[ it's a question that has her jaw tightening and her throat constricting. she looks away. she didn't choose to die. she never wanted to be a vampire. she can guess how it seems to martha. she made a decision to be a monster. (she always was one anyway.)
(and she understands katherine. she's understood katherine since she took a dagger and stabbed rebekah in the back. making these choices is not a matter of desire or selfishness or the quick snap of careless disregard. there's not other option, in the end.) ] Because I wanted to survive. Because I wasn't just going to die. [ not that time. she glances down; her voice softens. ] And because I'm the only family my brother has left.