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caroline forbes ([info]amplified) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2013-07-29 14:34:00

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Entry tags:caroline forbes, elena gilbert, stefan salvatore

action || closed to elena and stefan
[ threads will be started in the comments! also! if anyone wants to poke caroline this is where you can do it! judge her on her poor life decisions!]



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action || to elena || backdated to just after tyler's arrival
[info]amplified
2013-07-29 07:50 pm UTC (link)
[ the walk back to the apartment was the longest of her life. she never felt worse about anything she'd done. it's confusing to feel such incredible guilt when the source of it was something that made her so happy. and by the time she's back at the apartment, she's full on crying, tyler's words echoing in her ears, the look of hurt on his face behind her eyelids each time she closed her eyes.

she slips inside the apartment and closes the door behind her, moving to lean against the door and cover her face, sliding down to the floor as she just cries, softly, as she struggles to breathe right. and she hopes that no one's home to find her like this.]

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[info]matter
2013-08-01 10:48 am UTC (link)
[ elena's home - simply completing tasks around the apartment. (tyler's here; the sheriff is here. she wants to see them both but knows caroline has her time with them first. she needs that.) she's folding some clothes when she hears the door shut and then waits for the inevitable hello from bonnie or caroline.

it doesn't come, but she does hear something that sounds like crying. she puts down the clothes and walks slowly out into the hall. she knows it's crying now, and she knows it's caroline.

she's not sure what it could be - her mom or tyler or -

is it stefan? some combination of? did caroline tell - ?

she pulls in a breath when she finds her by the door, feels pangs of worry and pain.
] Caroline?

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[info]amplified
2013-08-01 11:26 am UTC (link)
[ her hopes are dashed when she hears footsteps and then sees elena approaching her. she doesn't bother trying to hide the fact she's crying, she does, however, try to stand up, sniffling as she does.]

I... [ she can tell elena, even if it's awkward territory when it comes to stefan.] I had to tell him.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 07:51 pm UTC (link)
[ the guilt caroline carries with her feels like a hundred pound weight on her shoulders. and it's only made worse when she realizes she hasn't talked to stefan since tyler arrived. she hopes he'd understand that she just needed time to process, that all of this was just... well, a lot. and all of her doing.

still, stefan's been there for her and despite the fact that what they did is the reason she's in this whole mess, she finds herself at his door, knocking. she wants to see him, to hear him say that'll be okay, that she's not some horrible person for breaking tyler's heart, for doing what felt right in her own.]

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[info]sanguino
2013-07-30 01:14 am UTC (link)
[Stefan had known perfectly well that he shouldn't get involved when Tyler arrived. He'd played nice, stayed away, and let Caroline deal with it. Because as much as he wanted to be by her side, do the whole protective thing, that was only going to cause drama and a fight, and he knew Care wouldn't want that.

Still, Stefan couldn't help but feel some anxiety over the whole thing. He cared about Caroline a lot, didn't want to lose her, and didn't want to be alone, and he didn't want to think that everything had been for nothing, that it had all been a mistake, and that Caroline might just go back to him.

Now he knew how Damon felt, didn't he.

He went to the door after hearing the knock, and as he pulled the door open, filled with both surprise and relief to see her, though that relief was almost completely overrun by worry. Tyler had a temper, and he didn't even know if Caroline had even told him. Maybe she was going to tell him to stay quiet.

He really had no idea where this was going to go at all.]


Hey.

[It's all he can think to say, until he knows where he stands at all.]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-30 01:20 am UTC (link)
Hey. [ she barely got the words out before tears started to well up in her eyes. she didn't want to do the whole crying thing but here she was, tearing up. honestly, it was a relief to see him and the fact that she felt that way, that she felt some sort of excitement upon seeing his face only made the guilt flare up inside of her.

no matter how happy she felt with stefan, she still hurt tyler.

but that didn't stop her from stepping into his apartment to wrap her arms around him and bury her face into his neck. even if a part of her was worried that he wouldn't want anything to do with her anymore, now that tyler's back, even if things are so complicated she can't see straight, stefan is still her friend. and she needs her friend more than ever.]

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[info]sanguino
2013-07-30 02:36 am UTC (link)
[His arms slip around her automatically, and he feels both warmth and concern over Caroline's state. At least he knows that, at the very least, he won't lose her completely.]

Hey, it's alright.

[His voice is as soothing as he can make it, one hand running over her hair and the other holding her to him as he guides her inside, closing the door behind her with his foot.]

It's going to be okay.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-30 02:44 am UTC (link)
It's not alright. [ she says, her voice every bit of broken as she feels as he guides her inside and closes the door behind him. she buries her face into his neck, her voice muffled a bit but he should be able to understand it.] I hurt him so badly. You didn't see the look on his face. And he... he got so angry, he started to turn or something. [ she honestly didn't know he could do that.

she pulls back a little to look at him, her eyes lowering immediately with shame.]
I feel like this horrible, awful person because I love him but I... I can't not feel things for you.

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[info]sanguino
2013-07-30 02:50 am UTC (link)
[Stefan doesn't say anything, not right away. What can he say, when he's partly to blame for all of this. It sucks, because of all the ways that he'd thought this could have blown up in his face, this was not one of the ones he'd imagine. Maybe it was even worse.]

You're not a horrible person, Caroline.

[He believed that whole-heartedly, had seen more good in her than most people. She'd seen and grown so much since he'd met her.

Still, to hear her say she still loved him struck him in a way he didn't realize it would, because he knew that going into this, and while she didn't belong to him, there was a part of him that wished she did.]


I know. It's not something I can just...turn off either.

[The way he feels about her, the way he used to feel about Elena. Hell, even Katherine. Feelings like those never did quite disappear completely.]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-30 03:00 am UTC (link)
[ She can't stop loving Tyler overnight. That's what made her a horrible person, for giving into her feelings, her urges, for not having enough control over herself to stop when things got so physical. She wanted it so badly, wanted to feel anything besides what she'd been feeling, and well, her feelings for Stefan didn't help matters either.

She shakes her head at what he says last.]
That's the thing... that's the thing that makes me bad, Stefan. [ Her eyes lift up to meet with his.] I don't want to turn it off. [ The way she feels about him, the things she feels for him.] And I hate that I hurt him, I hate it but I... wouldn't change what I did.

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[info]sanguino
2013-07-31 02:48 am UTC (link)
[Breath escapes him as she speaks, because it was more than he expected to hear, and yet it was everything he'd wanted. It was complicated, that much he was sure of, and he didn't know if he could call it love just yet, but maybe it could be, when they both didn't have all these things around to make it harder for them.

But he wanted to try. Maybe she did too, even with Tyler here.]


Then don't.

[He just didn't want to get his hopes up. Not after what happened the last time he fell for a girl.

His hand slipped to cradle her hair, and he wanted to kiss her. The sight of the black band around his wrist stopped him, though, knowing what would happen if he did.]


We'll figure it out, okay?

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[info]amplified
2013-07-31 06:29 am UTC (link)
[ It's too soon for her to just give up the love she feels for Tyler and transfer it to Stefan. And Tyler being here complicates things more than she can say. She doesn't know what to do. But the last thing she wants to do is be like Katherine, to string along two men until things are so twisted and broken that nothing will ever be the same.

But now she understands, at least, how Elena feels, how you can care for two people and the impossible choice you have to make.]


How? [ She asks him brokenly, knowing it's an unfair question to which he probably doesn't have an answer, his hand sliding through her hair comfortingly. She leans into his touch before pressing her forehead to his with a sigh that is much too heavy for someone her age.] In the end I'm gonna have to hurt one of you and I just... I don't want to hurt anyone. [ And Stefan had been her rock here, how can she give that up, how can she hurt him like he'd been hurt so many times before?]

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-01 10:22 pm UTC (link)
[His thumb ran over the side of her face as their foreheads pressed together, and he was silent for a moment. He didn't have a good answer for her. In the end, it was her decision.]

You need to do what's best for you.

[And while he thought that he was better than Tyler, that he and Caroline made more sense than Tyler, that wasn't his call to make.]

And I'm not going to let him give you a hard time.

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[info]amplified
2013-08-01 10:31 pm UTC (link)
Stefan... [ Her eyes open to look at his face, her voice barely a whisper.] It's better just to leave him alone, okay? [ She doesn't want Tyler or Stefan fighting, not when they're all in this together.]

He just... needs some time. And I need time figure out what to do about him. [ Because a part of her still pangs for him, loves him. But there's a loyalty to Stefan, one that's been there all along but now it's something much more intense.]

He deserves someone else, someone better than me. [ Not that Stefan didn't deserve someone great too.]

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-04 02:16 pm UTC (link)
[He doesn't say anythign to that, because it's not something he can promise, just like when Damon hurt he. He wouldn't go looking for trouble, for her sake, but he wouldn't just sit and watch her be abused, either.

At the mention of time, though, he just reluctantly nods his head. Patience is not something he's always good at, not when it comes to things like this. And it's not the first time he's had to do it, either.

He shakes his head at the last part, frowning.]


No, he doesn't. He's not better than you, Caroline. Did he say that?

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[info]amplified
2013-08-04 02:45 pm UTC (link)
[ Caroline doesn't want to make him wait, to make him feel anything other than how special he is. But this whole situation is a mess, an utter mess. But at his question, she shakes her head.]

No, he didn't have to.

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-06 02:08 pm UTC (link)
[He presses his lips together, his hands clenching and unclenching. He knows very well what it's like to blame yourself for the pain of others...so of course he's going to try to do it again. It's better than watching someone else he cares about hurt.]

I am just as much to blame as your are. And you deserve to have whatever you want, no matter what anyone thinks.

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[info]amplified
2013-08-07 09:05 pm UTC (link)
[ Another sigh follows and she glances down at his chest, her hands moving to rest there.] I didn't want to hurt anyone. And you have nothing to feel guilty about.

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-08 12:58 pm UTC (link)
[Stefan always has something to feel guilty about. It's his shtick. But he doesn't say so, because guilt is something he tries to hide, bury deep, and forget about.

The last part is the one he's never managed to do.]


I know you didn't. I'll be here for you either way.

[If she's not going to choose him, he'd rather it happen now before he falls to deeply. He doesn't think he can take that again.]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-08 01:02 pm UTC (link)
[ She's quiet, her heart feels like it's clenched so tightly that she might faint. Why is it like this? She loves Tyler, she thinks, things have been so confusing since being here. But there's something there between she and Stefan.]

Either way... [ She repeats his words, hating the way that sounds, hates that there's a chance she'll hurt Stefan too. Hurting Tyler was hard enough.] I wanted to pick you. I want to be with you. [ But she's not over Tyler either.]

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-10 12:39 pm UTC (link)
[He hates the way it sounds too, wishes he'd never had to say it, because the words ring in his ears and make his head hurt.

But her reply is more than he expected, and he knows how hard it is to get over someone. He's living it just as she is. But she was helping. She always did.

So black wristbands be damned, he moves in to kiss her, because as much as he claims Damon is the impulsive one, he's not immune. He'll deal with the consequences of the force field if it pops up...which it...very well might depending on her reaction.]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-10 01:09 pm UTC (link)
[ This is more about comfort than it is about arousal, it doesn't excite her, it calms her. It makes the ache in her heart settle for a moment. Her arms wrap around him and she kisses him back, softly, gently, knowing full well that in any moment they could maybe get zapped or something by a force field.

Her hand slides up his neck touch his face, thumb brushing along his jaw, wondering briefly if he needs soothing too.]

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-15 12:01 am UTC (link)
[He does, and it shows in the way he leans into her touch, his lips pressing against hers with a sort of hunger than doesn't have anything to do with lust.

Though that's sure to come sooner or later, if he's not careful, so after a short moment he's pulling his lips away, but keeps his forehead pressed against hers, his eyes opening to look into hers.]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-15 12:05 am UTC (link)
[ A soft sound of protest leaves her lips when he pulls back but it's better than getting a shock or into even more trouble, honestly. She keeps her eyes closed for a moment longer as he presses his forehead to hers, letting out a shaky breath before they slip open once more.]

At the risk of making a vampire pun? This really sucks.

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-15 12:11 am UTC (link)
[He can't help the laugh that escapes his lips at that, but there's also a twinge of uncertainty and bitterness to it, if only because he feels exactly the same.]

Yeah, it does. [But he doesn't blame her.] I didn't even get to earn that overnight yet.

[hohoho.]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-15 12:14 am UTC (link)
Hey--[ She gives his shoulder a playful shrug before she moves to wrap her arms around him, pulling him in for an embrace.]

That doesn't mean you won't. [ Which was her way of trying to give him some hope.]

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-16 04:20 pm UTC (link)
[His arms slip around her, tightening around her torso with a gentle squeeze.]

Good to know. [And there was hope and good humor in his tone, bolstered by her reassurance.]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-16 04:24 pm UTC (link)
[ She's not ready to leave yet, hugging him a bit tighter before she nods.] Can we just... watch TV or something mindless?

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-18 11:37 pm UTC (link)
Actually, that sounds perfect.

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[info]amplified
2013-08-18 11:42 pm UTC (link)
[ She smiles softly before moving towards his living room, making herself at home, ready to just sit on the couch and do just that, something mindless.]

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