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Tweak says, "Zagreus sits inside your head"

fatherfirst (fatherfirst) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2016-05-03 23:42:00

Entry tags:

barry allen / the flash, harrison wells, leonard snart / captain cold

That wasn't what was supposed to happen. I thought I could control it, and it just...

Barry. Barry? Are you still here?

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	portential 2016-05-05 12:37 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I'm here. I'm right here, Harry. And I'm fine. Now, tell me what happened. You're kind of freaking me out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-05 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I screwed up, Barry. I thought I could control it, but I was too desperate to even consider that I didn't have things as in hand as I thought I did. I killed you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	portential 2016-05-05 02:01 am UTC (link)
	Oh. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	portential 2016-05-05 02:05 am UTC (link)
	Listen, Harry. Whatever happened, I'm sure it wasn't your fault. You wouldn't have done whatever it was unless the science was sound and you were sure it was safe. You need to stop blaming yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-05 02:25 am UTC (link)
	I should have listened to everyone else. I should have realized it wasn't something that I could keep from going out of control. But it seemed like the only way that was could... That I could stop Zoom from doing the same thing to your world that he did to mine. You lost your speed. I thought I could get it back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	portential 2016-05-05 02:41 am UTC (link)
	But if my speed was gone, you couldn't just make it come back. You'd need another particle accelerator explosion. Harry, tell me you didn't cause another particle accelerator explosion. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-05 02:49 am UTC (link)
	I thought I could isolate it. Direct it so that only you were affected. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	portential 2016-05-05 04:03 am UTC (link)
	What happened? Was anyone else hurt? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-05 04:10 am UTC (link)
	It didn't go beyond the building. But the entropy was too much. Or at least, I think that's what happened. I'm not sure. Whatever occurred wasn't in my calculations. Wally and Jesse got caught up in the backlash. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

portential
2016-05-05 04:14 am UTC (link)

So, if you were trying to recreate the original circumstances, you would have needed chemicals and electricity. But I'm sure you factored those things in. Do you think that containing the explosion just made it too concentrated for a body to take?

Oh god. Are they okay?

Okay, look. I had to agree to this. You didn't force me. It was my choice. And I made that choice knowing it was dangerous. We're scientists, Harry. We know the risks. Me choosing to take those risks is not on you.

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fatherfirst
2016-05-05 06:01 pm UTC (link)

I did. I had all of that in place. But I think that's what happened. You just... disintegrated. The explosion left absolutely nothing behind.

They seem to be. Physically. From everything we can tell. But they haven't woken up yet. Not before I got here.

You told me it was a bad idea, that there wasn't any way that we could be sure it would work the way it was intended.

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	portential 2016-05-05 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	~~Not even a body~~ Doesn't exactly sound like a fun way to go. But at least I went out with a bang. That's good at least. Hopefully it doesn't take them nine months to wake up. But I still did it. I thought it was important enough to risk. And that was my choice. So do me a favor and respect that by not acting like you're responsible for my decisions. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-06 06:15 am UTC (link)
	You didn't. You did. Of course you did. They'll be better monitored and attended. Honestly, I wouldn't have minded it taking that long if the infirmary had three patients instead of two. I'll try. ~~But I still~~ If only for your sake. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	chillout 2016-05-05 06:13 am UTC (link)
	You did what? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-05 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	It was hardly my intention. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chillout 2016-05-05 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	Well, let me make my intent very clear. You're a dead man. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatherfirst 2016-05-05 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose that's fair. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	portential 2016-05-05 06:58 pm UTC (link)
	Len. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chillout 2016-05-05 07:39 pm UTC (link)
	He said he killed you Barry. Eye for an eye. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	portential 2016-05-05 08:51 pm UTC (link)
	He didn't mean for it to happen. It was an accident. And killing him isn't going to change what happened. I died. And l will still be dead even if you kill him. Please, Len. I'm barely keeping it together right now. And I can't handle you killing someone because of me. I can't be responsible for that. So just please don't. For me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chillout 2016-05-06 06:51 am UTC (link)
	Damn it, Barry. I won't. Only for you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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