Jessalyn Weiss (_happygolucky_) wrote in light_of_may, @ 2009-10-12 11:40:00 |
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Entry tags: | 2009-06-17 |
You and Me
Who: Jessalyn and Madock
When: Late afternoon
Where: The pond
NSFW
Madock would have went over to Jessalyn's house, but he doubted that would have been a good idea, so he called her up and asked her to meet him at the lake. There was less of a chance of her brother or anyone else kicking his ass for what he'd asked of her. He didn't tell her that they'd found Claire, he wasn't sure if she knew or not. He simply asked her to meet him and went out to the lake, parking his car and heading towards the dock, taking off his shoes and socks and letting his feet dangle off the edge. The bracelet came off too and he tucked it into his pocket, letting the sights, sounds and smells take over. He heard Jessalyn long before she got there. "Hey." he said softly, glancing over his shoulder at her. "Thanks for coming."
Jessalyn hadn't yet heard about the missing kids being found, so she was pretty clueless by the time she found Madock at the dock. She smiled at him when he turned to greet her, long before any normal human should have been able to hear. "Hi." She walked over, toed off her sandals and sat beside him, dipping her feet into the water below them. "How is everything? Are you okay?"
"They found my sister." he said, letting a smile cross his face. "So I'd say I'm doing pretty damn good right about now. She's okay. She's a live and she's at the hospital, but she's alright." Madock said, obviously more than relieved to know that she was okay. "I told her about what happened." he said. "About me. And she didn't murder me..." he chuckled. "I'm just... I wanted to tell you."
Her eyes widened and her smile caught up seconds after. She flung her arms around his neck to pull him to her in a hug. "That's wonderful! That's so good... I hadn't heard anything yet! But I guess I wouldn't if they had only notified family and everything." Jessalyn was also relieved to hear that Claire hadn't flipped out about Jessalyn biting Madock. Pulling back, she studied him closely. "Are you sure she was okay? About you, I mean."
"She just said she hopes that I don't regret it later." he told her. "And that I have to be careful with my temper. I think she was more upset that I'm not psychic anymore than she was about me being a werewolf. She's just worried about me is all." He did feel badly that he didn't share that bond with his sister quite as strongly as he once had, but Madock was certain that he loved her just as much and felt all the same need to protect her as he always had, perhaps even more so than before. His arms stayed around her like he wanted to hold onto her forever because part of him really did. "We talked for a while and she didn't try to murder me, so I guess things are okay." he told her. "I'm just glad she's back."
"Well, her boyfriend is a werewolf... would seem weird to be upset that you were. I mean, I can understand why she would be, but she has to deal with Gabe already..." Jessalyn paused since she was sure she would just start rambling. "I'm glad she's back, and I'm glad she's going to be okay. Your mood certainly seems to be lifted, so that's even better."
"Definitely lifted." he agreed. "But I want you to smell me." he told her. "Do I smell like a dog or...?" he asked, tilting his head. "I can't really tell I mean... I just smell sorta like me but different I guess, it's confusing. I kinda smell a little like you do, but is that just the canine part?" he questioned. "I wanna know what I am, Jessalyn. I need to know."
"You smell the way Gabe did," Jessalyn said, brushing her nose against his throat. "I mean, similar. You smell like a wolf to me..." But she so badly wanted him to be a wolf, Jess couldn't help but wonder if she was just forcing herself to smell something specific. Although right now she was pretty sure it was a wolf smell. "I really think you're a wolf, Madock... not only with the smell, but the way it fits your personality."
The thought had crossed his mind too, that maybe they both just wanted it so badly that they were forcing themselves to believe something that might not be true. He let out a breath when her nose brushed across his throat and he had to bite his bottom lip to keep the sounds he wanted to make inside of him. Now that Claire was safe all he could think about was Jessalyn. How much he wanted her. Sure he'd wanted her before, almost as badly but there was something different about the way he felt now. "I hope you're right." he whispered, tipping his head down so he could kiss the girl. "I just want it so bad. I wanna be like you so bad..."
She kissed him back, thinking that Madock might be the only person she knew who wouldwant to be a bitten were. It was such a strange process and she knew it was painful, at least the first time they shifted. "No matter what happens, we'll be okay," she said, ever the optimist. Jessalyn lifted a hand to run it through his hair slowly. "We won't have to wait too long."
"Why do we have to wait at all?" he questioned, pulling back enough to let his eyes meet hers. "If I'm... with you... wouldn't I know then without having to wait til the full moon?" he questioned. He bit his bottom lip and let his eyes fall away from hers for a moment. "I just want to know... Waiting... I'm not near close to patient..." he admitted.
"I think... yes, you would probably know," Jessalyn said, glancing out over the water. She knew right away, but she also expected it, given what she was. Though her instincts were rising inside of her to nuzzle him again and scent him, now that he was an animal, like her. "I know it's hard to be patient about these things. Even if we had sex, you would still have to wait until the full moon and I'm sure that anticipation would be much worse."
He let out a little breath and frowned a bit at that. "I'd just have to wait for the change though... Or would I?" he said obviously confused. "I mean... do I... If I am a wolf and we had sex even though I haven't changed before yet, would we still mate?" he questioned. He didn't want to tell her how badly he wanted her. The fact that he could practically smell her in ways he never had before. He didn't want to sound like a pervert after all, but those instincts that seemed to rise up inside of him were really hard to ignore.
"Yes... if you're a wolf now, whether you've shifted or not, it would still be mating," Jessalyn explained before pressing a kiss to his jaw. "Your blood is already changed... just because you haven't hit the full moon yet doesn't make it any less real." She pulled back and looked at him, biting her own lip before smiling softly. "Do you want to? Have sex with me?"
He swallowed down a slightly nervous lump that had formed in his throat and nodded a little. "It's hard not to want to." he admitted. He reached into his pocket and pulled out the bracelet that had been so helpful to him. "When I don't have this on... it's like... I can hear things and smell things I never even imagined smelling or hearing or thinking about before. I thought my brain was crowded before but..." he shook his head a little. "I can smell you." he told her. "Every bit of you and it's driving me completely insane." he admitted. "It's like I just... want you with so much of my being it's just... really hard to control."
She smiled softly and slid her hand to cup his cheek. "I know having these new abilities is hard to deal with at first... but soon it's going to be natural to you. You're going to be able to do a lot of things... it's just getting your mind and body to control it all and accept it." For Jessalyn, it had come naturally from the beginning, but she could imagine how difficult it could be for someone completely new to the experience. "And right now? You don't have to control anything... I'm here. And we're alone."
Madock let out a little breath and caught her lips with his own in a needy little kiss. "That your way of saying you want me?" he whispered, sliding his fingers slowly along her hip. God he wanted her with so much force that he was sure he might burst from sheer need for the girl if he didn't get to continue kissing her.
Jessalyn smiled against his lips before she nodded. "Yes. I always want you." Which was the god honest truth. She was just better at controlling her urges... she'd had to before. Now... now she could do whatever she wanted. Jessalyn kissed him again, more forcefully this time as she drew him to her. She supposed she felt a little anxious, because what happened if they had sex and he didn't feel any differently? Although now wasn't the time to start worrying. Right now she just wanted to focus on kissing him.
He didn't mind being drawn to her. In fact he was quite appreciative of her movements and let his hand slip around her waist, laying her back until she was flush against the dock and he was leaning over the girl. He could hear her heart beating, the light little thump seeming to grow louder, stronger and quicker with every light movement of their lips against one another. He let out a light groan against her mouth, the sound leaning more towards a possessive growl than anything. "I want you so bad..." he whispered, nipping lightly at her lower lip.
Both hands came up to rake through his hair and she kissed him deeply, listening to his heart as closely as he was listening to hers. Being able to be there with him, without the added stress of everything else around them was amazing. She knew they still had things to deal with, but none of them felt like something they couldn't overcome. "Want you too," Jessalyn breathed. Her hands fell from his hair to his shirt where she began to tug the material up over his stomach.
Madock parted his lips from hers long enough to allow her the ability to pull it up and over his head. Once she had, he dipped down enough to steal another kiss from her lips. He was silently thankful that he'd stuck that condom in his wallet. No more being unprepared. Especially now when every little thing she did seemed to make him yearn for her. "Are you comfortable?" he whispered against her mouth. He didn't want her to be wanting to move this little show in the middle of it. "We can... mmm... move if you want..." he breathed.
She was laying on her back on a small wooden pier, but Jessalyn would have sworn she had never been more comfortable. Having Madock above her and kissing her was not something she was about to stop because of comfort. "I'm fine," she said breathlessly, lifting her head up to kiss him again. Her hands smoothed over his bare chest, fingertips exploring every line and inch of muscle. He was extremely sexy and goodness she wanted him so badly.
He shifted a little, enough to allow her the ability to scoot back enough that her feet weren't dangling off the edge of the dock anymore. Once he had, he shifted between her legs, but didn't pull her skirt up or down just yet. Instead he focused on her shirt and how much he wanted it off of her body. Slipping it upward, he slowly pulled it up and over her head, lips pressing lightly against her neck as he tossed the shirt down on the dock. "Think anyone will hear us?" he whispered softly. Not that it really mattered, they'd hear someone coming long before they got there.
Jessalyn arched to help him get her shirt off. Her hair was probably a bit messy and wild but she didn't care at that moment. She smiled at him and shook her head, watching her hands continue to roam over him. "No, no one will hear. I'm the only one who ever really comes out here." For all her parents knew, she was out running through the woods. "And we'll know if someone is coming before they actually get here... I'm not worried about it."
Madock smiled at her, leaning in to steal a little kiss from her lips. Good. No interruptions. He wanted to be alone with her and not have to worry about people walking up on him. Were senses would help in that surely. He slipped his hands slowly up her skirt, brushing along the insides of her thighs until they reached fabric. He could practically feel the heat rising off of her and he yearned for it. Catching the edges of her panties, he pulled them slowly down until he could slip them off and toss them to the side as well.
Her skin was on fire where he touched her and Jessalyn licked her lips eagerly once he rid her of her panties. Jessalyn leaned up to tug his zipper down, ready to get him as naked as she was becoming. "I want you so badly," she whispered, unable to concentrate on anything else now but Madock. His scent, the way he felt and tasted. She was ready for her mate, regardless of what canine he might turn out to be. He was still hers.
Hearing those words coming from her lips, watching the way her tongue glided almost in slow motion over the curve of her mouth did nothing but further his own arousal. He wanted her, needed her. Madock was practically aching for her and he didn't know how much longer he could stand it. He watched as she slid his zipper down and reached into his back pocket to pull his wallet out, finding the condom and discarding the wallet. Madock pushed down his shorts and boxers enough to free himself. He was wanting her too badly to care about getting naked the rest of the way. The clothes could hang on him for all he cared. Ripping the wrapper open, he slid the condom on and shifted forward again, stealing a kiss from her lips as he lay her back down on the dock. "I want you too." he whispered, taking hold of himself and lightly teasing her with his tip. "Ready?" he asked her. This was it. A test in what he was he was certain. He prayed that he'd be a wolf like her and all of this would have been for something.
"Yes." She nodded and smiled at him, not caring that they didn't their clothes completely off. There would be plenty of time for that. Forever, hopefully. She brought her knees up and leaned up to kiss him again, her arms coming around his neck. All she wanted now was to have him inside of her. She didn't care if he would be a wolf or not, she just wanted him. Jessalyn lifted her hips, encouraging him to hurry.
While a tiny part of him was terrified of finding out, more of him was begging to know, chomping at the bit and urging him to push against her and decide his fate. So he did. Madock arched his hips slowly against her until she enveloped him completely. And with that awesome sensation that he'd felt just that once before came another feeling. Multiple feelings really. The need to be with her, the want for her that seemed to slide over him and coat him in a need that he'd never experienced before. Protectiveness that was already there seemed to multiply and Madock knew then what he was. Any urge he may have felt to be with anyone else, no matter how small a feeling, completely vanished and Jessalyn filled him up. His lips parted and his eyes fixed on her face and it was like he was seeing her in a completely new light. "So this is what it's like?" he whispered, leaning down and letting their bodies press flush against each other. His lips found hers in a kiss that held so much feeling behind it. He was a wolf, he just had to be.
A slow breath escaped Jessalyn's lips when Madock slid inside of her. Her thighs tensed and then relaxed and she drew her legs further up his body, taking him in deeper. A small moan emitted in her throat and she opened her eyes to look up at him. She nodded at his question, unable to really form any real words and she arched up into him, both her body and her mouth, kissing him fiercely as she pressed her hips to his, urging him to move.
Madock had no problems with moving. The worry and confusion, wondering and waiting was over and now all he wanted to do was making her feel good. He wanted to please her in anyway that he could and this was the best way to do that of course. His lips didn't leave hers for a moment as he picked up a rhythm and let his hips roll slowly to meet hers. He couldn't imagine anything feeling quite as good as this felt and the way he groaned against her lips said as much. "God..." he whispered, biting her lower lip softly, tugging it gently before releasing it again and letting his eyes find hers again. One hand lifted to push her hair away from her face. Any thoughts of being caught were completely gone now and Madock instead was taking in the sights, sounds and smells of his mate.
Jessalyn was having trouble keeping quiet, with how good it felt to have Madock inside of her. Thankfully there was no one around, and she didn't have to stifle herself. She wrapped her legs around him tightly, lifting her hips to meet every one of his thrusts. "Madock," she gasped, fingers pressing deeply into his skin as she held him to her. This was perfect, and she didn't care what anyone said or thought about them. This was right for her, and for them, and that was all that mattered. She'd found her mate, and she wasn't going to let him go.
He didn't want to be let go. He didn't care what anyone had to say about what they'd done. Perhaps they'd jumped the gun and pushed through barriers to quickly, too irresponsibly, but it didn't matter. She was his and he was hers and that was the only thing that held any sort of meaning for the boy. He couldn't imagine his life without her now. When she said his name like she did, mixed in with those wonderful little sounds, he let out a raspy groan. "Jessa." he whispered, trailing his lips down to her neck where it met her body and lightly bit that tender flesh. She tasted as good as she felt and smelled and sounded. Every single sense seemed to be afire with all things Jessalyn.
She turned her head, a happy noise slipping past her lips when he bit her softly. Her hands roamed over him, feeling every inch of his body that she could reach. It felt so good, she couldn't imagine why she hadn't been doing this with him every second of every day since they met! Having Madock inside of her was heaven, or at least what she imagined heaven to be. "Harder," Jessalyn moaned, pressing her short nails into the small of his back. She was so close to falling over and her body was beginning to ache uncontrollably.
The noise she made was met with an equally happy response from Madock. Then she went and said that word and he nearly fell over the edge with it. Two little syllables, six letters and yet it had the force of a stick of dynamite going off inside of him. He had to bite his bottom lip almost the point of drawing blood to keep from going off. He did as she asked him to, pressing harder into the girl. He aimed to please Jessalyn and if harder was what she wanted, that's what she was going to get.
It was exactly what she wanted and she cried out, her fingers digging harder into his back. By all accounts Jessalyn looked small and fragile, but she was strong, and she had the ability to handle vigorous activities like this. The first time they had done it, it had been quick without the condom but now it was beyond amazing. Jessalyn never wanted it to stop. Her cries grew in volume and she strained against him, yearning for that release. Lifting her head, she buried it in the curve of his neck and bit him lightly, her lips and tongue pressing against the hard, pulsing vein there. She inhaled his scent deeply, committing it to complete memory.
Madock was really starting to think that condoms were awesome for a few reasons. The obvious birth control one of course, and the fact that it was so much easier to keep from going off right off the bat like he had before. He'd take that extra bit of time inside of her any day. The way her muscles seemed to pull him deeper into her, not wanting to release him as he pulled back with each thrust, had his brain struggling to get a thought through. It was hard for him to think most of the time, but when she was surrounding him and crying out like that because of him? It was damn near impossible. She could be as vocal as she wanted now and that was awesome. He wanted more of those sounds, more of those touches and bites and the press of her tongue. He'd completely forgotten that his shorts and boxers still hung around his legs and she was still in her bra and skirt. Clothes didn't matter when he felt like this.
Clothes didn't matter to Jessalyn either. As long as she could get this kind of contact, that was all she wanted. She was clinging to him now, sobbing with pleasure as her body heated and spiraled toward completion. She had always dreamed that mating would be this wonderful, but it truly exceeded her expectations, which should have been odd, since they were both pretty inexperienced themselves. They seemed to just fit, and know what to do and how to do it. Gasping, Jessalyn clenched her eyes shut and her entire body seemed to shatter. She tensed around him, a low moan of pleasure slipping past her lips as her body pulsated with release.
They just seemed to fit. Like puzzle pieces or two parts of one machine. Every inch of her felt perfect right up against every inch of him. When he felt her fall over that edge, Madock quickened his pace, thrusting into her fully with each press of his hips. He was so close and just a couple more seconds would surely push him over that edge. His body beaded with sweat, him having the urge to wipe his brow, but refusing as he continued to ride her through that orgasm. And then the sun exploded behind closed eyelids when he found that release. A growl of a groan as he pressed into her, all but bursting into the sheath between them. Falling forward, conscious of her body beneath his and not crushing her, Madock's breathing continued to come out in heaving little bursts. "Good God..." he whispered.
Jessalyn held onto him as he quickened his pace, her cries became more husky as each thrust of his hips heightened her own orgasm. When she felt him stiffen, she hugged him to her and released a long, slow breath. There was absolutely nothing in the world that could ever come close to feeling as good as that did. "Wow," she breathed, slowly lowering her head back onto the dock to look up at him. She lifted her hand up to brush the sweat from his eyebrow with her thumb. His skin was flushed and perfect and she could still hear his heart thumping away madly in his chest.
Wow definitely covered it. The one word summing up all the things rushing through his mind. The floodgates of his thoughts opening and things spilling out before he could stop them. "I'm a wolf." he whispered, a little tired grin flicking across his face. "And I... god... it's like... I'm with you... and I want you so bad... I can't imagine how I'll feel when you're not around me..." he breathed, pressing his lips to hers for a quick little kiss. "It was so worth it." he whispered. "The bite, the stitches, my headaches... so worth it. You're so worth it."
Jessalyn smiled, flushed with happiness from his words. "You're worth it too..." All of the guilt and repercussions she would have to endure. They wouldn't be as bad as she thought, because she had him now. "I knew you would be a wolf," Jessalyn said, cupping his face and kissing him on the lips. "I knew it." It would be tough, not being able to be together all the time, but she knew they would get by, at least until she turned eighteen.
Madock pressed into the kiss and nodded. "I feel... so much better now." he whispered. It was like the weight of the world had been lifted from his shoulders and things looked just a little bit brighter at the end of the tunnel. He didn't want to move away from her, but he knew he had to rid himself of the condom he wore, so he reached between them to hold it in place long enough for him to slip out of her. He scrunched up his nose and glanced at the water, knowing well and good how disgusting it was to just toss a used condom in the lake but he didn't have much choice, so he tied the end to keep it from spilling it's contents and tossed it in the lake. "I'll have to repent for littering." he said with a little chuckle, pulling his boxers and shorts back into place. Leaning forward again, his lips met hers. "I love you."
"I could have thrown it away," Jessalyn said with a small laugh. "It's just going to float there like a balloon, isn't it?" She returned his kiss and felt, for the first time, one hundred percent content and worry free. "I love you too. It's crazy how quickly this all happened, but I wouldn't change it for anything."
"Well to do that, you'd have had to keep it til you got home or something and yeah, not a good idea." he smiled. He couldn't help but flush a little when she talked about it floating. He wanted to distract her from that thought and so he kissed her again. "I wouldn't change anything either. It's perfect. Really."
"More than perfect," Jessalyn agreed. She was sated and flushed and happy. She would have to get home to take a shower, hopefully without running into anyone. "Thank you," she said, brushing her hands through his hair. "I'm happy you called to meet me here." She wasn't sure how much longer she could have waited to be with him again, despite knowing the circumstances of what he was going through.
Madock nodded a little, reaching over to grab her panties and her shirt and offering them out to her. He figured she wouldn't want to continue being splayed out for everyone to see, even if current everyone was only him. "It wasn't just for this." he assured her. "But I'm glad that I called too." he agreed. While his intentions hadn't been to have sex with her right there on the dock, he was a firm believer that things happened for a reason and whatever reason there was for this, he was thankful for it. He didn't want her to leave, didn't want to have to let her go. He just wanted to hold onto her forever if he could. He leaned in to steal a kiss from the girl as he handed her her clothing. "You know you're beautiful right?" he whispered against her lips.
Jessalyn took her clothes and slipped them on. Her blood was finally cooling, and her heartbeat slowing to a more normal rate for her. She smiled against his lips and then nuzzled him with her nose. "You make me feel beautiful," she said before pressing a kiss against his cheek. She knew she wasn't conventionally gorgeous or anything, but none of that ever mattered to her before. But Madock did make her feel extremely pretty and significant and she found she loved feeling that way. "I love you."
"Good." he said with a little grin. "You should feel beautiful." Madock thought she was gorgeous because she wasn't like other girls. She didn't run off to the beauty salon every day or get her nails done all the time or stupid, girly things. She was just beautiful naturally and that's what he loved about her. "I love you too." he smiled. And lord how he did. How couldn't he when she was amazing? Especially now. The love he already felt, was just intensified.
"Are you going to go back and visit your sister later?" Jessalyn asked, taking his hand. She knew he would probably want to, even if the selfish part of her wanted to keep him to herself all day. Maybe that was just part of being someone's mate. She never wanted to let him leave, even though they had to part eventually.
He nodded a little. "Yeah." he told her. "I think Gabe'll be taking up a little of her time though, so probably later this evening. Don't want to interrupt that. He's probably just thankful she's back. I am too, for him. I couldn't imagine being without you..." Especially now. He could barely stand the thought of going back to Day's and not having her around.
She smiled and lifted his hand to her lips to kiss his knuckles. "You won't have to be without me. I can promise you that much. We can stay here together, if you want? At least until you have to go back to see your sister. Or we could go to a movie or something..." She didn't think the two of them had done anything normal since Claire went missing.
Madock smiled at her and shifted himself enough that he could pull her body back against hers, his legs spreading enough to make room for her between them. His arms slid around her from behind and he rested his head lightly against her shoulder, pressing his lips to her neck. "Maybe we can stay here for a little while." he suggested. "And tomorrow, if you want, we can go to lunch. I have to work at three, but before that I have plenty of time for you." he murmured. He wondered how he'd handle work now that he was different. He'd have to wear that bracelet for sure.
"I think that sounds perfect." She didn't mind hanging out there for awhile at all. It was secluded and felt far away from everyone and all the problems that seemed to be gathering around them. Jessalyn leaned against him and smiled, feeling content now that she knew Madock's sister was back. She would have to call Day to check on Tilly too. "You know, no matter what people say or do... this was our choice and we can handle it on our own if we have to."
"I know." he told her. "I'm not upset about the choices I've made. I don't regret them in the slightest, I just hate what I've put you through." he whispered, pressing his lips to her temple. "What we did was bad, wasn't it?" he asked. "You biting me..." As much as he was thankful for his decision and the way he felt about Jessalyn now, he couldn't help but feel like the only thing that hurt him about the whole situation was Jessalyn and how people would feel about what she did, mostly her family.
"What I did was bad," Jessalyn corrected, since Madock hadn't done anything wrong, in her eyes. "But only because it's so taboo... there's already a perception of werewolves... especially bitten ones. But to me, it's not like you were some random stranger I attacked out of anger. And this was something you wanted... I know my family will be upset, but I'm not sorry for what I did. I don't care what anyone else things if it means I get to be with you."
Madock let out a little breath and nodded. "It won't matter soon enough, right?" he told her. "You'll be eighteen and it won't matter what anyone has to say." It didn't really matter now. It wasn't like they could undo it anyway. Madock saw no point in anyone being upset about it.
"It doesn't matter now," she assured him, rubbing her hand over his. "I love you, and your my mate and they'll understand at least that much. I'm willing to deal with the consequences for you." Jessalyn worried constantly what her parents would say, but Madock was right. She was almost eighteen, and she had made her choices already. There was no going back.