He shook his head. "No, not every time," he admitted. "My control's getting better. But I basically spent the last year trying not to touch anyone, anything and basically avoiding the world in general." Which had sucked, but he hadn't known what else to do.
Colin sighed again. "I have a lot of other people's memories after a year," he explained. "Everyone I've ever fed on is up there." This was going to be hard, but she needed to know, maybe then she'd understand. "Especially the ones I've killed. Anders, he's up there. If anything, reminding me of what I don't want to become."