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Tweak says, "I'm gonna slap you in a minute"

Stefan Salvatore (sanguino) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-12-02 21:03:00

Entry tags:

caroline forbes, elena gilbert, eric northman, rose, stefan salvatore

Day 248 - Action - Open to All
[Morning - Stefan's Bedroom - Closed to Caroline]

[It hits him at all at once, the memories of the past months rolling into his brain. It's overwhelming, as they overlay with the memories of his life here, but one thing in particular sticks out among the rest.

Because it feels endless, constant, and horrific. The agony of being trapped in a small space, drowning over and over, the water filling up his lungs and sending him spiraling into death.

He sits up straight in bed, his entire body soaked in a thin layer of sweat, his heart beating so fast he feels like it's going to burst from his chest. He sucks in a shuddering breath, and even though the air goes into his lungs, he still feels like he's drowning there beneath the water in that dark, dark, safe.]

[Afternoon - Blood Shack - Open to All]

[Alcohol is the only thing that numbs the pain, calms his nerves, and he's certainly had his fair share today. It's easier not to think under the weight of intoxication, to hide from the confusion and the disorientation of layered memories, good and bad, with an unsteadiness that he's in control of, that he caused himself.

It's the only semblance of control he's had since he woke up that morning.]

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	vikingly 2013-12-11 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	I think that depends a great deal on the person and the amount of information stuffed into your brain. Have you had some blood yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sanguino 2013-12-14 02:17 am UTC (link)
	About six months worth. At least. [He shakes his head.] No, but that would...probably be smart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-12-15 11:32 pm UTC (link)
	I imagine you're in for a day or two of this. [ He draws a glass of blood and passes it over to Stefan. ] That should help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sanguino 2013-12-17 02:45 am UTC (link)
	Thanks. [He takes the glass, puts it to his lips, and drinks down half of it in one go. Eric is right, it does take the edge of his headache, but not the deep thrumming anxiety that sits deep in his gut.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-12-17 03:07 am UTC (link)
	[ Eric nods. ] Want to discuss it with someone who doesn't personally give a shit? [ Because talking about things that happened at home with people who know the world and the other participants and who care can be difficult. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sanguino
2013-12-18 09:50 pm UTC (link)

[He gets that, actually. It's harder talking about this with people who care because they want to fix him, and he's not sure it's something that can just be fixed.]

For three months of it I was locked in a safe underwater in a quarry. Several times a day I would regain consciousness just to choke and drown again.

[A beat.]

I also had to deal with losing Elena to my brother again. Twice.

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