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Tweak says, "I think he might love that kid"

Sara Lance [DCTV] (thewhitecanary) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2016-05-20 11:36:00

Entry tags:

felicity smoak, nyssa al ghul, ray palmer / the atom, rip hunter, sara lance / white canary

Well, that was fun.

rip.

You lied to me.

len.

I'm so glad you're okay. Losing you and losing Laurel was too much.

I killed Savage. I made it hurt.

nyssa.

I'm so tired. I just want to be with you. Forget about the rest of it.

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	wantstomatter 2016-05-20 03:57 pm UTC (link)
	At least we managed to kill Savage. (Reply to this) (Thread)

thewhitecanary
2016-05-20 04:21 pm UTC (link)

There is that. I enjoyed killing him, after everything.

ray.

I'm sorry about Kendra.

For what it's worth, I think she made the wrong choice. She doesn't even know that version of Carter. But she did love you. What you guys had was real. I'm not much for touchy-feely stuff, but I know that's important.

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	wantstomatter 2016-05-20 05:56 pm UTC (link)
	Mick did too. sara. Thank you. ~~It was her ch-~~ ~~It's become a pattern~~ But, hey, all of time and space. My life's become one big Doctor Who episode. Who knows. Maybe I'll find someone. I'm sorry about Laurel. And Snart. I'm sorry you had to lose so much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thewhitecanary
2016-05-20 06:13 pm UTC (link)

I'm glad he got to.

ray.

Of course.

We've got an adventure ahead of us. I don't know what Doctor Who is, but we definitely have a lot of adventure coming our way. And one day, you're going to meet someone amazing. And they won't have unresolved feelings for the Green Arrow or a reincarnated soulmate. And they're going to appreciate just how amazing you are.

Laurel was the best person I ever knew. She made me better. And Len...he was a friend. And a good man. And a possibility for something else. But they both helped me be the sort of person who can make it through that kind of loss.

You should get some rest. It's been a long day. A lot of long days.

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	wantstomatter 2016-05-21 12:08 am UTC (link)
	I am too. He needed it. Sara I'm going to end up saying thank you a lot. It's just appreciated. I can't lose in love all the time. Until then I have adventures and science and friendships to fall back on. They both deserved better. ~~Rip should've let us try~~ You too. I think we all could use it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thewhitecanary
2016-05-21 05:03 am UTC (link)

We all needed it. He took things from us. Things we can't get back.

ray.

You don't have to thank me. We're a team. And hey, you're in an alternate dinosaur world outside of time. You finding love can't be weirder than that.

They did. But life doesn't care what we deserve.

I will. You okay by yourself?

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	nyssara heirofthedemon 2016-05-20 04:50 pm UTC (link)
	Come rest then, beloved. I'll keep watch and you can forget everything else for a little while. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	nyssara. thewhitecanary 2016-05-20 06:08 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. I love you. So much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nyssara. heirofthedemon 2016-05-20 07:53 pm UTC (link)
	I love you too. You are all that is bright in my life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nyssara. thewhitecanary 2016-05-21 05:03 am UTC (link)
	You're all the best parts of me. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	agreatfire 2016-05-21 04:49 pm UTC (link)
	I take it everything is terrible. (Reply to this) (Thread)

thewhitecanary
2016-05-21 08:35 pm UTC (link)

We stopped Vandal Savage. And the Time Masters.

That's got to count for something, right?

felicity.

Rip knew Laurel was going to die. He knew and he didn't tell me. He lied to me here. He told me we could save her. But he was never planning on doing that.

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	agreatfire 2016-05-25 04:58 am UTC (link)
	And it stuck this time, right? It counts for a lot. sara. He knew? How is that not the first thing he tells you? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Rip \| Sara. timemaster 2016-05-21 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	You're going to have to be more specific, Sara. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. thewhitecanary 2016-05-21 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	You knew she was going to die. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. timemaster 2016-05-21 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	I... Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. thewhitecanary 2016-05-21 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	Didn't need confirmation. You lied to me. Not just back home. You lied to me here. You told me that we could fix it. You gave me hope. You promised me that I could have her back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. timemaster 2016-05-21 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	There was no way to prevent it, Sara. I tried. I ran all of the scenarios, but there was no way to stop it from happening. I thought maybe we could find a way to bring her back after... but it was easier to humor your thoughts of stopping it than explaining. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. thewhitecanary 2016-05-21 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	I don't need to be humored. I need to be able to trust my team. We all gave up everything to help you try to save your family. Len died for it. And not once did we ask you for anything. But I swear to god, Rip. If you ever lie to me again, I will slit your goddamn throat. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. timemaster 2016-05-21 09:21 pm UTC (link)
	It wasn't supposed to get to that point. I knew there was a possibility it would... But I hadn't intended to sacrifice any of you ~~unless~~ I think that's fair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

rip | sara.

thewhitecanary
2016-05-22 03:04 pm UTC (link)

You're still lying. Probably even to yourself. I wonder if you even know how to be honest. You may not have specifically planned to throw our lives away, but you picked us because we were expendable to the timeline. You picked us because we could die for your little crusade without damaging anything. Which means you didn't care if we survived, so long as you got what you wanted. And maybe you actually cared about us after a while. But at the end of the day, we were acceptable losses.

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	rip \| sara. timemaster 2016-05-22 03:46 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe I don't. But making assurances for the eventuality is not planning for it to happen. It's a different sort of planning altogether. And yes. I picked you because removing each of you from the timeline made a negligible difference. But ultimately it became more than that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. thewhitecanary 2016-05-22 04:55 pm UTC (link)
	I don't care if you planned for it or not. We were your team. Your team shouldn't ever be an acceptable sacrifice. We had your back and you were willing to let us die if it got you what you wanted. That is not okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rip \| sara. timemaster 2016-05-22 05:02 pm UTC (link)
	I know. I know it's not. But I couldn't help how I felt especially in the beginning. Jonas and Miranda meant more to me than the world. I don't know what I would have done to get them back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

rip | sara.

thewhitecanary
2016-05-22 05:32 pm UTC (link)

Stop acting like it was just in the beginning. Jax nearly died because you put your need to see your family again above keeping him safe. He took a risk that you should have taken and it almost killed him. Len did die being a hero.

I would do almost anything to get Laurel back. I would die for her without hesitation. And, yes, I would kill for her. I would murder Malcolm Merlyn and Damian Darhk without even blinking. But I wouldn't sacrifice good people, friends, to get her back. Because I know she would never forgive me for that. And I don't think Miranda and Jonas would forgive you for letting good people die just to get them back.

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	rip \| sara. timemaster 2016-05-22 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	I doubt Miranda would have forgiven me for this entire enterprise. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	CaptainCanary chillout 2016-05-23 05:24 am UTC (link)
	And here I was hoping I'd be the only one lucky enough to go through that whole mess. Not that I can speak for your sister, but I'll hazard a guess and say that if she feels anything like me we're glad you're still out there kicking ass even after we're gone. Good. Son of a bitch deserved to be offed a few times over. I hope he was afraid. (Reply to this)