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Tweak says, "Lumos!"

Jessica Hamby (virgins) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-07-15 03:26:00

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caroline forbes, dirk strider, elena gilbert, eric northman, hei, jack harkness, jessica hamby, martha jones, matt donovan, phoebe halliwell, piter de vries, rose, sam merlotte, sookie stackhouse, spike, terry mcginnis

Day 228 ; Video
[The network opens to Jessica who's taken the time to find some other outfits before doing this this time.]

Feels I went home for a bit, or somethin'. Or I got new memories anyways -- I remember hearin' bout that happenin' to other people. Last thing I remember was it bein' day 216 -- that was twelve days ago. The orange don't suit me much better than it did the first time. Whatever's goin' on it's sure as hell fuckin' weird.

[There's a pause, and then she adds.]

I gotta question for everyone though. If someone you loved, someone you really hurt but still care about, if they wanted to forget about you completely -- what would you do? Like if you could do that for them, would you?

[Because she did. But she's still not sure how she feels about it. Even if she's not in love with Hoyt anymore she still cares about him. For what that's worth.

There's other things, things with Bill and the Authority but that she doesn't want to talk about so publically. How he 's turned into a religious fanatic like her birth parents used to be. It makes her skin crawl. The memories are fresh and make her feel sick to her stomach. She'd rather not focus on them too much.

She closes the feed at that.]

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	blue_eyed 2013-08-31 05:01 pm UTC (link)
	Let him make his choice. If it is as you say, he is no longer yours to aid. [ love counselor piter knows what's up. ordinarily he'd suggest simply taking revenge on this fellow and moving on if their history causes such turmoil, but she obviously wouldn't react well to such advice. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	virgins 2013-09-02 08:03 am UTC (link)
	I owed him, after everything. [The guilt is hard to ignore. She remembers Hoyt's teared filled face as he aimed a gun at her, begging to know why she couldn't love him anymore. It was her fault. She deserves whatever she gets now.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

blue_eyed
2013-09-10 09:44 pm UTC (link)

Tethering oneself to another is a rather foolish practice, I find. [ considering the fact that for many, many years he has known himself to be shackled to his master, perhaps not even to be released in death, he's quite sure that he knows what he's talking about. despite that, he speaks airily, never betraying any of that emotion. ]

Such a tie should be severed quickly and ruthlessly, if it can be at all.

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	virgins 2013-09-11 07:08 am UTC (link)
	Wouldn't that get kinda lonely? [Jess bites her bottom lip in thought. She wonders sometimes if she can ever really love someone like Hoyt loved her, if that's just impossible because of what she is now.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blue_eyed 2013-09-29 12:15 am UTC (link)
	I am perfectly content. [ from an outsider's perspective, analyzing it as a mentat, he can understand how others prefer tenderness and company— others are quaint indeed, he thinks— but he feels that he can't afford such things and has never been destined for them. ] I am no hermit; I merely choose to live as freely as I may. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	virgins 2013-09-29 07:52 am UTC (link)
	It must be nice, to be able to be alone so easily. [Cause it's not easy. Jessica's been left on her own before and it's never been easy for her, nothing she ever stomached well.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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