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Dirk Strider (smuppeteer) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-09-09 12:54:00

Entry tags:

bro strider, dirk strider, jake english

Day 236 [action/closed]
[ Closed because I'm still actually on hiatus, and so as not to distract from the newbies. ]

[ When Dirk wakes up, his head is spinning, he feels nauseous and overwhelmed.

He cut his head off. They entered the game. Five months-- five months of nothing, of solving shitty game puzzles, of going on dates with Jake, and then...

...and now Dirk kind of wants to break something. He feels sick. What the fuck is wrong with him, how is he this much of a fuckup. Why is he such a piece of shit? With a light growl, he moves to get out of bed... and fails, because his boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, is fucking spooning him.

And then it all comes crashing into place. Dimensional stabilizer glitch. New memories of events he didn't actually experience, but they happened anyway? To alpha Dirk, he guesses? But he, this Dirk, has actually been here for the past two months.

He freezes in place as he tries to decide what to do. ]

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	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	[Jake grumbles when Dirk tries to move out of bed. He says something unintelligible and the arm around Dirk's waist gets tight. Jake presses up against Dirk's back even closer.] Don't... go... [And a sleepy kiss to the back of Dirk's neck.] (Reply to this) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:08 pm UTC (link)
	[ Jake probably has no idea just how deeply that cuts. Dirk starts to shake. He grits his teeth and shoves away from Jake, stumbling to his feet. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:10 pm UTC (link)
	[Not used to being so roughly shoved away, Jake is now away. Confused, he sits up and looks at Dirk.] ...Dirk? [Does he really need to pee or something?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

smuppeteer
2013-09-09 04:13 pm UTC (link)

[ He stares at Jake. Eyes roam over his face, wide and angry and hurt.

But Jake doesn't remember any of it, does he. He doesn't remember running away and leaving Dirk to stew in a miasma of self-hatred. He doesn't remember Trickster Mode or any of that shit.

So what exactly is Dirk allowed to get upset at him about?

He covers his face with his hands for a second before raking them up to tear through his hair in frustration. ]

Fuck!

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	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:15 pm UTC (link)
	[Jake's not completely clueless. He senses something is Distinctly Wrong. It probably doesn't have anything to do with the bathroom, either.] Did you have a nightmare? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:17 pm UTC (link)
	Hah. [ That probably sounds more bitter and cutting than it should. Guess how many fucks Dirk gives. ] I just lived out a fucking nightmare is what happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:25 pm UTC (link)
	Well Heavens to Betsy, man, out with it! Don't just sound there like a buffoon. [He pats the bed next to him.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:26 pm UTC (link)
	[ He doesn't move. He's not going to sit next to Jake. ] Dimensional stabilizer fuck-up. New memories. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:28 pm UTC (link)
	[This doesn't seem like it's going to be very good news.] Er, all right. And...? Did you get your head back? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:30 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. ... [ Ugh. No. He turns, moves to the dresser to grab some clothes. ] I'm not discussing this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:37 pm UTC (link)
	Wait!!! [Jake, not thinking Dirk's mood has anything to do with himself, suddenly scrambles out of bed after him, intending to grab his arm.] Do you- I mean. Do you still? Do we...? [OUT WITH IT, MAN!!! He can't.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:38 pm UTC (link)
	[ Dirk flash-steps out of Jake's reach. He's now on the other side of the room, getting dressed. ] No. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:41 pm UTC (link)
	Huh? [DAGNABBIT DIRK he hates when you do that. He whirls around, feeling kinda dizzy. He did just wake up, after all.] No? No what? [He deflates] Oh, conflabbit, Dirk. If this is one of your confalutin' schemes to test our relationship--! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:43 pm UTC (link)
	[ He grits his teeth, hands shaking imperceptibly. ] We don't fucking have a relationship, Jake! Not anymore. [ He's going to regret this later, but right now the memories are too fresh in his mind. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 04:45 pm UTC (link)
	[That takes a second to process. Just the other day... they were building snow forts together and laying in the snow and being best bros who also kissed and held hands and it was fun and warm and admittedly nice and he just doesn't really understand.] Did I screw up somewhere? [He must have, right?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:47 pm UTC (link)
	[ No. This Jake didn't screw up, and the Jake who Dirk remembers-- that was really all Dirk's fault in the end, and Hal's, but really what's the fucking difference. Dirk doesn't answer. He just storms from the room once he's finished dressing. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

skulltop
2013-09-09 04:52 pm UTC (link)

[Oh, man... that's not a good reaction.

At first Jake doesn't really know what to do. Should he ask someone for their advice? Would Bro know what to do? uu? Helix? But what if by then things get really bad!!!

After a moment's hesitation, he runs out in his boxers. He has to at least apologize for hurting his best friend's feelings!! And then he can ask for advice.]

Wait!!

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	smuppeteer 2013-09-09 04:57 pm UTC (link)
	[ For the first time in a while, Dirk is glad the girls are gone. There's nobody around to witness this hella uncool display. He freezes once he reaches the living room. His entire body is rigid. ] We don't have anything to discuss. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skulltop 2013-09-09 05:01 pm UTC (link)
	Well I. I just that that perhaps I ought to apologize. [Oh no. Now he's scared and nervous. He fidgets.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

smuppeteer
2013-09-09 05:05 pm UTC (link)

[ Dirk releases a sharp breath through his teeth.

He wants to tear his fucking heart out and pound it against the floor until it stops beating, until he stops feeling this ache in his chest, this stinging behind his eyes, this fullness in his throat to the point that he feels like he can't even talk.

But try as he might he isn't a robot.

On shaking legs, he storms from the apartment without acknowledging Jake's apology. ]

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	skulltop 2013-09-09 05:08 pm UTC (link)
	[Jake just collapses on the couch where on the coffee table like ten boxes of pizza from their week still sat. He sniffles. Then he starts to cry. He really fucked up. And the worst part is he can't remember what he even did.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	proboscalypse 2013-09-10 01:12 am UTC (link)
	[Bro is heading out of Plush Rump for the day, mind mostly occupied with getting something to eat. Maybe he'll pick up a pizza or something and share with Dave. Honest;y, he's been feeling pretty alright with the whole prison situation lately. He wouldn't call himself complacent but his life here ain't bad. Got a business, got no bills, got Dave, got babyself...] (Reply to this) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 01:15 am UTC (link)
	[ Babyself is wandering aimlessly, trying to find someplace where he doesn't want to just scream his lungs out. But there is no place like that, so he's just sort of. Going nowhere. He wanders through Sector Four, kicking up patches of grass and flowers. And then he sees Bro. And he turns and walks the other way. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

proboscalypse
2013-09-10 01:23 am UTC (link)

[well speak of the devil.

Bro raises an eyebrow as he spots Dirk kicking shit and then watches, amused, as he spins on his heel and tries to escape. Predictable. One day the kid is going to realize that turning his back on someone like Bro is really fucking stupid and also an amazingly ineffective way of avoiding him. Dirk will never escape himself.

Bro is walking next to him in less than a second.]

You poutin' bout something?

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	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 01:25 am UTC (link)
	[ Of course. Because it's not like Dirk can ever be allowed to get away from himself. He'd be more reasonable at any other time. But right now, he's anything but reasonable. He's full of angst and manpain and he has no one to take it out on but himself. So he round on Bro and punches at him. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

proboscalypse
2013-09-10 01:44 am UTC (link)

[Woah there bucko.

Bro is actually taken by surprise because the only time Dirk has ever outright attacked him is when he had a legit reason to. Obviously Bro pushes his buttons all the damn time but Dirk has never gotten fed up enough to snap before. Something is up.

The punch connects with his stomach and it's not strong enough to make him double over but it still hurts and so he immediately grabs for fistful of Dirk's hair.]

The fuck?

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	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 01:48 am UTC (link)
	[ Dirk barely side-steps that grab. He grabs for Bro's arm, aiming to flip him over his back. ] Just fuck off and die already! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	proboscalypse 2013-09-10 01:55 am UTC (link)
	[Bro tries to intercept those grabby hands by wrapping his fingers around Dirk's wrists and pulling him up by his arms.] Nah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 01:57 am UTC (link)
	[ Sigh. Didn't this happen before? Dirk glowers at Bro, rage swelling in his chest until every other thought is pushed completely out of him. He struggles, kicking and squirming and shouting obscenities and basically making an embarrassing mess of himself. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

proboscalypse
2013-09-10 02:31 am UTC (link)

[well if you dont learn the first time...

WOW OK. Bro loses his hold on one of dirk's arms between all that flailing and probably getting kicked repeatedly. Starting to get a little pissed, he lowers Dirk to the ground but tightens his grip on the one he still has, and twists it hard.]

Settle the fuck down, you lil shithead, it's fuckin' shameful how sloppy you are.

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	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 03:17 am UTC (link)
	I didn't ask for a fuckin' lecture! [ He gasps as Bro twists his arm. He shoves his free shoulder up against Bro to try and knock him away. Tears are streaming down his dumb baby cheeks from underneath his shades. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

proboscalypse
2013-09-10 03:50 am UTC (link)

Oh christ.

[Tears...? goddammit. He assumes it's Jake related and is completely unsurprised and a lot more pissed off by the fact that Dirk is freaking out. Bro can't stop Dirk from shoving at him but he shoves back, using his weight to try to push him to the ground and pin his arms behind his head.]

Ain't nobody lecturing, dumbass. I'm warning you that if you don't start calmin' down right fuckin' now, I'll make you calm down.

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	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 03:54 am UTC (link)
	[ It's more Dirk-related, really. Because Dirk is a stupid fuckup who is sick of himself. He's on the ground, kicking at Bro and making to roll away. ] Yeah, I'd like to see you try! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	proboscalypse 2013-09-10 04:06 am UTC (link)
	[Bro just stares at his babyself in an extremely condescending way and calmly settles his weight over Dirk to keep him from rolling, taking a few kicks in the process but whatever. They'll just be bruises. And then he smoothly takes one of Dirk's arms and yanks, attempting to dislocate his shoulder.] Don't fucking test me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 04:10 am UTC (link)
	[ Dirk grits his teeth to try and keep from screaming. A strangled howl of a sound escapes him and he goes limp underneath Bro. His breath comes in short, ragged bursts and his skin suddenly feels clammy. But in a way? He kind of feels like he deserved that. He kind of feels like he deserves more than that. He spits in Bro's face. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

proboscalypse
2013-09-10 04:53 am UTC (link)

[There's a flicker of something in Dirk's eyes that isn't pain. It strikes something deep in Bro, reminding Bro of something he had buried a long, long time ago. Pure, intense, self-hatred.

Dirk hates himself, feels like a fuck-up, doesn't mind the pain because he's a piece of shit and should be punched in the face. And who better to do that than himself? That's probably why he started this fight. This clearly wasn't as related to Jake as he thought. This was all Dirk.

He could help with this.

Bro wipes the spit off his face and grinds it with the heel of one of his palms into Dirk's tear-stained cheek. The other hand presses lightly against Dirk's windpipe, almost caressing.]

Kiddo...you fucked up real bad, huh.

[Sweely soft and so patronizing.]

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	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 04:59 am UTC (link)
	[ Dirk's heart skips a beat in his chest. He fucked up real bad. He's in a pretty awful position now. But it's no less than he deserves. He smirks up at Bro, but it's a hollow expression. ] Kiss my ass. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	proboscalypse 2013-09-10 05:17 am UTC (link)
	[Bro stretches his fingers around Dirk's neck and squeezes when he smirks. He stops grinding in the spit and tenderly brushes away the bangs from younger self's forehead before bringing it down to join the other hand trying to cut of Dirk's air supply.] Think you'd enjoy that too much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 05:23 am UTC (link)
	[ A desperate gasp when Bro squeezes. He was expecting this, a little, but now that it's happening his first reaction is to panic. The arm whose shoulder isn't dislocated flails, hand shoving at Bro's face. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	proboscalypse 2013-09-10 05:36 am UTC (link)
	[He expected a struggle, but he's not going to let up. He's going to see this to completion even though Dirk is trying to push him away. He tightens the chokehold to completely cut off the air and makes a low soothing noise in his throat, almost nuzzling his face against Dirk's hand.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

smuppeteer
2013-09-10 05:42 am UTC (link)

[ Terror surges through his body. While it's certainly a nice change of pace from his visceral self-loathing, that doesn't stop Dirk from struggling and gaping like a beached fish.

For a few seconds, anyway. Before long he's feeling dizzy. His arm falls to the ground, vision tunnelling and blurring.

It's okay, though, he thinks to himself hazily. What better possible outcome could he hope for? ]

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	proboscalypse 2013-09-10 05:52 am UTC (link)
	[Bro watches Dirk's face very closely, noting when it ceases looking terrified and starts looking almost pleased. He can feel Dirk's pulse thudding under his fingertips and he's ready to let go as soon as he goes unconscious.] It's okay. I promise I'll give you exactly what you deserve. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smuppeteer 2013-09-10 05:58 am UTC (link)
	[ Later he'll look back on this and hate himself for appreciating it. But, he appreciates it. Unconsciousness swallows him up, a welcome reprieve from the hell that is Being Dirk Strider. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

proboscalypse
2013-09-10 06:18 am UTC (link)

[Bro's hands fall away from Dirk's throat immediately and he stands up. He looks down at babyself's body... sort of fondly. Also sort of annoyed. Dirk's such a dumbass. Was he that much of a dumbass when he was that age?? Probably. Sigh.

He scoops up Dirk's body, trying to mind the dislocated arm but also not really trying that hard. The bots will fix it. He can't really feel the pain right now.

And then he heads to the hospital.]

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