That was a very loaded question, and Adrian was quiet for a long moment.
“The darkness,” he said finally, in a distant sort of voice. “The way it could around me, strangles me, tugs at my mind. The intense blackness with the flashes of red; the wounds that Rose gouged into my heart.”
He closed his eyes and finished his drink in one gulp.
“The magic and the misery, the insect eating away my brain...” He trailed off, then finally seemed to snap back to reality.