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Tweak says, "SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"

Sam Winchester (tallerthanthou) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-04-21 10:38:00

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elena gilbert, martha jones, sam winchester, spike

Day 268 - Video & Action open
[Video]
[There's a pause before he speaks because he knows it's not going to be his voice and that's going to be weird again.] Hi. [Yep. It's weird.]

I was wondering if anyone recognizes me?

...Am I invisible? [Sam would recognize himself as previous inmate, Angel, except there's no reflection when he looks into mirrors. And voices are distorted when you hear them inside your own head.]

[Action]
[It won't take long before he realizes the hunger he feels isn't going to be sated with a salad. He can go one day without blood, right? It's not like he hasn't craved it before—demon flavored in that case, but still blood. He just needs to stay away from people. Easier said than done though. He needs to at least go put a class is cancelled sign on the room where they meet for Paranormal Studies which means a lot of walking across the dome and smelling everything.]

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	action. matter 2014-04-21 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	[ of course he'd think she's martha. she inhales and then blinks at his correction. ] Sam. [ she walks forward a few steps. ] It's- I'm not- I'm Elena. [ she lifts a hand to gesture to herself. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. tallerthanthou 2014-04-21 10:50 pm UTC (link)
	You're... [Elena in Martha's body. Because things weren't complicated enough before.] I shouldn't have assumed considering. [He gives himself a gesture too.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2014-04-21 11:44 pm UTC (link)
	[ she lets out a breath that could be mistaken for a sign of amusement if not for the circumstances - and she nearly smiles too, but it's certainly troubled. ] I guess I shouldn't have either. Are you okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. tallerthanthou 2014-04-24 04:33 am UTC (link)
	Not...exactly. [And she probably knows why better than anyone.] What about you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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matter
2014-04-28 07:00 pm UTC (link)

[ she does, and the reality of that occurs to her as he answers. angel's a vampire. she knows that kind of thirst now. (so did he, even before...) her eyes round and she sucks in a breath. ] I'm fine, I'm - more worried about Martha. [ explaining this and reassuring her would only go too far. she's in the dome somewhere, wearing her face, hungry and frightened. ] Are you-? Do you feel like you need to feed?

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	action. tallerthanthou 2014-05-04 03:35 am UTC (link)
	Things are reversed. [It wasn't that long ago he was asking her something like that. He feels distracted. Distracted by the hunger. Concern for Martha. Oh, and the hunger. Did I mention hunger?] Going a day isn't going to kill me. [Why does it sound like her pulse is the loudest thing around?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2014-05-04 04:33 am UTC (link)
	[ it might kill someone else. things are reversed, and she notices that now more than better. elena blinks a few times, lets her eyes drop a moment. ] Sam, you have to drink something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. tallerthanthou 2014-05-04 04:37 am UTC (link)
	Let's say I do. I drink. What's that do to me when I go back to my own body? It's not the same kind of craving, but the drink is pretty close. [Asking him to fall off the wagon here.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2014-05-04 04:54 am UTC (link)
	[ that's not what she's trying to ask. her brow furrows and her jaw tightens - martha's brow furrows and her jaw tightens. every expression and movement seems to remind her of that fact. ] I'm sorry, I didn't mean - I meant I don't want anyone to get hurt. [ she doesn't want him to get hurt. ] Including you. [ hurting someone else would do that. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. tallerthanthou 2014-05-04 05:06 am UTC (link)
	You think I do? [He can't stop his eyes from taking a dangerous stroll down along her neck. And today that neck is extra important because it belongs to Martha and Elena.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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matter
2014-05-06 02:38 pm UTC (link)

[ her heart beat catches, lodges in her throat. she's no stranger to situations like these, but she's never used to them. (today the reality of human mortality is important. because this body isn't hers. because suddenly the fear she has is a reminder she hasn't had for a long time that she is living.) ] I think a part of you would. But that's not the part I'm talking to.

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	action. tallerthanthou 2014-05-06 04:27 pm UTC (link)
	[Definitely a part of him. A loud, angry, hungry part of him. The part that is really honing in on the way that thread of fear affects her heart and the way the blood pumps through those veins.] I shouldn't be here. [But he hasn't managed to make himself leave yet either.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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matter
2014-05-11 05:04 pm UTC (link)

[ Maybe she shouldn't be here, but she can't leave him like this. She can't let him leave without knowing he has help - that he won't hurt someone else. Her jaw tightens and works, and she tries to swallow down her fear; wills herself not to step back. This is Sam. Sam wouldn't hurt her. (Stefan still did; Elena's been through enough to know that sometimes... Sometimes it's not enough, but she has to believe. Believe in him like he did in her.) ] Remember what you said, what you told me? That the part of me that cares is stronger than that hunger? You were right. I couldn't hurt you. I couldn't hurt you because I couldn't stand to lose you. Because I - [ words stop in her throat. ] Because I needed your heart to keep beating. Sam, look at me.

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tallerthanthou
2014-05-12 12:05 am UTC (link)

[It isn't until she tells him to look at her that he realizes the way his eyes had drifted again to her throat even as she said all of those things. Even as he could feel the anticipation when she paused in what she was about to say. He does. He looks at her. It's strange the way he can feel Elena looking out at him through Martha's eyes. If he loses control now he'll be hurting two people he cares about. And then even if he gets his body back he won't be able to look at himself in the mirror. The choice is simple. It's making it that's so damn hard.] You have to go. You have to run.

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2014-05-12 12:54 am UTC (link)

[ she sees him too. it's what she holds onto as her breath hitches and she considers it - running. it's basic instinct: fight or flight. her eyes skirt to check their surroundings. the people milling about. so instead, she does something almost impossibly stupid, her breath heaving, her jaw setting. she knows it is. she takes a chance: stepping forward instead of back, knowing the risks. what she's risking, who she's risking. ] No. I can't. If you're going to hurt someone, you're gonna hurt me. So you're going to fight this. You've fought before and you're going to do it again.

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tallerthanthou
2014-05-14 04:08 am UTC (link)

Elena... [Such a frustrating feeling to be this touched by her and this angry at her at the same. Sam already had some anger issues pushed down inside and the demon he has now is just pushing them all right back up.] I don't want to hurt you! [His face changes. Instead of the small veins around his eyes like she gets his whole forehead morphs, forming ridge-like shapes. Eyes yellow and fangs grow. It's the face of a monster.]

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matter
2014-05-14 11:29 pm UTC (link)

[ no more monster than the things she's seen, done, condoned. her lips part in a soft gasp and her eyes round, but she's seen angel's face like this before. he showed it to her once, the first day she met him. she remembers how he explained there was a demon inside him, and a soul too. that's something sam has too.

so whether this is uncontrollable or to scare her; it doesn't matter. she steels herself. ] So don't. [ her voice is firm and full; inarguable. she sucks in air and searches his eyes, so foreign and familiar. reaches to touch his face, her voice softening. ] Don't.

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tallerthanthou
2014-05-19 02:37 pm UTC (link)

[He does still have his soul and real or imagined it seems like he can almost feel it over all the other emptiness. There's no blood pumping in his veins. No heart beating. No breath rising and falling in his chest. His body is as eerily silent as hers seems teeming with activity and life. How could he not want that? How is he supposed to resist?

His eyes close at the gentle touch. He can feel the demon hungry within him, but he can't give in. His face shifts back, bumps and fangs sliding away as if they were never there and he opens his eyes again to watch her. It's the wrong face, but another one he's come to care for.]

You shouldn't trust me this much.

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matter
2014-05-19 05:50 pm UTC (link)

[ the way his eyes close and his face smooths and transforms back; it fills her with a surety she wasn't lacking in the first place. she's not afraid of the demon visage, and her touch continues unhindered, his fingers and palm flattening against his cheek, curling to move her knuckles down to his jaw. she shifts closer, aware of the hands that aren't her own, his face that's not his.

but it's sam, and she smiles. ] When have you given me a reason not to?

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	action. tallerthanthou 2014-05-23 04:09 am UTC (link)
	I'm afraid I might soon. It's like I can feel a demon in here with me wanting me to slip. [And the way she touches him makes other thing harder to resist too.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2014-05-24 08:32 pm UTC (link)

I know. [ it's an ache, a feeling she wishes he didn't have to suffer - one she wishes he never had to. (one she wishes she's never felt either. that hunger.) her smiles sobers and her eyes drop along with her hand, slowly and reluctantly. (that's not what they are now - ever were, really.)

but she doesn't know exactly; she's never dealt with a real demon. ] I can imagine... [ she looks back up to him ] it's similar. [ similar but completely different, that hunger, because it was hunger amplified by her feelings that made her... want him, want to feed. ]

What did you do? Last time? With the blood? [ how did he hold back? get through? ]

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	action. tallerthanthou 2014-05-25 06:57 pm UTC (link)
	Last time with the blood? [It doesn't take much to think back to it. He's been thinking about it for awhile now.] I...fed. A lot. [He didn't hold back. He'd tried, but when he failed he failed big.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2014-05-27 07:48 pm UTC (link)
	And when you decided to stop? [ she doesn't know the particulars. she doesn't know a lot of the particulars with sam, she realizes. elena licks her lips. ] How did you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. tallerthanthou 2014-06-02 03:19 am UTC (link)
	[There's a long pause.] Dean locked me in a panic room until it was out of my system. Pain. Screaming. Hallucinations. It wasn't pretty. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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