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Tweak says, "BRUSH YOUR TEETH!!"

helen magnus, m.d. d.t.c.x.b. (lifelines) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-09-08 00:26:00

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damon salvatore, helen magnus, peggy carter, rebekah mikealson, rose

day 235 | action; ota | locked voice;
[ day 235 begins early and ends late. it's obvious to anyone who runs across her that she hasn't slept well. she's kept herself up or something did and now she's got a lot on her mind. she does make an attempt to keep to her normal schedule and can be found at the clinic for a good part of the day. towards mid-afternoon, she gives up that idea, after having found herself lost in thought for the tenth time that hour. she looks for martha to let her know that she's leaving early and not to take her temperature. the last thing she wants is for someone to think she's fallen ill, though she wouldn't blame them if they did.

after that, she wanders the dome. the library, the parks, the beach, and the athletic complex are all fair game for her stops. at the end of the time normally considered early evening, she finally turns to her communicator and sends a private voice communication to rebekah. ]

You wouldn't happen to know where to get a good bottle of wine or two, would you?

[ it's completely another request to talk with her friend, because she really needs to work some things out and if anyone can help her sort out her thoughts, it's rebekah. ]

( ooc: she can be found literally anywhere in the dome or in the morning / early afternoon hours at the clinic! )

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easily
2013-09-25 07:27 pm UTC (link)

It's hard when people lie to your face, isn't it?

[Rebekah knows this feeling implicitly because all anyone ever seems to do to her is lie. But no one has done it more than Niklaus.]

I told you how my parents made us into vampires, didn't I? It was because my youngest brother, Henrik, had been killed by one of the werewolves in the village. They wanted to protect us, make us stronger, but the ritual turned us into monsters.

[Rebekah can still remember that first urge to kill, how she could not understand the craving for blood or the way the sun scorched her skin.]

Werewolves in my world -- they only trigger the curse if they kill someone. It was after our first kill as vampires that we discovered my mother had had an affair. My brother, Niklaus, was half werewolf. He was both, a hybrid.

My mother tried to fix it, tried to hide her shame by repressing his werewolf side. He saw that as rejection -- and Nik never took rejection.

[And this is the part that is still difficult for Rebekah. Though her mother's more recent returns has made it easier to swallow she still remembers the sorrow she had felt then. Would she have made that promise, always and forever, if she had known the truth?]

Nik told us our father killed her because of a jealous rage. For a thousand years, I believed this implicitly while our father hunted us to the ends of the earth.

It was only fairly recently that I discovered the truth. My brother had lied to us for all those years. All he does is lies and manipulates. Takes what he wants and discards things when he's done with him.

I forgave so much, because he was my brother. He was my family. But some people don't change.

I don't want to be one of them. I don't want to be like him. Bitter and angry and unable to allow anything in but that darkness. I want better than that.

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lifelines
2013-09-25 07:46 pm UTC (link)

[ and suddenly, a lot about them both makes sense. they both understand the feeling of losing someone so vastly important, of realizing that the one person they've loved above all else is no longer the person they once knew. reconciling those differences, understanding and accepting that things will never be the same, is a long and arduous process, one helen finds herself still traveling down to this day. from the sound of it, that path is one rebekah needs to journey as well.

instinctively, helen reaches to squeeze rebekah's hand, in comfort for which woman, she isn't quite sure, but her eyes are shining with tears. ]

You are neither John nor your brother. You are who you are and I fully believe you are capable of being whatever you want. If you want better than that darkness, I know you'll find it.

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	easily 2013-09-25 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	[It is an every day process, not one Rebekah thinks she will ever really be done with, honestly. The squeeze surprises her a little. People rarely show her comfort or kindness, it's something that feels alien to Rebekah at this point and her own eyes wetten with tears.] Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lifelines 2013-09-26 04:08 pm UTC (link)
	[ helen just nods, her voice sticking somewhere in the back of her throat. ] We immortals have to stick together, don't we? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	easily 2013-09-26 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	[she smiles a little at that.] We do. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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