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Carol Peletier (notmylittlegirl) wrote in makebelievelog,

Carol hadn't thought through what else it is that she'd like him to say, truthfully. Not in exact terms, anyway. She had never thought that he would say most of the things that she wanted to hear. Most of her thought that he would blush, maybe tell her to shut up again, and move on to the next subject of conversation. She had plenty of things that she'd like to hear from Daryl, though. She'd like to hear some of the things that Ed never really said to her. And even though Daryl wasn't Ed, he wasn't some flowery poet who was going to do that. And that wasn't exactly what she wanted. There were still some things that he could say, but she didn't know that he ever would, though.

Carol wasn't sure that she should say some of the things that she'd like to hear. She didn't want to ruin anything between them. She didn't want to make things awkward. Ultimately....Carol didn't want to lose Daryl and there was the slight fear that if she went too far that she would. And Carol really didn't want to lose any more people. He was too important to her. And she didn't really need a lot of words.

He hadn't pulled away, though. And that was an important fact. Carol was debating on how she should answer. Should she be truthful or should she tease him? He seemed pretty serious at the moment, though. She didn't want to make it awkward for him. So, she went with a happy medium. "Like you could ask me if I wanted to fool around for a change." She grinned a bit as she said it, but followed it up with a different truth. She lifted her hand to take his chin gently so that he wasn't looking down. She didn't like that he did that so often. She liked it when she could see his eyes, even if it was under his messy head of hair. "Or you could tell me that you care." Carol let go of his chin, realizing that she hadn't let go. She didn't want to make him uncomfortable, but it didn't feel wrong to hold his chin like that.

"I'm open to hearing a lot of things, whatever you're comfortable telling me, actually. In however many or few words you have." Carol looked down, not sure if she had been too forward, or maybe if she'd said too much. "Can't think of too much you'd say that I didn't want to hear, especially when you're being sweet like you are now." She knew that she might have put her foot in her mouth, but maybe she was just....emboldened by where he had taken her. Everything around them was beautiful, her heart was light, and she was content. She was content with where she was at. Content with spending time with him. And if they never moved forward she could be content, even if that wasn't exactly what she wanted. She'd like to move forward, but she wasn't going to make him uncomfortable. And if he showed any sign of it now she'd back off and make it into a joke, but for a moment it was easy to pretend.

It was nice to pretend that there was something brewing here and like something could happen from this. It was nice to pretend that they could sit close like this again without him getting edgy or uncomfortable. She didn't know that that was going to be the case, though. But it was better to at least toe the line than to keep it bottled in and have a ton of regrets later.

Carol wasn't looking at Daryl now, though. Maybe it was nerves, maybe she was preparing for a negative response. She didn't know which way this would go, though. Her eyes had settled back on the flower bush, unsure of where else to land. She just hoped that she hadn't made a mistake or upset him. She'd somehow play it off if she had, though...because Daryl was important to her and she'd take whatever she could get from him.