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Evan Pucey (evanpucey) wrote in landing_rpg,
@ 2009-09-25 21:41:00

Who: Evan, Athena, and Jessica
What: Uh oh.
When: Over the break, after Jessica and Evan's fight
Where: Evan's house
Rating: PG-13 at least

Evan wasn't entirely sure what he was getting himself in to by inviting Athena Malfoy over. Sure, he had every intention of releasing some of his pent up sexual frustration, but there was a part of him that was worried he was getting more than he bargained for. Was Athena actually comfortable with the fact that Evan had gone from snogging her to dating Jessica or was she secretly pissed about it? True, Evan was sure he could come up with a few ways to distract her from that, but it did mean he put a touch more effort into his appearance that day. Nothing over the top, of course, but it was noticeable in his attire as he waited for Athena to show.

Then, of course, there was this odd nagging feeling at the back of his mind, something that had nothing to do with Athena and everything to do with Jessica Vaisey. She was the first girl he had ever dated exclusively, the first girl one might say he was 'serious' about. Admittedly, he'd considered such things with Athena but they seemed more for appearances and physical satisfaction than affection, or whatever it was he held for Jessica.

Jessica was quite possibly his best friend. Now things had gone to shit, and he was quite confident that she was never going to speak to him again. Not only that, but it meant all of their mutual friends were going to be glaring at him, too. Fantastic. If this entire ordeal wasn't proof that relationships were a terrible idea, he wasn't sure what was.

And that was exactly why Athena Malfoy was coming by for a 'visit'.

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littlevaisey
2009-10-11 03:24 pm UTC (link)

How could he tell her this was her fault? Jessica couldn't believe that he was trying to make it seem like he did nothing wrong. She knew she did things wrong, that's why she went to his house to sort things out. And what did she walk in on?

"I did not call you an asshole!" she said, her soft voice more sharp now. "I never said we were done. You assumed we were done. Did you even try to run after me, or owl me, or ask to patch things up?" This was draining her, fast, and she didn't know how long she could keep herself from crying. "If I did not go here today, would have contacted me?"

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evanpucey
2009-10-11 04:01 pm UTC (link)

Okay, so he hadn't exactly fought for her, but Evan had never really fought for anything in his life. Most things got handed to him. He had never had to be concerned about girls or sex or money. They were always at his beck and call. It was uncomplicated, simple, good-old-fashioned one-night stands that left no strings attached.

Jessica, on the other hand, had all kinds of strings all tangled up in everything. She was his friend first. He'd taken the time to get to know her, and she had been there for him when things had gotten pretty damn terrible. Then things had elevated, and he'd had to take things slowly, and for him, he had. One hundred times as slowly as any other girl. But it hadn't been slow enough, and now there she was staring at him as if she were about to cry, and Evan wasn't sure what he'd done or what he was doing or what he should do.

"...No," he said honestly. "I didn't think you'd want to see me, anyway."

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littlevaisey
2009-10-11 04:50 pm UTC (link)

That single word of rejection pierced right through her, and she couldn't have stopped the tears to spill if she tried. He didn't want her. He never did. How could she have been so blind?

"Stop." she told him. "Just stop, Evan. How would have you known what I was feeling? You didn't even bother coming after me! You just... don't care about anyone but yourself. How dare you..." she had never felt so angry, so full of hate for herself, for him, for everything. Her heart was broken and she didn't know what to do, how to pull herself together. It was all too overwhelming. "Why did you even run after me now? You needn't humiliate me more. I already feel like such a fool on my own..."

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evanpucey
2009-10-11 11:42 pm UTC (link)

Okay, so that wasn't exactly easy to swallow, but Evan supposed if he had misinterpreted the entire thing and she had still thought they were together, catching him with Athena with his pants down probably wasn't the easiest thing to deal with.

"I obviously didn't, Jess. I think that's why we're here, don't you?" She was making his head hurt. "I'm not trying to humiliate you. I just don't..." He ran a frustrated hand through his hair. "You know I've never done this kind of shite before. I guess because I'm not very good at it." A sigh escaped him.

"And I do care about you, for the record." He had a bad feeling that was just going to make her angrier. "It's not like I did this to hurt you."

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littlevaisey
2009-10-12 12:01 am UTC (link)

His demeanor confirmed the thoughts in her head. Evan didn't seem to care enough to do something about their present situation, didn't even apologize and continued to insist that she was at fault for everything. "You don't what?" she asked. "And not being able to do this before isn't an excuse. I've never done this before either, but I know how it feels to be afraid of hurting someone you care about. It pains me to even think of hurting you, and that's not something I had to learn through experience.

"If you did care about me, you would have been afraid to hurt me." This, she knew was true. Nothing that he'll say would make her believe otherwise. One of her hands reached up to clutch her chest, pressing down on it to relieve the throbbing pain in it. "I've always asked you what you want, because it seems like your desires constantly change. I want this all to work out. Do you? Just give me a yes or no..."

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evanpucey
2009-10-17 04:32 pm UTC (link)

Evan sighed and scratched the back of his neck uncomfortably. He felt like they were going around in circles. He tried to explain, she got upset. He tried to explain, she got upset. Was there anyway to win in this kind of situation?

He paused for a moment, before finally attempting to be as blunt as possible.

"I do want it to work out, but in order for it to work out, I have to know that you're going to be more physical. If not, then, I don't see this working, Jessica."

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littlevaisey
2009-10-17 04:43 pm UTC (link)

Jessica herself was getting quite tired of their conversation, and was grateful that he'd finally asked her what his conditions were. They were going 'round in circles and it was leaving her quite dizzy.

"That was what I came here to do." he told him honestly. "I wanted to work things out. I wanted to tell you that after a bit of thought and having to spend these past days not being able to talk to you and missing you so much, that I am going to be more open to being more physical with you. Then I saw... this..." she sighed, looking at him directly. "What about you? Can you please just be with me, and only me? Or can you not do that anymore?" She dreaded the answer, but knew she needed to hear this now.

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	evanpucey 2009-10-17 08:10 pm UTC (link)
	Evan hadn't been expecting that, honestly. He perked up considerably at the idea, but he had to admit the word 'try' did make him a bit nervous. He supposed he'd just have to deal with that. "This..." He gestured to the room. "Only happened because I thought we were done. You won't have to worry about that, okay?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

littlevaisey
2009-10-18 01:52 am UTC (link)

Jessica wasn't going to try, she was determined to do it. For him. It was what he wanted, and in truth she did, too, but was simply afraid before. She was new to all of this, new to having a boyfriend and being intimate with someone. The possibility of doing something wrong scared her, plus there was the fact that she was a virgin...

It gave her the smallest relief to hear that he had only been with Athena because he thought they were over. Sure, he could have been lying, but Jess didn't want to think so. "How are you going to tell her that?" she asked then, scared what could happen if she left him in that room with Athena again...

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	evanpucey 2009-10-22 02:16 am UTC (link)
	Well... that went well. Evan couldn't help but smirk slightly at her question. "Well, knowing Athena she's gotten bored and has probably found her own way out by now." He shrugged. "I can ask her to leave, if she's still there. I'm sure she'll understand." In an Athena sort of way. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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