i am still the same as before (agentdaisy) wrote in madisonvalley, |
"Doesn't mean I'm not pathetic," she muttered. She certainly felt pathetic at the moment. Daisy knew there was nothing she could do about the dome and the things it did but that didn't mean she didn't wish she could. She'd always known the risk of getting close to anyone here but she'd foolishly thought it wouldn't happen to her.
She'd lost count of the times she'd cried since she'd realized he was gone. And now she could feel the tears starting to well up again. She really didn't want to cry right here but it wasn't like she could stop herself if she started.
"At least last year when we thought we were all going to get sent home I wouldn't have known what I'd lost once I woke up at home." Not that it had made that any better. "But this... this fucking sucks. What makes it even worse is I never even told him how I really felt. I was scared to and now it doesn't even matter because he's gone and he might never be coming back because he went home to a really bad situation and he might die. I might never see him again." Tears were definitely welling in her eyes now and she wiped at them. "Just when I think I might finally be happy it gets pulled away from me. It happened back home so many times and it's happened here. I just don't know if I can do it anymore, Matt."