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Daniel 'Oz' Osbourne (taciturnbeast) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-05-10 14:52:00

Current mood:	guilty
Entry tags:	buffy summers, daniel osbourne, korra, martha jones, piper halliwell, rogue, sam winchester, spike, xander harris

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[Oz has been hiding away since the loss of control over emotions for everyone in the dome. He’d lost control of the wolf and ultimately hurt people. Badly. That doesn’t sit well with Oz. But having locked himself away for awhile was all he could do before he had to accept his punishment. He doesn’t open a video post. It’s just a voice. The fewer people who see him locked away in a cage, the better.]

Hey. It’s Oz. So… chores. I have to help with three of them. Any takers?

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	Here... have some more guilt... notrosesshadow 2013-05-10 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	[Voice] Hello Oz, I don't know if this is considered a chore or not, but you mentioned that you help people with meditation. Mine's not so much for the purposes that I remember you telling me about, but I'm not really getting anywhere and I could use some guidance. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	[ voice ] - All the guilt! taciturnbeast 2013-05-10 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	Meditation is a thing I can do. [He isn't sure it's so much of a chore but he's more than willing to help in this area. It'll vicariously help him as well. Of course, he hasn't realized it was Martha he attacked yet. Everything will click into place eventually.] Want to meet up? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [ voice ] - All the guilt!

notrosesshadow
2013-05-10 09:09 pm UTC (link)

[Part of Martha's not entirely sure why she's asking. While she'd like to hope that Oz will just assume she's meditating for meditation's sake, she has a feeling he's going to ask questions. Granted, now that she's told other people what's happening in her life, she's able to speak about it more easily.]

Sure. I've been practicing in a park recently when the weather's good if that works? [When the weather is good and there aren't any giant wolves attacking her.]

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	[ voice ] taciturnbeast 2013-05-10 09:53 pm UTC (link)
	Sounds good. Två Park in sector two, Trois Park in sector three or Quatro Park in sector four? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	(Sigh... I've been pronouncing it Troys Park until I just saw them all together here. Duh!) notrosesshadow 2013-05-10 10:00 pm UTC (link)
	Trois Park. There's a spot that people tend to skip when they walk around, and it's mostly hidden by foliage. Meet me there? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Silly pronunciations! taciturnbeast 2013-05-10 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	I'll be there. Ten minutes. [Oz knows the parks pretty well since he uses them so often to retreat into. Not since the emotions incident, but before then. So he easily finds the spot she's talking about and waves to her as he approaches, shoving his hands into the pockets of his corduroy pants.] Hey. Nice spot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	The sad part is I took four years of French... notrosesshadow 2013-05-10 10:20 pm UTC (link)
	[Having failed fairly miserably at meditation, Martha was instead sitting against a tree reading the self help book. She tucked it neatly underneath the book on brain chemistry and waved at Oz as he came forward.] Most people leave me alone here. It really is ideal. You'd hardly know we were in an underwater prison. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ah ha! taciturnbeast 2013-05-10 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	It's definitely a resort-like prison. [As he gets closer, his nostrils flare and he pauses. The scent is familiar. And as the wolf's memories flash before him, he knows why. So for the moment, he remains several feet away from Martha, looking for obvious injuries.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: ah ha! notrosesshadow 2013-05-10 11:15 pm UTC (link)
	[Martha doesn't notice him pause because at the moment she is looking around the glen evaluating the resort-like comment. As she examines it, she tucks a stray piece of hair behind her ear, revealing three trails of stitches that disappear up her coat sleeve.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	taciturnbeast 2013-05-10 11:39 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. [His chin lifts just a bit, his gaze settled on her arm.] Stitches? [He knows exactly what happened, the memory of it flashing in front of him in vivid detail. The wolf inside is nipping at his insides for a repeat since he already knows the scent of her blood. He looks up to her eyes.] You okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2013-05-11 12:03 am UTC (link)

[After Rose and Dawn, Martha knows what she's going to say. Finally. She acts nonchalant, though her shoulders twitch as though in discomfort.]

I met a dog who took issue with me.

[See? Non-threatening. There's been no issue lately and she's let at least three very competent people know what happened to her. They're on a lookout if it comes back.]

Just some scratches is all.

[Still, she tugs down her jacket sleeve to cover them up.]

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	taciturnbeast 2013-05-12 05:51 pm UTC (link)
	[He still hesitates a moment, draws in a deep breath, and then finally moves to sit close to her, crossing his legs and leaning back, his palms in the grass.] Apologies aren't enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2013-05-12 10:35 pm UTC (link)

[Martha's a little concerned as Oz seems apprehensive. She doesn't know why he would be apprehensive, but he clearly is. She furrows her brow as he sits, not quite expecting what he says next.]

Apologies for what?

[She assumes he means what she was reading. What else could it be?]

But I suppose you saw what I was reading. And I did try to apologize. I really did. It doesn't mean anything though. Not when you have secrets.

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	taciturnbeast 2013-05-13 01:19 am UTC (link)
	Secrets are always with the trouble making. [He agrees whole-heartedly. His own secrets are what unintentionally caused those scars on her arm. He nods and looks down into the grass.] So what's your secret? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2013-05-13 01:34 am UTC (link)

[Martha rolls her eyes. There's so many.]

Well, that resistance I told you about? It's hard to tell your fiance that the first time you met him he died to protect you. Or the nightmares you suffer are from watching billions of people die in a timeline that doesn't exist.

[She pulls out the book about coming back from break-ups from behind her back.]

He left me...

[Martha looks lost for a moment and then looks back at him, swallowing back her tears.]

And... what about you? You seem as though... as though secrets aren't new to you.

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taciturnbeast
2013-05-13 05:36 pm UTC (link)

Some people can't handle the weird. [Oz agrees. He knows that all too well, given his travels, his search for control over the wolf inside of him.] I'm sorry. [And he genuinely is. He knows how hard it can be to lose people no matter how they're lost.

He nods, slowly. Trying to come up with the best way of saying what his secret is.] Speaking of weird...

[He pauses again, staring intently at his hand as his palm moves back and forth over the tops of the blades of grass. As always he's completely calm on the outside, barely even emoting. That's just the way Oz is.] I'm a werewolf.

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notrosesshadow
2013-05-13 05:45 pm UTC (link)

[Martha shrugs away his apology. It's not that she doesn't accept it, it's just she's putting up armor to make the pain stay away. But then Oz continues with his secret. For a moment Martha is absolutely still as what he says sinks in. The whole idea of werewolves still seems like fiction even though she's fairly certain she encountered one. But then it does sink in and she's fully aware her back is to a tree and Oz is blocking her only way out, so now she's stuck and maybe he's not the one who harmed her but she's nervous. But she blinks instead and focuses on his chin rather than his eyes because isn't that what your supposed to do when a dog is staring at you? But he's not a dog he's a human and now she's confused so her gaze flits back up to his eyes where the alarm is obvious though the rest of her seems calm.]

A werewolf. As in... you turn into a wolf at the full moon and then... and then do things...

[Involuntarily she starts fingering the stitches of her arm as she starts working through when he changed last and do they even have a moon cycle here for her to worry about. But she's still sitting.]

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	taciturnbeast 2013-05-14 09:44 pm UTC (link)
	[The movement causes Oz to look over to where her fingers touch the stitches. For a brief moment the entire attack flashes in his mind until he looks away again and nods.] I'm usually in control. Worked hard for it. It's been... a long time since I lost it like that. [He's pretty sure she's putting two and two together.] I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2013-05-15 03:03 am UTC (link)

[Martha had been figuring it out, and listening to the subtext he was giving her, it was clear Oz was the one who attacked her. So many questions run through her head as well as accusations and the like. Forcefully keeping herself sitting, she figures out what to say.]

In control through meditation. Focusing the anger yeah? And can you change at will or out of moon phase?

[Because that is very, very important. Her only weapons are a few books and maybe a stick if she's quick enough.]

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taciturnbeast
2013-05-15 09:29 pm UTC (link)

[Yeah, this is why he tries so hard to keep it a secret except for those he trusts. He tends to lose friends because they're afraid of him. And he can tell Martha is having to work to not pull back right now. His guilt weighs heavily on his shoulders even though none of it was really his fault. His voice is calm and smooth when he speaks.]

The moon always pulls us. But I had mastered a way to control the wolf, to keep from changing unless wanted or needed. It makes the wolf... responsive to negative emotions and adrenaline more so than the lunar cycle. I had control. That day... whatever was released into the dome...

[He trails off and shakes his head.] I lost control. I hurt people.

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notrosesshadow
2013-05-16 03:33 am UTC (link)

[Martha will come around eventually. Remember those billions of deaths she just told you about Oz? Yeah, she's responsible for them. It's why she was the one who had to walk the earth and fix it. But right now she's more focused on what he's saying. And really, he is human and he's shown no sign of attack. She doesn't relax per se, but Martha stops looking for an escape and really works on listening to what he's telling her. Plus, Oz wasn't the only one who seemed to have issues that day if the records on the communicators was anything to go by.]

The mastery... that's the bit the Tibetan monks helped you with. And what you use to help others right? So that other people don't lose control.

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	taciturnbeast 2013-06-06 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I have a pack at home. We're peaceful. Try to control the wolf instead of letting it control us. [He shows her some of the tattoos on his arms and trinkets on his wrists, a necklace.] Tattoos and charms and... meditation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2013-06-07 02:28 pm UTC (link)

[Another nod. Martha's still afraid. In fact, her pulse is still beating faster than it should. And Oz will definitely hear it. But she wouldn't be a top member in UNIT if she gave into that all the time. Nor would she have stopped the Master. She looks him in the eye before uncurling from the ball she's currently in so she can lean forward and take a closer look. She keeps herself ready to run just in case. But Martha is curious, and it is all so fascinating. Provided he doesn't wolf out on her now.]

The tattoos. I haven't seen any like that before. What do they mean?

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	taciturnbeast 2013-06-10 04:58 pm UTC (link)
	[He won't wolf out on her. His control might be shaken because of what happened. But even though he worries he isn't, he's back in complete control.] It's a mix of mystical symbols; protection, control, entrapment, calming... Together they make for one big cage in the form of... me. Weirdness, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notrosesshadow 2013-06-11 03:43 am UTC (link)
	[She reached a hand out as though about to trace one of them before remembering her proper British upbringing and the fact that he had tried to kill her a few days ago.] Weirdness. But fascinating weirdness. And they are usually infallible? Provided no one tampers with... things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)