this man talks to flowers. (creamandcrimson) wrote in invol_rpg, @ 2013-01-30 17:41:00 |
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Entry tags: | ! log, brad swartz, julieta jimenez |
Who: Brad and Juli
What: Uhhh things. THINGS GUISE THINGS.
Where: Juli's dorm IDK the floor or number
When: TODAY
Warnings: Swears and feels
Status: Complete
Juli didn’t really try to hide her wince when she got the text from Brad asking to hang out that night. She was alone, anyways, so it wasn’t like anyone could see. It wasn’t that she didn’t like Brad anymore. It was just that... things had suddenly seemed complicated. When she’d gotten hurt, Brad had gotten a little pushy, and she wasn’t sure why, but it had rubbed her the wrong way. So she’d kept her distance - not avoiding him, really, but never making the effort to initiate hanging out together. She still liked Brad, after all. She just didn’t want it to be some serious thing.
So she texted back a quick reply and then flung herself on her bed in the usual dramatic fashion and flipped through the network, waiting for him to show.
Brad was not entirely stupid. Maybe a little from playing so many contact sports as a child, but not entirely. He had started to notice that he was the one making the effort to text her and it had started to bug him. Armed with advice from Jodi (and Hugo, but Hugo’s was more on the lines of go sleep with someone and Brad didn’t find that entirely useful for this context, although he did appreciate his best friend having his back), he knocked on Juli’s door. He didn’t really want to have this conversation, but it was something that needed to happen.
“Hey lady,” he said when she answered the door.
“Hey, Brad!” she said, a slightly false edge to her cheerfulness as she opened the door wider to let him in. If she pretended everything was alright, maybe they would be, and it wouldn’t cause drama on Team Eagle. The last thing she needed was everyone there hating her again.
Closing the door behind him she curled up on her bed, turning to him. “What’s up?”
“I just want to talk to you about something,” Brad said, sitting down on her bed next to her. He felt nervous, why was he nervous. “Because I think I freaked you out when I freaked out when you got shot and I’m sorry. I was just really worried about you lady.”
“Oh that? That’s fine,” Juli said, waving her hand as if she didn’t have a care in the world. “I mean, it was forever ago.” But then she paused, hesitating for a moment before making a little bit of a face and commenting, “Though, I mean, it was a little overbearing? Like, it’s not like I was trying to get shot.”
Brad watched her carefully - at first he couldn’t figure out why she acted like it was a big deal when clearly he’d done something and then there it was. He paused before saying something - Jodi had been right. That was it. It bothered him especially after the way that she had acted after the nightmare. He pressed his lips together. “Okay,” was the response he came up with.
“I just,” she started, not really sure how or what to say. She liked him, she just... “We were just kind of dating, and then right before Christmas people started calling us boyfriend and girlfriend and we were like, ‘yeah, I guess we are’ but I don’t want it to get really serious or anything? If that makes sense. And, I don’t know, when you’re freaking out about your girlfriend getting hurt and that seems really serious all of a sudden.”
"Juli-" Brad wasn't confused he was a little angry now. Of course he was freaked out she had been shot. "Of course I was freaked out even if we weren't dating - you're my teammate and my friend." His tone was annoyed. "And this is a seriously shitty way to say you don't want to be my girlfriend or whatever you're doing."
“I’m not saying I don’t want to be your girlfriend!” Juli said defensively. “I’m just saying it seemed like it was moving really fast! I still like you and all, I just don’t want to... I don’t know. I just don’t want it to be super serious! And it seemed like it was getting really serious! So, I don’t know. I just want it... less. More like we were before, when it was just fun.”
"Showing concern doesn't mean something is serious it just means you're a decent human being," Brad told her.
“Okay, it’s fine then, whatever,” Juli said, not really sure what to say. “Nevermind then. Pretend I didn’t say anything.”
“Fine,” Brad said. “Look - I don’t really want to argue with you because I really like you Juli, but I don’t want to feel like I’m being yanked around either. I’m sorry for getting upset when you got hurt” But I stand by that making me a decent person not an overbearing boyfriend. “And I’m sorry if I’m smothering you or whatever.” But you could have told me this weeks ago. “Maybe we should just take a break or something.” He didn’t really want to but right now his feelings were hurt and he felt like he was the only one of the two of them that cared.
Juli turned her head to look at him for a moment, surprised. “Wait, are you breaking up with me?”
“I thought you were breaking up with me,” Brad said eyeing her suspiciously.
“I said I didn’t want to be so serious, not that I didn’t want to be anything,” Juli said, still a little surprised. “But, whatever, we’ll break up. You don’t have to be with me if you don’t want to be with me,” she said, a little angrily. Juli wasn’t entirely sure what she wanted, really, not entirely sure if she was upset or hurt or relieved or what, exactly.
Brad made a noise that was just pure frustration. He was irritated now - “Let me know when you decide what you really want okay,” he snapped at her. He liked Juli a lot but he couldn’t deal with not knowing what she really wanted. He turned to leave her room.
“Whatever,” Juli said, a little taken aback by how angry Brad was. He’d never snapped at her - she’d never seen him this angry. But it didn’t really matter anyway, she decided, and flung herself on her bed as he let himself out.