Sydney Sage | Vampire Academy/Bloodlines (mistysteele) wrote in madisonvalley, @ 2018-02-15 01:58:00 |
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Entry tags: | !log, !open, ~2018 february, ~40 points, ~~sydney sage (mistysteele) |
WHO: Sydney Sage and OPEN
WHAT: Working off the Valentine's Calories
WHEN: Thursday morning
WHERE: Anytime Fitness
WARNINGS: Talk of eating disorders
STATUS: Open/Ongoing
Okay, maybe Sydney had actually indulged herself yesterday. She'd eaten some of the chocolate from the box that Adrian had given her, and it had been delicious. And for a while, she'd even felt good about it. It wasn't until she went to bed that night that the doubts started plaguing her in the darkness. She slept fitfully, then got up, and looked at herself in the mirror, convinced that she must have gained ten pounds overnight.
She felt panicky, and unsure what to do about it. Finally she decided on a workout at the gym.
She hated this. Back home, she was so much better. Sure, she was still careful about her weight, but she didn't think about it all the time. But back home, things also made sense. She had Adrian, and college, and Declan, and her life was hers and was logical. Here...nothing was logical, and it felt that she'd lost everything she and Adrian had built together. It hurt. A lot. And she had to control something in her life. At least she could make sure that she kept her father's voice out of her head by staying skinny like she was supposed to be.
After an hour on the treadmill, Sydney was dripping sweat. She took a shower in the dressing room, then redressed, and dried her hair so it didn't freeze when she went outside. Then she headed for the door, and awkwardly, she almost ran into someone as they were coming in.
"Oh," she said. "I'm sorry. Guess I worked out too hard and my mind's somewhere else."
To anyone but Sydney herself, she was very clearly skinny - almost overly so.