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Myka Bering (agent_bering) wrote in makebelievecomm,
@ 2013-10-05 17:52:00

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h.g. wells, myka bering

Sent Saturday Morning
[Text for Helena Sr.]
>> You've been quiet for going on two days now. Is something bothering you?

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indelibleink
2013-10-13 05:33 pm UTC (link)

Looking back on the situation, Helena didn't understand why Myka had done that. The younger woman was more careful than to just make those kinds of comments, especially in the heat of the moment. Still, Helena was trying to think of how to explain the situation so Myka could understand better. The fact Myka didn't remember being there before made it a bit trickier to explain.

"I don't really know why. You came down ill shortly afterwards, with a high fever, but that is no reason why. You had traveled to the mountains for a couple days with Charlie Weasley, a friend of yours, to see the dragons. Through a course of events on your post about the trip, you had said you'd come close enough to a dragon to be scorched if it had chose that course of action. You'd told Claudia not to tell me that particular detail but forgot to filter it specifically to her, so I read it and became agitated, of course. Things descended from there, starting with you accusing me of smothering you, then came you using Christina and the fact I am a murderer against me." Really, that argument had so much wrapped up in it.

"If you want, I could find the post for you to read? If you would allow me to use your phone as I did not bring mine with me." It might be better for Myka to read the post, not just have Helena recount what happened in it. Not that Helena was leaving details out, but sometimes how things were worded were important.

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agent_bering
2013-10-14 06:24 am UTC (link)

The only thing Myka could think to make her do something like that was being possessed by Alice – so Artifact whammying. But Myka knew there were no Artifacts here, even if that would have made a convenient explanation, Myka couldn’t just brush it off with that.

“Helena, I’m so sorry,” she started when she found the ability to speak again. “I can’t think of a way to explain that- not to excuse myself, but to give you an understanding why I did that. But I just don’t remember that at all. I’m sorry I did that, and I’m sorry I can’t give you an explanation.”

She didn’t need to see the post to believe Helena. And maybe someday she would go back and read that conversation. But right now, aghast as she was, she just needed to let Helena know she wouldn’t do that again.

“And I won’t, I promise. I won’t use Christina against you again.”

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indelibleink
2013-10-14 08:19 am UTC (link)

There certainly had been a couple occasions where Helena truly wondered about Myka when she'd been here before. Even if the using Christina against her had been some manifestation of resentment the younger woman still harbored against her for her betrayal, Myka still wouldn't be that vindictive. Or at least she shouldn't be. Myka was far more sensitive than that.

Helena knew Myka didn't remember being here before, so she was conflicted by holding this against her. But the fact of the matter was that it had happened. The Victorian woman was notorious for holding grudges, but she didn't want to hold one against Myka any longer. She wanted to forgive Myka despite the fact she probably would never get an answer as to why Myka had said that. But when Myka apologized, this time it did sound sincere whereas when she'd apologized before, the apology itself was buried within a mostly unrelated statement. The first apology hadn't seemed as sincere as it did now. So Helena did take comfort in that. Drawing in a deep breath, she let it out, and with it she let go of the residual anger and pain she held from that experience. And it was a release that Myka could see. Helena's posture relaxed a bit.

"Thank you," she responded. And she believed Myka when she made that promise. At least Helena didn't have to hold onto this any longer. "All I could possibly think of is that you had some residual resentment towards me for my betraying you, but I don't think you would actually use Christina against me even if you were angry. Or I should say I didn't think you would until that particular argument. But I accept your apology, and I believe you. You had apologized for that, but it did not sound sincere, so I hadn't completely accepted it. But I do now."

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