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Tweak says, "I love my child."

vikingly (vikingly) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-09-19 15:01:00

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:mingle, annabelle, damon salvatore, data, eric northman, klara guildsen, piter de vries, rebekah mikealson, saetan sadiablo, seven of nine, spike, stefan salvatore, yvaine, zero kiryuu

[237] Struggling with my humanity or lack thereof therapy
[ Considering the nature of the group, it's unsurprising that it is being held in The Blood Shack. There is a sign on the door announcing that the bar is closed for therapy adding that if you're here for the 'Struggling with my humanity of the lack thereof' therapy session, please come in and make yourself at home. Someone (not Eric) has made over the bar so that it looks a great deal like an AA room rather than a bar. The tables are arranged into a square shape (yes, the way you used to sit in school). The bar is open, but the alcoholic beverages have been locked up. The blood taps are available and there's a selection of bottled blood sitting on top of the bar. It is clearly self serve. There's also a selection of pastries on the bar for those that like a little nibble with their blood. Next to this is a large fishbowl filled with folded slips of paper. There's a small sign next to it that urges each participant to take a question from the fishbowl, help yourself to some refreshment and have a seat.

On their folded slips of paper, participants will find such questions:

Were you ever human? If so, when was that? What are you now?
How do you define 'humanity'?
What is your opinion of humans? Why? How did you develop this opinion?
Discuss the relationships you currently have with humans.
What is the most important factor in maintaining your humanity? Do you feel it's important to maintain?
Has there been a change in your humanity, for the better or worse? What prompted that?
Discuss some of the advantages and disadvantages of humanity.

Just in case anyone has any doubt that we're here for business and not pleasure, the jukebox has been locked down as well.]

ooc:as with other posts, don't feel limited by these questions. Feel free to add your own and assume these are just some of the questions in the fishbowl. Mingle, make new threads, interrupt threads and enjoy! Note that your character does not have to be non-human to be here! Humans struggle with their humanity sometimes too!

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	vikingly 2013-09-20 10:14 pm UTC (link)
	Clearly someone who's lost touch with reality. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thehighlord 2013-09-21 07:44 am UTC (link)
	Well I suppose we should at least try and appreciate the effort, misguided or not. [He turns the paper over as if expecting a joke on the back.] So, Mr. Northman, what is the most important factor in maintaining your humanity? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-09-21 09:21 pm UTC (link)
	[ Eric actually grumbles a little, taking a sip of his blood again. ] Surrounding myself with humans that don't make me want to pluck out my own eyeballs and drive nails through my eardrums in order to avoid hearing or seeing them. It is a difficult, arduous task. [ He takes a drink of blood. ] And yourself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thehighlord
2013-09-21 09:48 pm UTC (link)

You really think so little of them? [He's always possessed the ability to sound like a father-figure who is vaguely disappointed in an answer, even when he's talking to a relative stranger. It's a ~~obnoxious~~ gift.]

I've learned the hard way to make rules for how I conduct myself and my power. I have lines I no longer let myself cross. It keeps me safe to be around, and lets me be something like other people.

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	vikingly 2013-09-24 08:10 pm UTC (link)
	I think so little of most of them. [ He smirks, almost daring Saetan to tell him why he shouldn't. ] However, there are enough of them that manage to be extraordinary to make up for those that aren't. [ He thinks about that a moment. ] I understand that sometimes things like that can help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thehighlord
2013-09-24 08:33 pm UTC (link)

[There's actually something like approval in Saetan's yellow gaze. It's a more nuanced answer than he expected, and he likes it better than someone who sees only good or evil.] I don't think I gave you enough credit, Mr. Northman. I apologize.

I had to quite literally tear the world apart to learn it, but yes, sometimes it helps. Its very easy for me to become a monster if I don't pay attention.

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	vikingly 2013-09-26 02:25 pm UTC (link)
	[ Once, a long time ago, Eric might've seen things as simply good and evil, but he's seen far too much in his time to do so anymore. ] People rarely do. Then it's fortunate you finally did learn control. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thehighlord 2013-09-26 02:38 pm UTC (link)
	[A chuckle and a sip of his glass of blood at the comment. Then the good-natured expression vanishes, leaving something so much darker under those yellow eyes.] Perhaps. Some days I'm not so sure. I let two of my sons be taken and tortured for centuries rather than break those self-imposed rules. That was not so fortunate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-09-26 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	[ Eric arches an eyebrow ] I should say so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thehighlord 2013-09-26 09:30 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, well, the last time I lost a child our world lost a continent in retaliation. Its difficult to find a middle ground between the two responses. [Its an odd thing for him to mention, since he doesn't usually talk about Zuulaman, but thanks to the blood he's been drinking he feels unusually forthcoming.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-09-27 05:56 pm UTC (link)
	And yet I can understand the retaliation. I spent a thousand years getting revenge on the person who killed my children. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thehighlord 2013-09-27 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	I'm so very sorry to hear that. It's not an easy loss. Did you find the revenge you were looking for? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-09-28 04:40 pm UTC (link)
	I did. Eventually. I thought perhaps what it meant to me would fade over time, but it didn't. In fact, I think it was better for the timing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thehighlord
2013-09-28 05:35 pm UTC (link)

I wish I had your patience. I have something of a temper. Two of my sons were taken from me when they were small, and they've spent centuries in pain as a result. I'll admit, I do have some rate elaborate and brutal ideas in mind for those responsible. One of the real benefits to my job is that all I have to do is wait. Everyone does some day, and then they come to me.

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	vikingly 2013-09-28 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	My maker was an excellent teacher. I wasn't born with such patience. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thehighlord 2013-09-29 07:32 am UTC (link)
	Your maker? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vikingly 2013-09-30 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	The vampire who turned me. [ He's aware that there are different kinds of vampires here, both born and made. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thehighlord 2013-10-01 07:37 am UTC (link)
	Ah yes, I had heard that is how things are done with you vampires. It seems a bit horrible to me, honestly. I can't imagine giving the decision over to someone else gives you much time to fully understand the choice you're making and its ramifications. No offense, of course. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

vikingly
2013-10-07 04:20 pm UTC (link)

I didn't. Give the decision over to someone else. My maker allowed me that decision. Of course, he didn't go into great detail about how getting my revenge would be done, but to be fair, I didn't ask questions.

[ Godric hadn't lied, not exactly. He'd told him that he would be more powerful than he ever imagined. That he would give him the time and the strength to exact his revenge.]

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	thehighlord 2013-10-09 08:19 am UTC (link)
	Differences in worlds, I suppose. Even with a reliable prophesy to go on I spent a very long time weighing the decision to become a Guardian. It didn't seem like something that could be decided immediately. But then again I performed the spell myself; perhaps knowing my time to accept an offer from someone else would have caused me to rush things a bit more. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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