her voice wavers even as it's raised, madoka squeezing her eyes shut to try and block out the oncoming tears. why does homura keep doing this? all she wants is for this all to work out. she's lost three of her friends and the fourth one will probably never show up here - she can't lose the last friend she has left.
after all, homura's the only other one who understands at this point.
I want to be happy, too. I really do. I got to come here and meet you, and- and I'm really lucky for that. I know that much. But I can't just forget about you like that.
she spots a bench from the corner of her eyes (and her vision's already blurring up - she's not surprised, but she does want a place to sit and cry it out at this point), and in only a few moments she's made her way to sit on it. the tears make their way into her words, even if her thoughts are clearer than they would be said aloud.
That would hurt more than anything, I think.
hurt her or homura? she's not really sure at this point. ]