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Doctor Carlisle Cullen (doccullen) wrote in labyrinth_rpg,
@ 2009-04-09 16:17:00

Entry tags:

carlisle cullen, complete, day five, edward cullen, juniper golding

WHO: Carlisle, Edward and Juniper
WHEN: Day 5 around midnight
WHAT: Father-Son reunion
WHERE: B Dorm, just outside #218
RATING: PG/PG-13 at most
STATUS: Complete

Carlisle’s first day in this new land was spent trapped in a library, avoiding the sun. Now, while normally the learned man would have rejoiced at nothing to do with his time but read, he was not happy with the situation he found himself in. Because all he wanted to do, now that he’d learned that his lost son was in this place as well, was to find Edward.

Despite his panic and excitement, Carlisle was a smart man. He first went to the main offices of the dorms and requested Edward’s dorm and room number. When he didn’t find his son there, Carlisle made a quick run in the woods nearby, looking to see if Edward was out hunting. When that was fruitless as well, Carlisle had to do some thinking. He’d spent a great deal of his time in the library perusing the journal he’d been given, and Carlisle had a very good memory.

Edward had apparently found a friend in this place, a human girl that he cared a great deal for, given his protective comments toward her. Perhaps he was with this Juniper Golding. Carlisle didn’t bother attempting to get her room number from the goblins, as he’d had to provide proof of kinship to get Edward’s information, and even then, it had been a fight. So instead, he acted methodically, searching each floor of each dorm building for his son. Of course, he didn’t go knocking on doors, not wanting to bother anyone sleeping, but instead used a far more direct approach.

Walking down the second floor hallway of the B dorm, Carlisle did the same thing that he’d done a dozen times before. If this didn’t work, he didn’t know where he’d look next, but somehow, he couldn’t bring himself to use the journals.

Edward, where are you, son?

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edwcull
2009-04-11 04:40 pm UTC (link)

"Yes," Edward confirmed somewhat amused that Carlisle had been surprised enough to forget himself. "Doctor Who, complete with the TARDIS, Rose Tyler, and Jack Harkness and apparently Robin Hood and some people from Harry Potter are around somewhere as well. If it hadn't been happening to everyone else I'd think I'd lost my mind."

Edward rolled his eyes. "You have no idea." Difficult was really putting it lightly. Juniper made him feel guilty about feeling guilty about things he should feel horrible about. There was just an air about her that made him want to be happy all the time and it was completely against his nature. He was either in store for a complete attitude adjustment or a lot of bickering.

Edward looked a bit uncomfortable, but tried to think of a way to answer his father directly without being too blunt or too graphic about describing the all encompassing lust which had a tendency to override his self control when Juniper was involved. "Remember my reaction to the Swan girl? Who is here by the way. Of all the torturous things that could have happened if I was to be kidnapped why couldn't she at least have been left behind? Anyway, it was something like that only the urge I felt was less violent and more . . . a need to express . . . physical . . . affection . . . so to speak."

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doccullen
2009-04-11 04:44 pm UTC (link)

Carlisle just stared at him for a moment before deciding that he didn't need to continue to get into that conversation. After all, there was only so much he could take before he cracked, and it had been an odd day to begin with.

Ah, he nodded, looking at his son fondly. You are so lucky that Esme isn't here, he thought with an amused little smile. She'd been so worried about Edward, after all, and to find that he wasn't broken somehow was going to send her over the moon.

There's nothing wrong with that, son, he smiled. As long as you're careful, and of course, respectful to Juniper's wishes - not that I'd think you anything else - I don't see a problem with it. She makes you happy, clearly. Who am I to fault that?

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edwcull
2009-04-11 04:53 pm UTC (link)

Edward gave him a somewhat disparaging look. "I'm fully aware of Esme's concerns and they are of course ridiculous." He shook his head. Of course he had found various women attractive over the years but he'd never met a one of them he felt he could completely or even remotely bond with until now. He'd given up eventually but it wasn't as if he didn't feel the pangs of loneliness. He was just better at hiding his unhappiness than most because he knew that it hurt his mother and that was unforgivable.

"It's Juniper's wishes that are the problem. As much as I would like to believe that someday I might have the control to push our relationship farther I have enough difficulty just kissing her without bruising or breaking her. The thought of what I might do to her in a fit of passion terrifies me so badly I'm almost afraid to touch her at all. Not that any of that matters right now anyway. I've never been a man interested in casual lusts and even if she does strike a certain chord in me there's no reason to get carried away. I still hold the same principles I always have." And those principles would hopefully keep him from snapping any more of Juniper's bras or other clothing. He was a man after all, a rational thinking creature and not an animal or a savage.

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doccullen
2009-04-12 12:13 am UTC (link)

Carlisle was at war with himself. On the one hand, he wanted desperately to encourage Edward, to advise him to take the blessing he'd found in Juniper and run with it. He'd been alone for so long, and Carlisle hated to see his son lonely. But at the same time, how could he discourage caution? The pair were so different, and though Carlisle wanted to believe that anything was possible with the right amount of compassion and understanding, he didn't want to see Edward hurt if it went badly. Finally, he sighed and shook his head.

Keep your concerns in mind, I suppose, but don't deny yourself happiness either, if you've found it in this little girl, he thought, standing to move to his son's side, squeezing his shoulder and looking down at the sleeping human. I know it's soon, Edward, but I see such a change in you... he shook his head and rolled his eyes, internally laughing. What a time to wonder what Alice would say...

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edwcull
2009-04-12 09:19 am UTC (link)

Edward smiled reassuringly at the turmoil running through his father's mind. He understood Carlisle's desire to see him happy, and to see him embrace love as he had ignored it for over eighty years. He did have his concerns and doubts but whatever his feelings and worries he would try. He would do his best to embrace this strange, lovely girl who had found her way into his heart and all the things that she had to offer. That didn't mean he wouldn't choose caution first, but though their relationship might move so slowly as to frustrate Juniper to tears some day, Edward would stay with her until she told him to go away.

"I don't intend to father, for better or for worse I love her already and I would be lying if I said that the relief from the loneliness I've felt for years wasn't staggering. To be without her, I think would be incapacitating." He laughed silently at the thought of Alice who would be practically crawling all over the girl in his arms. "I'm a little afraid of what Alice's reaction might be, actually."

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doccullen
2009-04-12 09:31 am UTC (link)

At Edward's words, Carlisle's smile changed from encouraging to ecstatic. He loved her. And really, that was all that mattered. Carlisle had seen enough in his many years to know that beyond steel or stone or their very selves, love endured and fortified those that embraced it. He squeezed Edward's shoulder again and moved to brush a curl from Juniper's face. You love her, and that makes her family, he told Edward with a soft smile. Finally.

He joined in the quiet laughter and shook his head. She'd love her for your sake, I'm sure, he commented, not needing to see what Edward was thinking to have the same opinion. Alice would be on the girl like Velcro.

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juniper_golding
2009-04-12 09:48 am UTC (link)

Juniper slept next to Edward peacefully as the men spoke, not bothered in the slightest by their words, as her feeble human ears couldn't even hear them. Instead, she dreamed.

Stalks of grass undulated in the breeze, the blanket of green broken up prettily by bright splashes of colour, the same wildflowers that the little girl gathered in her hands. Her dress was plain and dim, recalling the early fifteenth century, and her hair, tucked under a modest cap, bore streaks of auburn in the sun. She stopped her play and froze, looking up to the sky and smiling. The flowers dropped at her feet and she raised her arms to the heavens, tears of joy running down her face...

A battlefield painted with blood. Soldiers dying all around, crying for their mothers and begging God for deliverance. A woman in white armour was at the head of the charge, bearing her banner and urging them all on, for God, and for France...

The church crucifix weaved slightly in her vision, the beginnings of what would be the funeral pyre splintering her skin. A voice very much her own, but somehow separate begged for her executioners to be forgiven, even as the smell of her own burning flesh filled the air. The faces of both the enemies and the friends of the Maid of Lorraine were blocked out by smoke...

Night now, the darkest point before dawn, and she walked into the arms of Death, his pale skin shining even in the moonless dark. His fangs glimmered with blood, even as the vampire prepared to take more. Despite Juniper's brave insistence that she was not afraid, her body began to shake. His fangs pierced her neck...

Juniper's eyes flashed open, and the first thing to become clear was Carlisle's face. She shot into a ball, covering her head, and screamed.

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edwcull
2009-04-12 11:30 am UTC (link)

Edward had been about to reply to Carlisle's thought about Alice when Juniper screamed. He had been completely caught up in the conversation, touched by his father's quick acceptance of the girl he loved as family and so he was surprised by her sudden waking and outburst of terror.

He caught Juniper up in his arms and pressed his cool lips to her temple. "Juniper, love I'm here. You're safe. You're safe with me." He spoke reassuringly and turned her in his arms so that she could see that he was there holding her and that she wasn't in any danger.

He was unsure if she'd woken because of a dream or if they had been louder than they realized and even more uncertain whether the root of her fear was a bad dream or waking to find a strange man leaning over her in her bed. In any case he rubbed her back and cradled her close to his chest so that she would feel safe and taken care of. You're alright, my love. I promise that you're not in any danger.

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doccullen
2009-04-12 12:03 pm UTC (link)

It was pretty hard to startle a vampire, but Juniper had managed to do it to not one, but two of them. Carlisle jumped back about a foot when she screamed, and then gave a fleeting glance to Edward before zipping into the bathroom and out of sight.

I'm just going to stay here until she calms down, he thought to his son, his tone laced with worry and guilt for scaring the poor girl.

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juniper_golding
2009-04-12 12:08 pm UTC (link)

Wrapped up in Edward's arms, Juniper both calmed down and finished waking up. Her eyes were closed and she took in a few deep breaths, listening to both his audible and silent comforts, and after a moment, her shaking stopped. "Just dreaming..." she breathed thankfully against his neck, where she was hiding her face for the time being. "It was Armand...thought..." she shook her head and let out a sigh.

Then Juniper blinked and sat up fully, looking around. "Wait a tick...Did I see your dad?" she asked, looking at Edward with a comically confused expression.

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edwcull
2009-04-12 12:26 pm UTC (link)

Edward chuckled at the sudden mood swing and nodded. "Yes, he just arrived. I invited him in so we could speak and I could still watch over you. I'm sorry if we woke you and even sorrier that you were frightened." He leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to her lips in comfort. "Carlisle stepped out for a moment, he's even sorrier than I am for scaring you, I think. Are you alright?"

He checked her over a bit and then decided she looked suitably calmed down. She changed moods so quickly he could barely keep up with them. "If you think you're ready I'll ask him back in and introduce you?"

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