Ohh, if only Lux knew about all the times that Troy had literally had to take a cold shower just to get the thought of Lux's teasing out of his head. Meditating was a great way to get back to a place where you could be focused--but it did nothing for that sort of thing. It wasn't so much that Troy was embarrassed, he just didn't know really anything about this sort of thing at all. Man, Tessa was going to laugh her ass off! If he told her, that was. Just the thought of someone else being in on how he must have botched this made him anxious. But this was right, wasn't it? That he wasn't pressuring her? He had definitely wanted Lux to take a chance on him, but he didn't exactly mean all the way. Did he want that? Yes. Was it right to do that right now? He didn't think so. Both of their emotions were still high from today and he would think it would be taking advantage. Right?
Seeing her smile made it feel like he wasn't doing something wrong. And Troy could definitely get used to her kisses, so soft and so warm. "I just...I don't want to do something you don't like." She could understand that, right? Her idea about snuggling was nice, but Troy had a feeling if he stayed close to her he'd lose control and he'd want to do what his body still wanting him to follow through on. "Snuggling is good. And I think it would be good to see if we could get any news about Simon." He smiled, almost shyly. It would put him at ease, now that he had remembered things past how much Lux's touch effected him. "You...you know I want you." That was a given. And if she hadn't known that before than she should know that now. "But...are you serious about this? About there being a next time?" It had been hard enough to convince her that she was worthy of Troy's affection, and even then it was more like Troy won the battle whereas Lux was out to win the war. He couldn't help it, the unfamiliar territory had the words spilling out before he could stop himself. "Do you really want me?" It would make all the difference in the world if his feelings were returned. Maybe she didn't love him, or wasn't as crazy about him as he was about her, but... If there was something there, then he wanted to know.