"Then I can deal with being a monster." Or at least she could try to a little better. It was odd that even then Lux couldn't put into words exactly how she felt about Troy, but it was definitely stronger than friendship and more encompassing than sexual attraction. Maybe the two of those together turned into love, the love people kept talking about, the love Troy said he felt for her. The look he gave her when he revealed his intentions for revenge was one she had never seen on him before, and it took her breath away for a split-second. "No, I'll help you. If you want it then this is your fight." God knew she would do the same to her own attacker if she even knew who he was. "But I will be there every step of the way." You didn't hurt the people she loved and expected to get away with it.
The look Troy gave her when he broke their kiss, calling her name, seemed to have broken something inside of her. Even though she did not want to stop until he did because she wanted to be whatever he needed, eventually she gave a cry and pushed him away. "I can't, I can't, I just can't lose you, I can't." She whimpered, shaking her head. Panic had overwhelmed her at last and the tears flew freely down her cheeks. "I love you, I actually love you so fucking much and it's scary as hell because it's too soon and we're completely accidental and I just thought about what if I had lost you and I couldn't bear it! I couldn't, my heart fucking hurts just thinking about it, Troy!"