Cho Chang (belledor) wrote in journalwands, @ 2020-04-11 08:09:00 |
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Entry tags: | character: cedric diggory, player: alex |
And a chapter closes, but the novel isn't finished.
[Friends]
I've been quiet because I needed some time to myself. Yesterday morning I went over to Terence's because we needed to talk. He basically told me that how I felt was one-sided, he doesn't want a relationship, but he also said that I wasn't his personal fleshlight either.
We sat and talked, likely the first real honest heart to heart talk we've ever had. I'm upset of course, a bit heartbroken but I can't force somebody else to have feelings for me. He's not a horrible guy deep down when it comes to it, because a horrible guy wouldn't care about my feelings walking out of there. A horrible guy wouldn't have stopped me from leaving to talk things out.
I'm not even angry at him about anything, I just feel foolish because I thought there was more there than what actually was there. That was my mistake for caring too much. I can't help that, I just need to be more careful the next time around and make sure we're both on the same page from the start so this doesn't happen to me again.
Somewhere out there has to be a wizard that is meant for me, right? It's just not Terence.
Now I have the weekend off and all I want to do is stay in my pajamas in bed and eat mass quantities of ice cream while watching muggle films.