This was so hard for her because the only thing she wanted right now was to put her arms around Tara and make her see that everything would be ok, but the words on her lovers lips talked of space and letting Tara absorbed the things that had gone on, and truthfully it was only fair that she gave her what she requested.
She wished she could go back in time, back to when they had made up and stop her lover from being murdered, stop the events that came afterwards. Willow would never dare use such magics as that anymore, no more manipulation, she would never use magic in such dark ways anymore, she swore it. What had happened was etched in stone in the sands of time, she would have to deal with what was going on and face the music, face Tara.
Feeling the hand on her shoulder Willow brought her hand to squeeze it gently. "I only turned away because I feel so ashamed." She kissed Tara's hand then turned around to face her, keeping a gentle hold on the other wicca's hand. "Take whatever time you need to find your answers, this is much to process, scariness and all, more then we've faced before."
She was quiet letting Tara have her turn with words, she still admired the strength there, Tara hand come along way from the extremely shy girl she had meet in what seemed like a life time before now. Her heart sank a little not believing the words that came out of Tara's mouth.
"If we want this? Oh Tara, I have never wanted anything more in my life than you, it's always been about you since we meet. I've made bad mistakes, watched...felt you die in my arms, and made even worse mistakes afterwards." Willow stepped forward closing the space between them, she put an arm around Tara's waist, the other tilted her chin upwards to meet her gaze.
"I'm still Willow, your Willow Tree." Her voice was low and calm. "I know how hard this is, I feel it too, but I know we are so very strong." Her hand brushed Tara's cheek gently. "Listen, I've waited this long to be together with you again, I think I can wait a little while longer." She smiled warmly, even laughed a little. She showed Tara that there was a flair of her old self there and not all had changed. Willow kissed Tara's cheek. "It will be ok, we will be, trust me?" She searched for the answer on the other's face.