Colin stopped when she said that. "No," he told her. "But I got reminded of who I used to be. And that makes me shitty company. Sorry."
Cara may always get what she wanted, but he didn't want her to know. He was now back almost to where he'd been before he met her emotionally. Hopeless and riddled with guilt and despair. Becky's life had been destroyed as badly as his had been, and he'd had to face that nightmare tonight.
"Let it go, Cara," he said softly. "I am not going to do anything stupid. I just feel like shit and want to be alone."
Okay, that wasn't true. Not entirely. He did feel like shit, but more than alone, he wanted to be the person he'd been before. He couldn't help Becky. Not as a crazy vampire with any control. He needed to be who he was before for her. And he couldn't.