hiddenpsalm (hiddenpsalm) wrote in light_of_may, @ 2009-09-07 21:41:00 |
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Entry tags: | #solo, 2009-06-14 |
The letdown
Who: Psalm (solo)
When: Mid-day
Where: Bunny's basement
Psalm woke up just after his dream of Myra ended. What a disappointment it was to go from being somewhere safe, warm, and happy with Myra to waking up in a cold dark basement. Waking up to realize that he was still tied up. And that was pretty shitty of Bunny as far as he was concerned. He trusted her! She always wanted him to and then he did and what did she do but throw him into the basement like some super creepy far too obsessed stalker. Except she claimed she was helping him that she was doing this for him. Ha! Yeah right. How was tying someone up good for them? Any feeble hopes of friendship were long gone in his mind by this point - and hopefully hers as well.
He couldn't see a way out of his situation, the more he tried to get out of the ropes, the further they tightened. And where were his damned spirits? Why was he alone for the first time in YEARS? It was so unsettling he didn't even want to be reminded of the hopeless situation he was in. But if he gave up now, then Myra would never forgive him. He promised to always ALWAYS protect her. And Bunny was ruining that for him.
If Myra died, he would never forgive Bunny. He would never forgive himself. Bunny may as well have killed him if it came to that. Not that he was giving up hope. He wouldn't ever give up hope. It was just a terrible feeling waking up alone on the one day where he thought he'd be celebrating something as stupid as the day he was born with the girl he loved.
He inched towards the stairs, but gave up after an hour, and getting not more than a foot from where he had begun. Leaving there, even if he got somehow magically to the top of the stairs wasn't going to happen, at least not that day. Even if he got to the top of the stairs, Bunny would be waiting. And it wasn't like he could knock her out or do anything else to her with being tied up like he was. And even then, he still didn't want to hurt Bunny. Sure, she had crushed all hopes of getting Myra and getting her now - but as crazy psycho as she seemed to be it wasn't like he could hurt her ever. Bunny was innocent. Naive, even stupid at times. Who knew the real motives behind what she was doing to him? He might not ever make sense of what was going on in that basement.
All he could do in times like these at the hotel when he wanted to do something but couldn't, all that ever really helped was putting a pen to paper and writing Myra a letter. Not that he had a pen or paper or could even really use his hands at the moment. But even then he knew exactly what he'd say to her. Myra, I love you. I'm sorry I'm failing you right now but I'm trying. God, I'm trying so hard for you. I know I'm not enough but please, please, please don't give up on me. Please Myra. I love you. I love you so much. Live through this, because if you don't I can't. Just thinking the words made him cry.