[Genuine. Maybe some of it has been wrong, but in the end would she do anything differently if she could go back now? She's not so sure.]
I've lost all of my family. Big Brother is all that I have left. This form makes it sound like it's wrong to want to be together. By now many sad things have happened, but even still he's the only person who can live as long as I can.
[He promised her eternity right before he abandoned her.]
He kept me secret all that time. He said we'd always be together... I don't want everything to have been for nothing.