undercoverkitty (undercoverkitty) wrote in light_of_may, @ 2010-02-21 23:01:00 |
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Entry tags: | #solo, 2009-07-04 |
The one man that wouldn't let her down
Who: Rowena and Caius (NPC)
When: Night
Where: Noah's home
Rowena hadn't expected her life to change as much as it had in the brief month that Noah had been in it. She also hadn't expected that it would so abruptly end. Of course life had ways of turning and switching, throwing a curve ball in when you least expected it. Noah's admission to her was one such curve ball. She thought she might be with him forever. Thought that perhaps the love she'd fallen into so fast would be right, but she couldn't have been more wrong. He said it had nothing to do with her, said that it was his own fault, that there were parts of his past that he could no longer hide from. Bits and pieces of himself that he'd neglected to mention to her.
He had to leave.
He wouldn't be coming back.
Just as quickly as it had started, it came to a stand still. Out of the blue, clear sky came that one dark cloud and Rowena felt as if her world crumbled in on itself. Noah packed his things well after the boys had gone to bed. Collecting his child, he'd kissed Rowena's cheek, told her that he was sorry. He'd told her that he loved her and hadn't meant for things to be this way, but still he left and there was nothing that she could do to make him stay.
He hadn't gone into detail about what it was that he couldn't hide from. He merely said that he didn't feel right involving her in something that she had nothing to do with. He didn't want to hurt her, but at the same time, Rowena could feel his words tearing through her, ripping open a jagged wound right through her chest. He very well could have ripped her heart out and stomped on it, as that was the way it felt. Each syllable he spoke was like a turn to the knife he'd figuratively stuck into her and when he walked out that door, Aden still sleeping and curled against his chest, it was like he'd ripped that knife out.
Rowena watched for a long time at the window even after the lights on the back of his car had faded into the darkness of that Scarlet Oak night. She prayed that she'd wake up from the nightmare that seemed to have become her life. He couldn't have waited a few more days? The full moon was already weighing heavy on her heart and now not only did she have to think about turning into a monster, she had to do it on her own. Alone and hurt, tears dripping down her face, she made her way away from the window and upstairs to the room where Caius slept.
There was only one good thing she could say about Noah leaving and that was that he did it when the little boy wasn't awake to watch him go. She knew that it would be difficult to explain to him that Noah had to go away and more than she hurt for herself, Rowena hurt for her child. He'd just barely gotten used to Noah, the first man to have a semi-permanent place in his life since his father and now he was gone just like Greg. She did not look forward to explaining everything to her son, but she knew she had it to do. She had to make this easy on him and in order to do that, she couldn't let him see how much it hurt her that Noah had left.
She felt like a failure, like she was worthless. He'd promised her all those pretty things. Promised her the moon and the stars and love that would last and yet it all was snuffed out in a mere matter of moments and she was left the same way she'd started, at least mostly. This time her heart was shattered even more so than it had been with her ex-husband. At least she knew where Greg was. At least she could see him if she really wanted to. Noah had merely disappeared without any real explanation and without any way to get in touch with him. If he ever came back, which she doubted he would, Rowena didn't think that she could forgive him.
Crawling into bed with her son, Rowena wound her arms around the little boy and he curled against her, his breathing soft and steady, a little huff of a sigh escaping him as his arms bunched up between the two of them. She could hear his heartbeat, pounding away in his chest like a little drum and Rowena made a promise to herself that no matter what happened, she'd protect her child. She'd keep him from seeing all the evil that the world had, keep him from the hurt that she'd gotten herself into.
Or at least she would try.
For now she was content to let her tears silently fall as her little boy slept. At least there was on man in the world that would never let her down.