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Raina Maris. ([info]raina_maris) wrote in [info]manchester_rpg,
@ 2010-09-19 18:46:00

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When my brain's ticking like a bomb.
Who Raina & Jack, then Desmond
What Booze fixes all the problems in the world
When Sunday night
Where By the pond
Rating R (language and sexual situations)
Status In progress



It was a dream that had Raina wanting to leave campus for the night.

Lately, most of her dreams had been dark and she woke aching, both physically and emotionally. Her mind was tired from screaming and she felt like she was spinning out of control. Last night she'd found herself in the middle of the woods. Her heart had been racing as her eyes dated around through the mass of trees that surrounded her. She could hear leaves cracking underfoot as something took a spin around the shadows. She turned to try and catch a glimpse but she just barely saw the back end of whatever it was as it disappeared once more. "Who's there?" She called out, though she didn't expect an answer.

Turning, her feet kicked up dirt as she started to run through the woods. Her body bumped into the thick tree trunks and she could feel the bruises appearing on her body. But she couldn't stop. Heart thumping, she continued to run as the creature, or whatever it was, got closer and closer to her. She head towards a clearing when the creature on her tail snagged her foot. Raina fell to the ground, feeling the dirt staining her face. Flipping herself on her back, she prepared for an attack but nothing was there. Out of breath, her eyes darted around the circle of the clearing. As she did, the trees around her started to grow crookedly, wickedly. The branches bent like fingers reaching for her menacingly.

She screamed and backed up until she could get to her feet. No sooner had she taken a step away from the reaching fingers then they had gripped her. They wrapped around her, pinning her arms at her sides as they roped around her waist. The other ones started to claw at her violently, like an animal tearing her flesh into ribbons. Blood dripped from her body until she woke up violently. Drenched in sweat, sheets tangled around her body, it took almost fifteen minutes to pull herself together and realize she'd been only dreaming. And they had been getting worse every night.

This last one had felt so real that when her eyes laid on the clock and she'd realized that she had slept all day, she decided there was really only one thing that she could do to calm the thoughts of blood and destruction.

And that was alcohol.

With a bottle of jack daniels shoved in her bag, she threw on a skirt (in the chance that she wanted to get in the water) and a tank top, followed by a pair of slip on flats. Then Raina was out the door. She didn't want to be there right now. All she wanted to feel was numb. She had been hoping that, much like what most people told her, the ache would lessen with time. She had been all but hoping that one day she would wake up and it would hurt less, even just a tiny bit, but she'd had no luck with that. Every morning hurt just as badly. What if she never recovered? She didn't want to be reckless, but she didn't want to be in pain. So she didn't waste any time getting down to the pond. Stopping beside the water, Raina sat down and pulled out the bottle of whiskey. It started with a few shots. The burning in her throat as she swallowed each shot helped, but she wanted more, needed more.

She wasn't sure how much time passed by a quarter of the bottle down, Raina was laying back on the ground, staring at the sky. She hummed to herself as she twisted the bottle open again and held it against her lips to take another sip. Her cheeks were flushed with the taste, eyes watery from the buzz.

This was definitely helping.


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[info]raina_maris
2010-09-20 06:48 am UTC (link)
His explanation as to what a Justin Beiber was honestly kind of confused her for a second. Raina was definitely not of stable enough mind to understand every word that he just spoke. However, she did get a quite amusing image of her head of, what she perceived to be a red-eyed cyclops like machine doing what most of the teen sensations did on stage. Spitting meaningless lyrics to songs that had been created for them because it was beyond impossible for anyone to expect someone of that age to have any advice or words about life. And as he spoke, the smile slowly widened that smile she wore just a little more. "So basically some lame ass musician who get all the preteens' engines running. Got ya." Raina really wasn't into that type of music, which would easily explain away why she had no idea who it was he was even talking about. Nowadays there was no end to the lame that the music industry would try to shove down the media's throat. It sounded like this Justin Beiber kid was one of them. Shaking her head, she looked down at the cut in her foot that had bled a little. Stretching her leg forward, she let her foot rest in the water to wash it away. "For a minute there, you made it sound like I should be looking around for a T-800." She waited for a second before adding, "You know, the Terminator.. Arnold Schwarzenegger."

With her foot now submerged, she reached up to brush her hair out of her face. The light breeze helped cool her heated flesh. She may not be able to perceive the cold, but she could tell the difference between hot as Hell heat and just warmth. The way it felt now felt really good. And while she knew that she shouldn't just pick up a conversation with a guy who didn't have the most savory of records while she was out late at night and pretty drunk off her rocker, she also knew that she wanted to feel like she wasn't being crushed under the weight of her own world crashing around her. Even if it would only be for a couple hours, it would be so welcome.

Looking back over at him and his animated gratitude, Raina just smirked. "Suzy squirrel?" She shook her head and leaned back on her palms. For the time being, she considered what she should do. She knew what other parties might expect her to do. They would want her to turn around, stumble as coherently as possible back to her dorm room and collapse on the bed until morning where she would nurse a hell of a hangover. But that wasn't what she was going to do. Why? Because it wouldn't get her anything except a warm bed that she would lay in alone as the dreams haunted her once more. No, that surely wasn't good enough, and while she was thinking--it didn't even interest her at all.

When she had first started school, it was easier to have that wall up around her. No one could touch her--not literally speaking. And without wearing her heart on her sleeve, she had lessened the chance of it getting broken. It was definitely time to go back to that. Raina made a mental note to start working on that once she nursed herself back from the massive hangover that she was certain she would have tomorrow morning. She could come up with a plan and write down all the aspects of the person she had been before and start to implement them into the person she was now. It was his voice, deep and soaked with alcohol, that shook her out of her thoughts.

She was quite concerned about what he was saying until her eyes slowly widened. She started to realize what he thought she had said and in turn, pressed her lips together to suppress the amusement that wanted to bubble out of her. Holding up a finger when he realized they were both talking about different things, she questioned, "Two things: What do you mean a 'girl like me,' and," The first wasn't her taking any offense to what he had said, just curiosity. "And second, did a genie really sneak into your room and have sex with you?"

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