Username: 
Password:    
Remember Me

Search by :  Username E-mail Region Interest AOL IM ICQ Number Yahoo! ID MSN Username Jabber

Helena Wells-Quinzel is H.G. Wells (indelibleink) wrote in makebelievelog,

Witnessing those deaths was a trauma that Helena had not fully dealt with. It wasn't surprising that she'd pushed the pain away when she hadn't even really dealt with the pain Christina's death had left within her. In a way, the experience with Clint and James had perhaps only deepened her pain in regards to Christina because both men had been brought back to life, saved by whatever power rested within this place whereas Helena had been unable to save Christina. Bending the laws of time had only left Helena a deeply scarred and broken woman. This world was doing wonders for both healing her then breaking her again and she didn't know how much more she could take before she gave up altogether. Which was precisely why she needed Myka.

Looking at Myka, Helena just wanted to lean against her, to draw comfort from her, but that was a line she shouldn't cross yet. It helped having Myka there, knowing she wasn't turning her back on her even if she had plenty of reasons to. "That is rather the thing, is it not? I do not know how to let myself feel that. I had started to, but then this place brought them both back to life. Why should I have grieved when both of them were alive?" There was also the fact that Helena had done what she could to help them with the memory of dying, so Helena had to put the grief aside to help those she cared about.

"I know they are alive in their own world, for which I am thankful. But I cannot forget what happened the same way I cannot forget what happened to Christina." Setting her tea aside, Helena lifted a hand, slipping it around her locket and clutching it. There was also the fact her feelings over Christina, while ever-present, were going to be rearing their ugly heads the closer the fourteenth of July came. But she knew that as long as she had Myka on her side, along with her other friends, she would somehow be okay eventually.