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Tweak says, "It's bigger on the inside"

Saya Otonashi (crimson_blade) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-06-03 16:49:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, hei, laura kinney, saya otonashi, tear grants, zero kiryuu

[Video//Action | early morning, before activities]
[The video opens to a pale hand groping pitifully at the floor, where the communicator is filming. She must have knocked it when she went fishing for it. With blue-tinged fingernails, the hand finally nabs the comm and drags it upwards, bypassing a plate of what looks like yesterday's dinner (fried rice with cabbage and root vegetables). The food is untouched.]

[Saya's face comes into view. She's trembling, eyes dull and barely open, skin so pale it's nearly translucent.]

...Zero? [Her voice is as small and shaky and devoid of vitality as the rest of her.] And Yuuki, and Aidan... Tear? Laura? I need to... see you. Please?

[Too late to wish for her bed, or a last trip to the sea. Saya won't make it back, if they even are going back. One last image of the people she cares most about will be the best she can do for the last things she'll ever see.]

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((OOC: Saya's final post in Marina. She'll be falling into hibernation after this and dropped from the game. Thanks to everyone who played with her, it's been a great few years!))

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	crimson_blade 2013-06-12 07:23 pm UTC (link)
	[She hadn't really thought he would leave, it was just something that floated through her mind. She can't quite catch all those wisps of thoughts, so the ones she can can indiscriminately spoken.] Will you remember me? [Like that one.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bottomless_pit 2013-06-13 03:16 am UTC (link)
	[ he nodded, brushing a thumb across her knuckle, reassuringly ] I'm not one to forget. [ of course, always, how long can forever be? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

crimson_blade
2013-06-14 08:30 pm UTC (link)

[The words bring tears to her eyes, and not entirely happy ones. Until just now, Saya would have thought she wanted him to remember, but just as much she wishes she could be erased from his memory just as he would be from hers. So he wouldn't have to mourn.]

Hei, I... [She pauses, hesitation rather than exhaustion affecting her just now. She'd wanted her last words for him to mean something, a return of the feelings he admitted so long ago and she could never properly state, but it feels... cruel. Like she'd be shackling him to her fate, a fate even she doesn't want.]

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	bottomless_pit 2013-06-25 04:46 am UTC (link)
	[ Hei shook his head, noting the struggle and the hesitance. He simply continued holding her hand. ] Shh... don't speak; conserve your strength. [ Stay, don't leave him. Give him this moment and this quiet exchange of heat before she drifted into unending sleep. He wanted it to last, because after, he would have to let go. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

crimson_blade
2013-07-05 05:53 pm UTC (link)

[Conserve her strength, is it? Good advice, days and weeks too late. All Saya can think of are leaps across rooftops and useless laps on the track and a thousand other little moments she didn't need. For five more minutes, she give it all back. Such are the bargains of one facing death or a life as good as one.]

[Her shaky hand lifts to cup his cheek, his skin warmth like a gentle flame on her icy palm. It will have to serve as thanks and apology both.]

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bottomless_pit
2013-07-05 09:29 pm UTC (link)

[ he closed his eyes, savoring the touch for the moment it lasted, for the moment he allowed himself to lean on her rather then be her strength. But it was only a moment before he stirred, supporting her hand with a touch of his own, catching her gaze again so that she need not be alone and showing a glimpse of feeling, of vulnerability.

He will stay until she sleeps and then... He can't guarantee her death, but he can try. He still has two hands and if she's human now... ]

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crimson_blade
2013-07-11 09:20 pm UTC (link)

[Even were all her faculties intact that look would pin her flat, bring every thought to a sudden, jerking halt. Instinct has hold of her physically with heavy weights on her eyelids, but a far younger force won't allow her eyes to shut him out.]

[Her mouth moves, words without thought and nearly without sound, instinct of a different kind.]

I love you.

[If she realized, if her mind heard what her lips revealed, she would speaking regret that truth. It will only hold him back.]

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bottomless_pit
2013-07-13 07:19 pm UTC (link)

[ he almost doubted his hearing, grasping onto it with the strength of a thousand starving men only find it fleeting, sand that fell between the cracks of his fingers, that rolled away from the creases in his palms.

Elusive.

If there was hunger in his eyes, it was because she put it there. If his fingers trembled as he held her hand, it was an illusion, a distant mirage that tempted but never gave succor.

She loved him.

He attacked it viscerally, trapping it in the confines of his memory before it could escape, before it could disappear into the dark emptiness of the room, the oddly loud halls of the new dome. He would not let them have this single treasure. And so he swallowed, adam's apple bobbing against the darkness of his skin, the pale color of his prison uniform. And then he spoke, voice hoarse and strained with sentiment. ]

I knew.

[ and he did, after a fashion, but hearing it and knowing it were entirely different things. There was certainty in the saying. ]

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crimson_blade
2013-07-22 11:17 pm UTC (link)

[It's cruel, hindsight. Wishing for what can't be changed. Saya should never have tied him down like that, and for a long, suffocating second she can almost see his feelings lingering with her long after they should have moved on.]

[But it's done, and Saya has no energy for a frantic backpedal even if the lie would be kinder. Instead she blinks, trying to keep her tears back.]

Will you lay with me... until...

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bottomless_pit
2013-07-28 08:34 pm UTC (link)

[ he nodded immediately, trying to cut off her words, still clinging to the illusion of an uncertain death. ]

Hold still.

[ and he'll gently disentangle his fingers from her hand, standing to ease over and behind her. To hold her. It might be easier this way, neither looking in each others' eyes as the moment slipped them by. It would be a deep sleep, nothing more.

He would hold that illusion, despite the truth that it was. ]

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