[A pause, while she tries to calm down and find her words. Licking her lips she starts again.]
I wasn't allowed to leave because he was trying to protect me. Politically, after he killed the senate... [Well... of course it would be dangerous. While Kaname has done many horrible things, somehow, she doesn't want Reid to think that he's merely a monster. He's still the brother and fiance that she loves. A person who cherished and protected her.]
The senate was working along side my uncle who attacked my school in order to get to me. Even a number of corrupted hunters. [One of her crimes is her help in the death of her uncle when she had to defend herself and her home.]
I didn't agree with what he did that time, but even so...
[He wanted to protect her. Their government had become corrupt.]
Mother and Father raised me in the same place. It's not like the room. I only had to stay in the room because I...refused to eat properly.It's not what you think...
[It's just she wouldn't use her fangs. He wanted to teach her to use them.]
My uncle killed my real brother, so... they just wanted to keep me protected. Kaname wanted to do the same, so he brought me back to our original home. Not everything about him is bad... please don't think such.
[Closing her eyes.]
He's not fully without a heart. I want to find him. And stop him. [Until she can do that she wont ever be able to rest. That person still fully floods her very being.]
He told me that if he couldn't live with me, then he'd rather that I kill him with my own hands, or that he kill me with his. Kaname could never hurt me. [She can't picture that sort of future, when he's done so much to keep her safe and protected, even at the expense of others.] And I... I don't want to hurt him, either.
[It's why all her pondering at home came down to a rather hopeless and self destructive decision.]
I just wish things were the way they were before it got so confusing.