He shook his head. "No Cara, that's not it," he told her. "She blames herself for Robbie's death. And now that she knows what happened to me, she's adding that to her guilt. She's just broken and hurting and I can't do anything about it because I'm not him anymore."
Colin banged his head back into the wall behind him. "I can barely keep my head together long enough to have a conversation. I can't help her like this. She needs her brother. I could always make things better. Even a little bit. Now? I have to careful all the time and God forbid David or Anders' thoughts get out there and fuck-"
This was why he was afraid to let him see her. Because now it was all just worse.