Marisa Selwyn (a_singing_cat) wrote in light_of_may, @ 2011-10-26 13:49:00 |
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Entry tags: | 2009-08-24, julian |
Wanting to start again
Who: Julian and Marisa
Where: Restaurant
When: Evening
Teaching wasn't such a bad gig. Sure, Marisa had to go from her old habits of working more at night to working in the day, sometimes far too early in it, but it wasn't bad. Jacob had started at preschool and all too soon he was going to be in kindergarten. Marisa was having a few issues coming to terms with that and she was going to need to sit down with her mother one of these days to see how she had dealt with sending her own kids off to school. Hopefully, when the time came to actually send Jacob off she could be the one doing it instead of her ex-in-laws. But that was another story and she wasn't supposed to be worrying about that tonight. According to her mother she shouldn't be doing what she was either. Felicity Selwynn was very vocally disapproving of her daughter spending time with 'that dog' again. Marisa let her mom carry on because it was easier than stopping her mid-rant, but she wasn't actually listening to anything she said. She was busy checking her reflection to make sure that her outfit was fine. She hadn't worn that dress since she was back in California and she'd figured that she might as well now, because who knew when she'd get the chance to again. It made her feel pretty and on days when she'd noticed that scar on her stomach she needed to remind herself that no one else saw that. Just what covered it and tonight, what covered it looked good.
It wasn't even a date really. Is it? Marisa twirled a piece of hair around her finger as she leaned against the doorframe and held back the curtain of the window next to it to look outside. She was reminded very suddenly of how she'd acted back when she was in high school waiting for Julian to pick her up for a date. Only things were way different now than they'd been then. They were both over a decade older. She'd moved away after refusing his proposal. But she'd come back to find that he hadn't gotten married. He wasn't even dating anyone and various sources around town had told her that he hadn't had a really serious relationship since she left. Did that say things? That said things. Then so does the fact that I had a kid, got married... to an idiot who tried to gut me. That says things too. Marisa thought it said that she had simply atrocious taste when she was left all on her own. Even if she'd wanted to forget about Timothy then it was impossible because her mom wasn't going to let her. It was her nightmare come true and her daughter had gone through it. Really, Marisa couldn't blame her for being upset about it.
I'm just doing great with this thinking about the things I'm not supposed to. It'd be better once Julian got there. Once that happened she could stop tugging at her necklace too. And wondering if Jacob had gotten to sleep okay tonight or if it'd been hard because she hadn't been there to read him his favorite story.