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Braden Capper (bcapper) wrote in landing_rpg,
@ 2009-04-06 12:01:00

Entry tags:

braden capper, elena goyle, zara flint

Who: Braden and Zara (and Elena, briefly)
Where: Slytherin commonroom
When: Monday
What: Braden is worried
Rating: pg-13
Status: Complete

"Elena, will you just please ask her to come out?"

Elena frowned at her friend's boyfriend. Zara had obviously been upset lately, and she hadn't realized Braden was the cause until she'd found him waiting outside the entrance to Slytherin. "I don't know if that's a good idea."

"I just want to talk to her. It's important. Please?"

Elena sighed, eyeing him for a moment, before nodding. "Alright, fine. But only this once."

"Thanks, Elena."

So she ascended the stairs to the seventh year girls' dormitory and pulled open the door. "Zara," she said with a weak smile. "Your boyfriend has been sitting outside for an hour begging people to go get you for him. Don't suppose you'd be willing to go down a see him?"

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I'm going to go with pre-lunch?

flintz
2009-04-06 01:26 pm UTC (link)

Zara was reading a book before lunch, she didn't really want to think about Braden. Things had just been a little bit too weird for her lately. She'd been thinking a lot, and she loved Braden, but was this worth it? Should they just try things on their own for a little while? Were they just too different? Zara didn't know.

As she looked up to Elena with a sigh, she couldn't smile, even though she tried. "He's sitting outside the common room?" She said half as a question half not. She slowly got up off of her bed. "I guess I have to." She said, she didn't want her life to bother anyone else in her house, it was her problem.

Zara shut her eyes for a moment. "I'll go talk to him." She said. "Thanks Elena." She said honestly before heading out of their dorm room.

As Zara opened the entrance to the rest of the castle she looked at Braden as she shut it. "Hi." Was all she managed to say.

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bcapper
2009-04-06 02:26 pm UTC (link)

Braden immediately launched to his feet from his sitting position. It wasn't the most graceful motion since his legs had mostly fallen asleep from waiting for so long, but he managed not to fall on his face.

"Hi," he said with a nervous smile, his hands shifting into his pockets so she wouldn't be able to see his nervous fidgeting. He cleared his throat awkwardly, looking down at her. She didn't look... happy, not that he had expected her to, but she looked... worse, like she hadn't been getting enough sleep or something of the sort.

"I... Zara..." He wanted to step closer to her, but was afraid of invading her space at the moment. "Have... you been avoiding me?" he asked weakly.

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flintz
2009-04-06 02:36 pm UTC (link)

Zara ran a hand through her hair looking away for a moment before looking back up at him. "A little." She said softly. Zara wasn't going to lie to him. She just didn't know what to do, or how to react.

"I just don't know what to say or do." She said softly. "I know it's not your fault that she kissed you..." She paused. "I just..." S he paused again. Zara really didn't know.

"I just don't know." She said softly. Zara felt like she was going insane, nothing was making sense anymore. She just wasn't sure how to fix things, and it was on her too, she wasn't putting all the blame on him.

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bcapper
2009-04-06 02:47 pm UTC (link)

Braden swallowed nervously, though it did nothing to ease the sudden dryness of his throat as she spoke. He didn't know how he had thought this conversation would go, but he hadn't expected it to take such a sharp downward turn so early.

"That's... not even the real problem, is it?" he asked hesitantly, feeling his palms start to sweat inside his pockets. "It's... something else." His chocolate gaze sought out hers, gazing into her eyes intensely. "Zara, tell me what it is. Do you... not want to be with me anymore?" Say no, he pleaded silently. Say you love me and things will get better. Say no.

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flintz
2009-04-06 03:06 pm UTC (link)

"I don't know." She said softly. Zara Really didn't know anything anymore.

"I love you." She said very simply. "I don't really see myself with anyone but you, I just don't know how to fix anything or make everything be okay... You know?" She said softly. Zara really was just confused, she was hurting and she wasn't sure if it was all just because of what she'd seen or if it was her fault and problem.

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bcapper
2009-04-06 03:15 pm UTC (link)

Braden cleared his throat at her answer, lifting a hand to scratch the back of his neck uneasily. He had gone through breakups before, but he had never been in love with someone, and he certainly hadn't been as close to them as he had been to Zara. He had taken her virginity from her, for Merlin's sake, and now... things were falling apart, and he knew he didn't have enough hands to keep them together.

"Okay," he said gruffly. "Then you... don't need to be with me." Taking a knife to his insides would've felt an awful lot better than saying that. "You shouldn't... be with someone just because it's... what you're used to." He let his hand fall limply at his side. "I love you enough not to do that to you."

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flintz
2009-04-06 03:27 pm UTC (link)

The expression on her face was hurt, that wasn't what she had said! She'd said she didn't know how to fix things. It hurt that he'd just said that, she didn't know if he'd said just because he was hurt, or if maybe there was just something more. Everything was just messed up.

"That's not what I said." She said, her voice giving him a frustrated look. "I love you. Did you completely miss that?" She said shaking her head.

"Maybe we do need time apart, I don't know. I don't know how to fix things."

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bcapper
2009-04-06 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Braden saw the hurt on her face, but his own prevented him from moving to her and holding her close. She loved him, but she didn't want to be with him.

He wanted to punch someone, to break something, to scream, but he didn't. He just shoved his hand back into his pocket and muttered. "Yeah, okay. Then... we're... not together." His fists were clenched inside his pants. "I'm... going to go now."

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flintz
2009-04-06 09:41 pm UTC (link)

Zara's face turned to a frustrated one. Did she say she wanted things to just end? She said they might need time to figure it out... and that she didn't know... The key was that she didn't know. Zara didn't have a clue how to figure any of it out... And he wasn't exactly being helpful with it.

"Fine, if it is that simply to you, I wont stop you." She said crossing her arms. Zara had to hold herself back from crying. She could feel her heart breaking. She wanted to wrap her arms around him and cry, but no, he just had just decided that they weren't together anymore. So that was that.

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bcapper
2009-04-06 09:49 pm UTC (link)

"What do you want me to say, Zara?" he snapped, finally showing anger toward her for what was the first time in their relationship and likely hte first time in their entire friendship. "I know what that means- 'I have to think about things'. 'We should have some time apart'. You keep saying I'm looking for someone more exciting, but I'm not. I'm not the one who thinks he needs something better. You are, and you don't even realize it, do you?"

He kept his distance from her. "I'm not going to sit around and wait for you to realize it, Zara. I'm sorry."

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flintz
2009-04-06 09:57 pm UTC (link)

Zara flinched when he snapped. She looked only at him, as much as she wanted to look away she just wouldn't let herself. "I don't know how to stop feeling like you deserve better, okay? If that isn't how it is, sorry, but it is how I feel. Which apparently how I feel isn't fair or make sense." She snapped.

"Fine. If that's all...." She said trying not to feel like crap.

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	bcapper 2009-04-06 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	"No, Zara," he said softly. "What I feel isn't fair." With his hands still in fists, he turned from her and headed down the corridor, head down. He didn't know what he was going to do now, but he didn't think he was going to like it much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	flintz 2009-04-06 10:19 pm UTC (link)
	"Walk away." She said shaking her head turning to go back into the common room, Zara ran up to her dorm room this was just great. It was really painful. Zara couldn't exactly think, or feel. She wasn't sure she'd be able to even do anything. That conversation hadn't gone how she wanted it to. (Reply to this) (Parent)