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Can't hear you over the sound of how awesome I am! (purelypotter) wrote in lockewood,
@ 2011-02-27 01:44:00

Entry tags:

james potter, remus lupin

Who Prongs and Moony
What James wants to talk about feelings and things, and he doesn’t want anyone know!
When Sunday afternoon
Where Remus and Sirius’ cottage
Status/Rating Incomplete/Low

James was having a difficult time wrapping his head around the fact that Lily was sympathetic to the man who’d gotten them killed, a son who stuck up for Death Eaters, and an Albus Dumbledore who needed to be watched for his own safety and because he was...apparently shacking up with some poncy Dark Wizard. James was really going to stop drinking the damn water in this town. It had to be tainted to make people...a bit funny...like that. Pads and Moony he could accept but...Albus? No.

Too weird.

Potter stopped by Brews and Bottoms pub to get himself, Remus and Sirius something for lunch. He didn’t know if they’d both be there when he showed up at their cottage, because he hadn’t exactly announced that he was running by. This whole trip around was at least half impulse, and half prompted by what had happened the previous day with Severus Snape. He needed to talk to someone. Someone who knew him, and someone who might be able to explain why on earth everyone had gone so bloody crazy.

Remus Lupin? More than likely that person.

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aventine
2011-03-13 08:16 pm UTC (link)

"I was with Godric Gryffindor," Remus admitted, clearing his throat a little. After all, it was still something of an odd thing to confess. Regardless, he knew, in a way, that he had been much luckier than a lot of people who had wound up on dates. Harry's daughter had been complaining for days about winding up with Sirius' brother.

Remus fell silent when James explained that Lily had been put with Snape. He knew that couldn't have gone over well with James. He couldn't particularly blame him either. He knew that if there had been someone comparable in Sirius' life, he would have been extremely uncomfortable with the idea of Sirius spending Valentine's Day with that person.

"Is Lily mad at you?" Remus asked. Being upset was one thing, but it was the reaction that was really the troublesome part. He didn't know if Snape had done anything, but it seemed likely that Lily wouldn't be pleased to see James and Snape going at each other again. To be honest, he also had no idea what Snape was like in Lockewood at the moment. He had done his best to avoid him.

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purelypotter
2011-03-15 12:17 am UTC (link)

James didn't really know what to say to that. He felt like she was mad at him but there was something more to it that he made him even more nervous. He'd heard that Molly and Arthur were living together now. That their roommates had swapped so they could, and Sirius and Remus were together and she just didn't seem...

He was always in trouble. He was in trouble about Severus, he was in trouble because he was having such a difficult time relating to everything that was different here, he was just having trouble and he didn't want her to know too much about it because she was acting so strangely and she was so quick to jump to the defences of a man that had really been involved in getting them killed. He took a breath.

"Yeah, she is."

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aventine
2011-03-18 07:07 pm UTC (link)

"You should go apologize to her," Remus said after a moment. He knew that it probably wasn't what James wanted to hear. He probably wanted to say that Snape deserved being for being a right bugger. Maybe he had been and maybe he did deserve to be hit.

"You don't want to waste any time here with her," Remus said quietly. "And certainly not on account of Snape." In a matter of speaking, they were all working on borrowed time here. It was a sobering and scary thought, but that didn't make any less true. The truth of the matter was that, outside of Lockewood, he and Sirius didn't exist as anything more than friends. If he was to go back to where he was at this very moment, he'd be in the middle of the French country side. He'd be days away from the full moon, not certain where his next meal was coming from, and convinced that Sirius was guilty. Lily and James would be dead.

He knew that he and Sirius had already wasted too much time arguing with each other and being angry. In a sort of ironic way, it was always over the other's safety. But now that Greyback was gone, tucked away in prison, Remus had no intention of wasting any more time with Sirius. He knew the same could be said for Lily and James; they had a finite amount of time together in the real world and this time, in many ways, was just extra.

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purelypotter
2011-03-19 09:55 pm UTC (link)

"Should." He agreed, wishing it was just that easy, and if he maybe just this once could apologise for something he didn't really feel all that sorry for. Because Lily he could do that for, but in this case--in this case it wasn't just about feeling sorry he'd upset Lily, now it was about forgiving the man who'd gotten her killed, gotten himself killed, and the fact that Albus Dumbledore had coerced Snape into some plot to protect Harry--it didn't mean all that much to him. That was Dumbledore's good work, not Snape's. "Will. I will."

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aventine
2011-03-21 03:45 am UTC (link)

"It's hard to have someone like that getting between you," Remus said after a moment. He knew. He knew it wasn't exactly the same, but Fenrir was always stirring up trouble between himself and Sirius. He could only hope that Lily and James would be able to handle having Snape in Lockewood more graciously than Sirius and he handled having Greyback in the village.

In the end, he believed that everything would work out though. James and Lily had gone through a lot to be together -- and they had a lot to gain by their time here and now. He doubted either of them would waste it; if only because James was in love with Lily to the point of stupidity. And Lily was intelligent enough for the both of them.

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purelypotter
2011-03-21 01:09 pm UTC (link)

"I know it, but it's--it's worse somehow because of the way it all plays out. Because of what he did, because he--" James pursed his lips together to stop himself from saying more. He felt like he had more reason now to be furious with Snape than he'd ever had before. He had been the one to tell Voldemort about the prophecy to begin with after all, and realising you'd made a bloody mistake and trying to make up for it isn't quite the same as not being a complete fucking asshole and trying to get innocent people killed in the first place.

But that wasn't even what bothered him the the most. He had a grandson with the name Severus tacked to him like a move like that wouldn't entirely rip James' heart out. Snape had been there for his son, Snape had helped him, however willingly or unwillingly. Snivellus, Snivellus of all people had so much influence and impact on Harry's life that he'd named a child after him. And sure, James knew that Harry's oldest son was named for him but that almost seemed like it was out of some kind of obligation, because goddamn it.

"I can't get my head around the fact we die, Moons. I know it happens and I know how even, and I just don't want to accept it, just fucking can't."

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aventine
2011-03-22 02:43 am UTC (link)

Remus didn't know what to say this time. After all, he didn't just know about James and Lily's deaths -- he and Sirius had both lived through them. Remus knew in a perfunctory way what Sirius had gone through, but it wasn't as if they ever discussed that much. With the exception of when Remus had violently accused Sirius of killing Lily and James, they had stayed away from those memories.

Of course, that didn't mean that they weren't there. It had been a surreal, out of body experience that had chewed up some part of his insides. He wasn't certain that would ever heal - not even with Lily and James and Sirius all here with him. All he could remember was that pain when he had first found out, when he had been told the same as every other member of the Order, when he had read the Daily Prophet and read the story in the same distanced way as every other member of the wizarding community. He couldn't even begin to delve into the funeral, where he'd been alone; Sirius' apparent guilt hadn't been enough to prove his innocence. He had already been planning on leaving, had needed to get away so badly.

He didn't know how to feel how James felt, because everything was too real, too painful for him. He knew about his own death, but it wasn't as if it happened in the next year. He certainly didn't die old, but he still outlived so many of the people he had been friends with, grown up with. The worst part was that he left his son alone -- that Teddy grew up without parents in the same way that Harry did. And yet, Teddy had Harry, Andromeda, the Weasleys. He knew that was more than he could have asked for if he knew he was going to die.

"Don't think about it then," was all Remus could manage to say.

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purelypotter
2011-03-22 03:06 am UTC (link)

James gave Remus a look that said what words didn't have too. They'd been friends a long time, long enough that sometimes words were not only not needed, they were uncalled for.

When have I ever avoided the things that bothered me?

He was arrogant to the point of being obnoxious, he'd put his family in danger because he'd seen joining the Order of the Phoenix as the right, and only thing to do. He'd confronted and tormented the Slytherin students when they were in Hogwarts and that translated to confronting and challenging Death Eaters when he'd graduated. Potter did not ignore or not think about his problems, he ran at them, head bowed and antlers ready to impale.

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