vex | vax.
I'm not as angry as I was. I could have killed him when he first told me what happened. But now... Now it's just a simmering feeling in the pit of my stomach that keeps mixing with regret and sympathy and frustration. I love the little idiot. And I hate how he beats himself up over every little thing. But I can't just... stop feeling how I do. Trust me. If I could, a LOT of things would be easier.
Pike. You. Grog. Tibs. And we're not getting Tibs back. I don't want to lose any of the rest of you like that. I couldn't stand it.
She keeps telling me that some deaths happen for a reason, but I'm having a really hard time seeing that, Vex. I'm trying. Especially when I know I can't change it. But I don't know if I can believe the way I should.