledge.

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counselled
2014-07-14 02:50 am UTC (link)

[ she nods, understanding his meaning entirely and grateful that he's willing to be there for her as she is for him. they're friends, above and beyond her role as counselor, and over the years they have taught each other numerous things. trust, loyalty, friendship... emotions. it's all there and it all plays a part now. ]

I think we all do sometimes, Data. I have enjoyed taking the time to get to know the others here, even those who are not from the Enterprise. [ like seven, for example. ] Like you, I know my duty is to Starfleet, but I can't help hoping that Commander Riker, for example, might arrive tomorrow. Or perhaps Captain Picard. Or Doctor Crusher, even though she has never been here to our knowledge.

[ she could seriously use beverly's friendship right about now. ]

I think that's a very human part of us [ ~~says the half-betazoid to the android~~ ], the part that doesn't want to be alone, and enjoys every moment we have with our friends.

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thirdcriterion
2014-07-15 11:05 pm UTC (link)

[ He gives a nod there, understanding. ]

It has been difficult to accept that my emotional responses are not always in accordance with rational thought.

[ But there is a small, sad smile. It is human, isn't it? Hearing that always pleases him to an extent. ]

It is important to do so. Presently, I am grateful that, despite the disappearances, you are still here.

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counselled
2014-07-16 03:44 am UTC (link)

[ he really has come such a long way and she's so pleased and happy for him, also that she and his friends could be there along the way. his foray into humanity and everything he's had to learn has been... well, deanna knows she never would have viewed certain things the way he does or even come close without his insight while he's learned. he's opened her eyes while she's opened his.

and that is one reason she is not looking forward to returning to her own point in space-time. ]

They often aren't. Our emotions will make us feel one way when logically we know we should feel another way. It's a bit of a paradox and it takes time to unravel and work through. [ she shrugs a little, as though to suggest that some never do. ] Perhaps it's a work over an entire lifetime.

[ her smile matches his. it's a sad conversation, isn't it? ]

I know you should be back in your own time, but I would miss you a great deal if that were to happen while I was still here. I'm glad you're still here, too. Having a friend to speak with and go through these experiences with certainly helps ease the emotional responses.

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thirdcriterion
2014-07-18 07:49 pm UTC (link)

Then it is an essential part of the human experience.

[ Though still sad, that gives a quirk to his smile. Gratitude for the challenge, for knowing what this feels like. For knowing what feeling at all feels like. ]

It does provide no small degree of comfort, to have a friend with whom to share a difficult experience. I am grateful that I am able to provide that as well.

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counselled
2014-07-19 06:13 pm UTC (link)

[ they've all had to learn this at some point or another in their lives. data just has to learn it all faster than they did. ]

Unfortunately so. It does get a little less overwhelming over time, depending on the person, but that doesn't mean it's easy.

[ she manages a small, grateful smile at his last words. ]

You have always been a very good friend, Data. I am happy to call you one of mine. I would be remiss in my duties of counseling and friendship if I didn't ask if there are any of these emotions in particular that you'd like to discuss.

[ is there anything else she can help with, dealing with seven's second disappearance or any of the others, dealing with lal being here, or anything else? ]

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thirdcriterion
2014-07-21 10:53 pm UTC (link)

[ He hesitates a moment before his brows arch and he gives a very slight shrug in contemplation. Then, he shakes his head. ]

I am not certain that I entirely know where to begin.

[ But he considers, for a moment, and furrows his brow - troubled because, of course, it is a troubling topic to broach. ]

Though, I have had particular concerns regarding Annika's wellbeing. She informed me that, immediately prior to her return to the facility, she had been in an extremely perilous situation which she did not expect to survive.

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	counselled 2014-07-22 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	[ a frown crosses deanna's face. seven of nine wasn't a name that crossed her desk, as it were, so she can't be absolutely certain. ] Do you know what it was? Did she tell you? [ assuming he's comfortable enough to tell her that. it might help deanna figure out what to tell him. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thirdcriterion 2014-07-31 03:43 pm UTC (link)
	[ He hesitates, slightly, before clarifying. ] She had been captured, along with Voyager's EMH. His ethical subroutines were removed, and he was being used in an attempt to forcibly extract information from her cortical array. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

counselled
2014-07-31 06:17 pm UTC (link)

[ it doesn't sound particularly good and deanna can tell that he's worried about seven. who wouldn't be? what she wishes is that someone were here who could give him the reassurance he so obviously needs. she weighs her options for a few seconds. ]

While I don't know of Seven's fate in particular, I can tell you that... from what I have seen of her here, she has the strength and fortitude to make it through.

[ she does know that voyager makes it home and if seven happened to be on it, she's there now, too. deanna has no doubts that she's somewhere within starfleet's reach one way or another and whenever deanna manages to get back herself, she'll see if she can find out for sure. ]

I know it isn't much. [ but sometimes hope is all they have, especially here. ]

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