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elena; heart resistant (heartresistant) wrote in makebelievenet,
@ 2013-05-10 21:10:00

Entry tags:

elena gilbert, rachel berry, regulus black

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So many things still just feel like they don't matter. Guess the bottom line is that I'm tired of having to cope. Maybe I never could, I just found ways around it. My parents, Aunt Jenna, Alaric, John.. Isobel.. everyone who's ever died because of me--I mean, where does the loss ever stop? You connect with people, then suddenly they're gone. Doesn't matter if they'll live forever. I thought that made Stefan safe, but that only proved how good I was at ignoring how I wanted to feel. And here.. Jeremy, Caroline, Damon.. they're all gone, too. They could be dead back home, and I'm too much of a coward to find out for myself. Poor little Elena, can't handle her own emotions. Makes sense that I shut them off when I was a vampire, even if it hadn't been my choice. Sometimes the easy way out is the only way out. At least then I was making everyone too angry to even care to ask me if I'm okay when I'm not.

It'll get better though. No other place to go but up. And at least, for now, I have some people here that care about me. I need to focus on that.

Public

So, in the spirit of furthering change.. I need a new wardrobe. Having a job definitely helps cushion the pockets. Anyone down for a little spree?

And before anyone (who knows) thinks to ask: yes, I'm okay. I just want new clothes. No big deal.

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	broadway_berry 2013-05-10 02:10 pm UTC (link)
	You know that I'm always down for some shopping. Just let me know when! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-10 02:26 pm UTC (link)
	Soon, like tomorrow soon. You free? I know you have a lot going on with school. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	broadway_berry 2013-05-10 09:36 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah tomorrow is fine with me. I could use a break from all the studying and everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-10 11:21 pm UTC (link)
	Exactly. I feel like my eyes are going to fall out if I look at one more book. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	broadway_berry 2013-05-11 02:01 am UTC (link)
	I wish I was reading books for exams. I have to do a dance performance, a singing recital, and perform with a scene partner for a scene in a play. I'm exhausted half the time. How is the studying coming along for you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-11 05:39 am UTC (link)
	I bet that's tiring. I have a lot of papers and articles to write, less fun. Lot of research. I appreciate the distraction though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	broadway_berry 2013-05-11 02:41 pm UTC (link)
	Oh I bet you are definitely getting tired of all the studying. I'm glad that we can go shopping and let out minds go elsewhere besides school. So what time are you thinking? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-12 02:02 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, don't want to hit a burnout. Maybe around three? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	broadway_berry 2013-05-12 05:22 am UTC (link)
	Works for me! See you then. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	royalvenant 2013-05-10 02:33 pm UTC (link)
	Am I in this 'Know Group'? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-10 02:38 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, but I wasn't really expecting that question out of you. ~~You always seem to know better.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	royalvenant 2013-05-10 11:20 pm UTC (link)
	What do you expect from me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-10 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know.. maybe a suggestion to get a green outfit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	royalvenant 2013-05-10 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	Black outfit with green accessories. Sometimes I get curious, so I had to ask. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heartresistant 2013-05-10 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	I was going for darker colors, actually. May happen. Not stopping you from asking them.. just as long as it's not the one question. (Reply to this) (Parent)