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Kira Yamato (beamspams) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2012-07-09 22:35:00

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kira yamato, lacus clyne, sakura kinomoto, ventus

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...it feels weird to just take a house for your own, doesn't it? Even if nobody lived there before, or lives there now... I guess that's just how they designed it, though.

I wonder why?

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[Despite any misgivings, though, Kira's selected a new pad in Sector 3 for him, Lacus, et al. It's pretty nice, as far as things go, and he's exploring it to make sure he has the layout memorized.

He's also checking in to see how Lacus is holding up after her first night alone.]

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fields_of_hope
2012-07-10 03:03 am UTC (link)

Mm, a bit. [Answering his question that was meant for the network as she settles on the sofa. Lacus tucks her skirt beneath her, legs curled to one side.] In the previous dome, they were obviously inhabited long ago. There was a good deal of cleaning involved before we could move in. [She doesn't bother to adjust from saying "we" since there was no need to choose her words carefully around Kira.]

[She extends a hand, hoping he'll sit and rest for a while.]

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	[Action] beamspams 2012-07-10 03:15 am UTC (link)
	Is that so? ...I wonder why nobody lived here, then. It feels strange. There's only so many times you can explore a home, even a decently big one like this. So he takes her hand, sitting by her on the sofa. It's a perfectly livable city, so... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2012-07-10 03:19 am UTC (link)
	I believe they said this is a new dome. Newly constructed, perhaps, was the meaning. [Her eyes shift toward a window, squeezing his hand.] The graveyard here is empty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beamspams 2012-07-10 03:33 am UTC (link)
	He glances up at the ceiling. I hope it stays that way. ...did you ever learn who was buried in the one in the last dome? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2012-07-10 03:38 am UTC (link)
	I didn't recognize many of the names. Very few, in fact, were of the third generation. [She had mourned them all, though, in her way.] [She leans her head against Kira's shoulder, the subject matter being not the only thing weighing on her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beamspams 2012-07-10 03:48 am UTC (link)
	And which generation are we? [He waits a moment before putting an arm around her shoulders. She always pushes herself so hard.] Lacus... how are you? [That last night can't have been easy on her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fields_of_hope
2012-07-10 04:53 am UTC (link)

[She always pushes herself. It's just that now, she has someone who she can trust to catch her when she falls. However close she and Neil were, there were times she had trouble letting herself be vulnerable around him -- likely because it upset him.]

[Her thumb brushes over the back of Kira's hand. She trusts Kira with her feelings, but admitting that she misses Neil seems... cruel, especially when Kira already knows.]

You're here. So however else I am, I know it will be all right.

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	beamspams 2012-07-10 04:58 am UTC (link)
	Lacus... [He threads his fingers with hers.] That isn't what I asked. You show the world a smile to keep their spirits high. You bear their burdens with your strength and a song. You don't have to do that right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fields_of_hope
2012-07-10 06:06 am UTC (link)

I know. [And she does. She knows that Kira would accept whatever is in her heart even if it would break his. Try as she might, the words won't come.]

[The blue band encircling one slender wrist weighed her down those first hours, unfamiliar and distracting. It's already feeling lighter, escaping her notice for a moment at a time until the light hits it, and she'll glance down and fear the same fate will befall her most precious memories. The way Neil held her just a bit tighter then he had to. The smile he only showed her in private. The stars she sprinkled the dome with, just to see them shine in his eyes. Her promise to remain by his side -- now fulfilled.]

[Knowing that Kira had similar memories of her, of a them she'd only dreamed about, how could she tell him? To speak about her love for a man that drove Kira, her gentle Kira, to the point of lashing out -- she can't.]

[And neither can she admit the spark of hope within her, that maybe, once her grief has run its course and with her promise to Neil faithfully complete, with no war hanging over them, maybe... Kira would accept her, of course he would. But he would always wonder whether it was her pain that drove her to him, always glance over his shoulder for Neil's shadow.]

[No. Even if he accepts it, even if he knows it's coming, Lacus can't bear to speak the words that will cause him pain. Even if those words are I love you.]

[Being so far removed from Neil is a constant ache, but it's the wound from Kira being so close that's sharp and deep enough to start her tears.]