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James Potter ([info]foureyedwonder) wrote in [info]indarkness_logs,
@ 2010-09-18 01:00:00

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Entry tags:!complete, 2032 09, balthazar blake, jaime davies, james potter

RP: Just Watching TV
Characters: James, Balthazar, open
Time/Date: Afternoon, 9/17
Location: Lobby
Warnings/Rating: Probably none
Summary: James and Balthazar angst about the same girl without really realizing it.
Status: Open, ongoing



While it had taken a while for him to come around to the idea, James had finally accepted that they had all been kidnapped and brought to this strange Muggle place with strange Muggle technology and strange Muggle experiments. There were all kinds of people here, and he'd met a few of them, but for the most part he was content to just... explore.

He'd gotten his wand back, finally, but it had come at a price that he had discovered the next day when he'd flicked on his Muggle network device thing and discovered that Lily had been taken.

He'd kind of... not known how to handle it. Still didn't know, in fact, and it wasn't like there was much he could say about it. They hadn't been dating yet, though he'd thought she'd been close to agreeing to, at least. Sirius didn't seem to care one way or the other whether Lily was around or not, and got bored when James angsted over it. So he'd... decided to do his angsting elsewhere, under the guise of continuing to explore the Muggle technology.

Like the black box that showed different pictures when you pointed it's little black wand at it. He'd been flicking through channels, looking for something interesting when an older bloke had wandered in. Not someone he'd met before, but James was hardly surprised by that. He waited for some indication of how long the other bloke had been here - if he was new, there was the typical awkward looking away or awkward questions that he couldn't really answer. If he'd been here long, James would be asked if he was new. So far, James had only really encountered the two dances.

When the man did neither, merely gestured to an empty seat in silent request to sit down, James sort of nodded his head, and took a better look. The bloke looked beat, like he hadn't been sleeping well or something, eyes dark and hair tangled. He seemed to be fiddling with a rather obnoxious looking ring on his finger.

"You want to..." James started uncomfortably, starting to hand over the remote.

The man shook his head, holding up a hand to stop him. "I just needed to be free of my room for a while. It's too easy to get lost in memories there."

James nodded, though he didn't really understand. "Thinking of home?"

The man shook his head. "In a way, I suppose," he said bitterly. "I'm thinking of those who went home."

"Ah," James said, wry smirk crossing his face. "That gives us something in common. One of them a... friend of yours?"

"Suppose... you could say that," the man replied. "Lily Evans."

James raised an eyebrow curiously, but nodded and said nothing further. He had the sudden strong suspicion that he... really didn't want to know anything more than that. "Well, let me know if... you want the box," he said before he turned his attention back to flipping through the channels, and trying not to think too hard about how this man might know Lily, based on how his expression had shifted when he's said her name.



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[info]finder
2010-09-18 05:20 am UTC (link)
Jaime was a lot of things today, but super pleased wasn't one of them. Lotteries ... didn't end well. The last lottery had ended in reavers, and there'd been an ammo dump just before that. This lottery was an unknown, and there were candles. So were they anticipating a power outage or a lot of really bad smells people were going to want to burn candles to cover?

Or were the candles just some sort of decoy? She didn't know. Or really care. She, however, was interested in transporting a lot of candles from the hardware store into the hotel. If Lily had been here still --

But those were bad thoughts. Lily was gone, and they were slowly but surely filling in the gaps. Not well, and not without some extreme angst, and more than a few tears (at least, there had been the first day, on her part, which she'd done her best to keep from Mal), but they were slowly adjusting to life without Lily and the others.

With a backpack full of candles, Jaime started back through the lobby, though she paused when she caught sight of someone familiar. She did manage a little smile, but she wasn't exactly oblivious to what he and Lily had been up to; Lily talked, after all. "Hey," she greeted Balthazar before she really saw James. Or recognized him for who he was. "How're you holding up?" she asked as she shifted to slip the backpack off. Candles were heavy and she wasn't going to stand there wearing it while they chatted.

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[info]foureyedwonder
2010-09-18 06:00 am UTC (link)
James looked up when Jaime spoke, his eyes drifting to her curiously. Now this one he was pretty sure had been here a while - he recognized her from the network in a distance sort of way. She was the type who would look at him and ask, "New?" in either that sympathetic tone or...

... she... wasn't even talking to him.

James scowled faintly before turning his attention back to the TV. Fine then. He'd just keep cycling through these random programs.

Balthazar took a bit longer to realize that he was being spoken to, but he did look up eventually. "Oh," he said finally, his lips curling into an unpleasant frown. "Well enough, I suppose. It is nice to have what little magic back that our captors have so generously offered," he sighed mildly, spinning his ring again before he forced himself to stop. "And... you? How are you holding up?"

He imagined that it was probably difficult for her as well, losing Lily. He knew they had gotten quite close in their mutual leadership of this place.

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[info]finder
2010-09-18 06:40 am UTC (link)
Jaime shrugged. "I don't know, exactly. Coping, I guess. One of the new girls is ... helping in the kitchen, and ... Tyler and I are kind of ... just handling welcoming new people, and ... I don't know. Guess we'll see how it goes. I just ... don't want to find a new dynamic, I guess."

She glanced to the couch and noticed the other guy. "Hey," she greeted him so he wouldn't feel left out of the conversation. Jaime didn't think she knew him, but if he was comfy enough to be flipping channels on the TV, he couldn't be too new.

"So, hey. Did you guys get candles? Dunno if we're going to need them for whatever they're flinging at us, but ... Severus and Booth got pulled for the lottery. Dunno who the other two are, assuming they're doing another foursome. Either way, they said they'd post results once everything was ... done. So. Hopefully we'll have warning like we did with the reavers."

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[info]oldmanshoes
2010-09-18 11:53 pm UTC (link)
"Of course," Balthazar said with a slow nod, trying to ignore the pang that it caused when Jaime mentioned that one of the newer arrivals had been helping out in the kitchen. There was something fundamentally not right about that for him. He hadn't bothered to go downstairs in the morning for breakfast or anything, so he hadn't known. It had been... harder than he wanted to admit. Which was foolish. They'd fooled around once, and then she'd... all but avoided him. Something about her fiance arriving. Even before she'd been taken, it had been some time since he'd really spoken to her, so... why was her disappearance still hitting him this hard?

"Hey," James responded, a bit sulkily, before he forced himself out of that moody response, glancing up at her and moving to hand her the remote if she wanted it. Under other circumstances, he may have asked who these two were, but right now he just sort of wanted to be a moody prat about Lily not being around anymore.

"Candles?" Balthazar repeated, before he shook his head. "I did notice you mentioned. Did you need help carrying more from the store over here?" To be honest, he hadn't really understood the point. But now that Jaime mentioned it, he realized that that didn't mean that the candles wouldn't be important. He suspected they wouldn't be THERE if they weren't important. "I'll find time later this afternoon to bring some in, though I shudder to think of why they might be relevant."

"Maybe we're going to have to teach the old fashioned magic to the rest of the group," James said with a smirk. By 'we' he meant he and the other wand-waver magical types around here. He didn't realize that Balthazar also could use magic.

Balthazar shrugged. "I suppose, perhaps, it's possible," he said, not realizing James had been sarcastic. "I suppose no one has any idea?" he asked Jaime. From her statement, he doubted it, but maybe some ideas had been tossed around.

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[info]finder
2010-09-19 12:20 am UTC (link)
Jaime waved off the offer of the remote, though she figured she should ... introduce herself, and she would in just a second. "I wouldn't mind. I've just been stuffing them all in a backpack and bringing them in here. Figured we could just stash a bunch of them down here, and if we need them then ... no one has to go outside for them. They'll just ... be here."

Jaime shrugged again to his question, though she did glance at James when he suggested teaching magic to people. Her brow furrowed, but she let that go. "No ... ideas. We thought maybe power outs, like a thunderstorm thing again, but we also think that on the heels of a lottery, it's not going to be anything that tame. I mean, last time, right, it was lottery then reavers. So this time it'll be lottery and ... lights out, or cold or something.

"Or the candles are a huge fucking decoy and they mean nothing at all and the assholes holding us hostage like to watch us scurry around like ants while flipping ourselves into a full on panic about what might be coming."

Jaime sighed. "But I've stashed a couple up in mine and Mal's room." Ever since Dug had ... gone home, she hadn't bothered going back to her own room. There wasn't a point anymore, and her eyes darkened briefly before she pushed it off.

"Hi," she said again to James. "I'm Jaime Davies. New co-holder of the title of longest-held captive." Which ... ouch. "Since ... well. Lily's ..." She shook her head and shrugged. "So you do magic too?"

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[info]oldmanshoes
2010-09-19 09:39 am UTC (link)
"Better to scury around like ants than sit around and do nothing," he said, with a brief glance to James - though he hadn't really meant that to be entirely intentional. He simply wasn't really liking the boy's attitude. It was entirely too... glib for his liking really.

James snorted when he caught the glance and roll his eyes. "I think I'm insulted," he said, though his eyes were sparkling a bit. He did set the remote down and glance over to listen to the last part of Jaime's statement.

"James Potter," he said with a nod. "Wave waving sort, since apparently there's a need to specify." He hesitated slightly, his expression darkening as he looked away briefly before adding, "Lily was... a friend of mine."


"She was a friend of all of ours," Balthazar said with a knowing nod. "Balthazar Blake," he added, gesturing to himself, realizing that since he hadn't known James' name, it was likely James hadn't known his.

"No, I mean, we went to school together," James amended. He wasn't about to cut Jaime off from reminiscing - he figured she and Lily had gotten close - but he didn't much like the look on Balthazar's face, or him talking like he KNEW Lily. He hadn't. Not like James did, at least.

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[info]finder
2010-09-19 09:46 am UTC (link)
"Oh fu...really." Lame save was lame, but shit. Of all the people to be sitting together watching TV together. Apparently. "She ...uh. She mentioned you," she said to James.

Awkward situation was awkward, and Jaime lacked the grace to slide out of it without completely fucking it up. More than she already had, at any rate.

But she knew Lily hadn't talked to James yet about Balthazar, who Jaime also knew Lily had been giving very strong consideration to actually sleeping with instead of just fooling around as they had been. Or did once. Whichever. Jaime was too busy with her own sex life to pry at the details of Lily's.

She also didn't know how much James knew about his and Lily's life. Did he know about the whole getting killed thing? About their son? About the fact they even got married? She sure as shit didn't want to be the one to break that particular bit of news.

She also reasoned, at this point, Balthazar had to be aware of the potential awkward, but she didn't know him well enough to trust him to bail her out when she got backed into a corner, as she inevitably would. So this was good. This situation? Was awesome.

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[info]foureyedwonder
2010-09-19 11:28 am UTC (link)
While he knew that she hadn't been starting to say 'really', he had no idea what she'd started of trying to say. He did spare a glance to Balthazar, who looked uncomfortable now, and he tried not to be irrationally smug that it had been 'confirmed' that 'he knew Lily better'. But he was. He very much was.

"Figured she may have," he said, pleased. He leaned back on the couch in an entirely satisfied manner, crossing his hands behind his head. He kind of really wanted to share this information with Sirius. Lily had been talking about... him...

It sank back in that Lily wasn't around anymore, and the smug wore off almost instantly, returning to the apathy and sullenness he'd had before.

James... Potter. Balthazar turned very obviously and stared for a full moment, his mouth falling open slightly before he looked up to regard Jaime and then looked back to James.

The fact that there had been no obvious reaction when he'd said his name was evidence enough to him that this teen had not heard the full story, and Jaime's slip was also indicative of the fact that
she had, and he had no idea how to handle this. Should he make up some excuse and leave before he exposed something inappropriate?

... Did it really matter, now that Lily was... gone? Not that he was going to come right out and say, 'oh, by the way, I nearly fucked your future wife' but... if it did come out was... that really such an issue now?

Maybe it was just safer if he kept his mouth shut for the moment.

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[info]finder
2010-09-19 11:42 am UTC (link)
Jaime didn't know exactly what to do. She sort of wanted to point out to James that it wasn't all good stuff, and that Lily was trying to figure out how to tell him --

But it was irrelevant, wasn't it? She wasn't here anymore. Was possibly (probably) dead in some lab somewhere. She caught Balthazar's gaze when he glanced over, and shrugged sort of helplessly. She sort of wanted to tell Balthazar what Lily had told her, but ... was that too painful just now? 'Oh, by the way, now that it doesn't matter, she totally wanted to get with you'? Right, because that would go over fantastically.

She also kind of wanted to bait James just to unsmugify him, but doubted Lily would have appreciated Jaime taunting James.

"Yeah. Kind of ..." she said before she saw his mood was already gone. She did kind of feel bad. James had been after Lily forever, right? And then he gets here, and everything's all off. She didn't really want to talk about James and Lily's relationship in front of Balthazar, either, which left ... anything but Lily as a topic.

"Did ... you guys ... were you close with any of the others who ... um. Went home?" There. That was sort of starting to slide into the area of other topics.

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[info]foureyedwonder
2010-09-21 03:20 am UTC (link)
"Lupin was a mate of mine, back in school," James said when he noticed Balthazar shaking his head. "He's... older here, though. Can't say I know much how to relate to him. I recognize the names Potter - obviously - and Dumbledore, though I didn't know them directly."

He paused, and thought for a moment. "Knew of Bellatrix Lestrange, but she wasn't on the list of those who were sent home, specifically, and didn't know her very well either. Heard that Dug was a dog?" he looked around for clarification on that one.

Balthazar nodded. "He'd have loved you," he told James with a quirk of his lips before he saddened again, turning his eyes up to Jaime as he realized that that joke may not have been in very good taste. Dug was her... well, for lack of better word, 'roommate' after all. "I'm sorry," he said to her quietly.

Though perhaps it was not in as bad taste as he thought, and he was apologizing needlessly.

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[info]finder
2010-09-21 03:50 am UTC (link)
Jaime made a sort of strangled, muffled, laughing sound even though it wasn't very funny when he recognized Potter. Because that was his son. And she didn't think he knew that. Oh holy shit, of all the times for Lily to not be here.

"Dug's ... a dog, yes, with a collar that lets him broadcast his thoughts." She smiled a little at Balthazar. "Yeah. He would've loved you," she echoed with a glance to James.

"But hey, he loved everyone, right?" Jaime hadn't actually thought she'd miss Dug. But for all that, she hadn't thought she'd miss Lily, either. Not like she did.

She shook her head to wave off the apology. She just hoped she never saw Dug's head in a jar, or something. "So I should ... I'm going to ..." she jerked her thumb toward where she was stashing the candles. "Go add these to the pile and go out for another set. If either of you wanted to tag along," she offered with a half smile that came no where near her eyes.

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[info]oldmanshoes
2010-09-21 04:57 am UTC (link)
Balthazar was waiting on James to give a reaction, and when the boy lifted his hand in a, 'thanks for stopping by' sort of wave, he made his decision. "I'll assist," he said, stepping up from the couch.

Under other circumstances, he'd have made a pointed comment towards James to make him feel badly about not offering to help up a woman in need. But in this case, he was grateful for it. He didn't want James tagging along at all. Now that he was aware who the boy was, he didn't think he wanted to spend any amount of time with him at all, for fear of saying the wrong thing.

Or hearing the wrong thing, for that matter.

Standing up, he moved to follow Jaime out of the room. He didn't want to say anything at all about that encounter, but truthfully he hoped that she would bring it up and he could ask questions about it.

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[info]finder
2010-09-21 05:13 am UTC (link)
Jaime returned James' wave before she unloaded the candles. Shouldering the empty backpack, she swung back around to the door to head out to the hardware store.

Once they were outside and the door was closed, Jaime glanced back to it before swearing. "Holy shit I had no idea that was him." She ran her fingers through her hair before she glanced apologetically up to Balthazar. "Sorry," she said, though whether she was apologizing for the outburst or the awkward-inducing conversation in the room, even she wasn't sure.

"So ...um. Are you really ... you know. Holding up okay? I know you and Lily were ... um. Close." Well, she knew that was what Lily thought; Jaime had no way of knowing if it was a mutual thing or not. She did glance back toward the hotel once again, as if she thought James would be stalking them out here or something.

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[info]oldmanshoes
2010-09-21 11:05 am UTC (link)
"Nor did I," Balthazar admitted awkwardly, rubbing at the side of his head, where his hair was getting a bit matted. He ran his fingers through it somewhat absently, fond memories flooding his mind for a moment before he steeled himself, trying not to think about it. "Life is full of... little coincidences..." he glanced off into the distance for a moment before being brought back into the present by her question. He raised an eyebrow briefly, but nodded his head.

"As well as can be expected," he said. "Centuries of distancing yourself from people who you are well aware are going to perish before you lends itself well to coping instincts in this matter. I... have been needing to make use of those more than I would like to, but it seems the only option, if the rumours are true and she has really..."

He shuddered briefly, before lifting his hands for air quotes, "Gone home."

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[info]finder
2010-09-21 01:53 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah, but ...it's bullshit. You shouldn't have to ..." Jaime made a frustrated gesture with one hand. She was just glad Mal was still here so she didn't have to deal with this, selfish as that thought was.

She didn't like the finger quotes, even though they all assumed it was how things were. Gone home was a euphemism for dead. That hurt, more than she wanted to admit that it did.

"Well. At least you have a one-up on him, right? You know who he is and he doesn't know ..." she gestured. "Lily never got around to telling him. Because she wasn't ready to break his heart." Blue eyes shifted toward Balthazar before she looked away again. It was a moot point now, but saying so seemed cruel, so she kept her mouth shut.

"She wanted ..." But maybe that was just as cruel, so Jaime shook her head and lapsed into silence as they walked on toward the hardware store.

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[info]oldmanshoes
2010-09-21 04:54 pm UTC (link)
"No," he said, his lips curving into a smirk that didn't reach his eyes. "But at the same time, it's good to have met her. It's good to have had our lives enriched by her presence, and be better for it. It's..." his voice faltered. "It's truly unfortunate that I... that we could not have had more time with her. But perhaps it's not the misery that it's being made out to be." He glanced off into the distance. "Perhaps she really did go home."

He chuckled a bit when she mentioned that he had a one-up on James. "I suppose it's for the best. He doesn't seem like he's at an age or stage where he could handle the information in a constructive manner. Particularly not with her... sudden disappearance." He sighed a bit.

"It doesn't matter," he said finally, cutting her off before she could finish. He'd been thinking about letting her finish, about hearing what Lily wanted, but when she trailed off he decided it was better that he didn't know. It would hurt too much. "It... doesn't matter now. What she wanted. What we wanted. It... it's not productive to think about now. We need to move on. Heal." He gazed towards the hardware store. "Survive."

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[info]finder
2010-09-21 05:10 pm UTC (link)
Jaime didn't snort, but she wanted to. Gone home. Right. Maybe he hadn't been around for the lovely video of the lab experiments, but there was no doubt in Jaime's mind that Lily was, if not dead, being cut up or altered or implanted with things in their captors home base. "Yeah," she said instead, though she clearly didn't feel it.

She had to agree about James' state of mind, but she didn't do it outloud. Instead, she shouldered open the door of the store.

Kind of glad that he'd cut her off, she nodded a little as she listened to him go on. She wondered if he'd felt anything for Lily but ... Jaime thought he had. Something, anyway.

In an uncharacteristic gesture, she reached out to squeeze his arm lightly. She wished she had some supportive or comforting words for him, and she tried to think of what she'd want someone to say to her if Mal had gone home, but her mind shied so violently away from that idea that she twitched.

She didn't want to consider that one day Mal would "go home" ... or she would.

Letting her hand fall away, Jaime gestured toward where all the candles were stacked -- in case he couldn't see the giant pile of them. "There might be a bag or something around here somewhere," she offered before she unzipped the backpack and started to load in some blue candles that supposedly smelled like a sea breeze.

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[info]oldmanshoes
2010-09-21 05:33 pm UTC (link)
From her snort and tone of voice, Balthazar knew that she didn't believe that Lily had gone home, and maybe she was justified in that. He'd heard stories of other captives who had mysteriously disappeared, but there were others who had left... without such incidents occurring. There was a man here who had disappeared for some time and returned without a scratch or a memory of his absence. It... wasn't impossible, that something similar would happen to Lily, or that she really would go home.

Convincing Jaime, though, was a needless task. He didn't have to know her well to know that she'd believe whatever she wanted to believe, regardless of anything he said. And he'd believe what he wanted to believe as well.

He appreciated the gesture, unaware that it was uncharacteristic of her to do so. He reached over to place his hand over hers, squeezing lightly for a moment. He thought it was interesting, how it was truly moments of profound sadness that were most effective at drawing people closer together than they would have been otherwise. A shared negative experience was infinitely more unifying than a shared pleasant one. It was a strange thing, but that had been his experience.

He nodded when she gestured to the candles, searching for a bag to carry them in and finding some typical - for him, at least - carry bags that grocery stores usually carried, pleased to see they had both plastic and the 'green' bags that some stores were starting to run with now. He chose a few green bags before moving over to help Jaime stuff them with candles.

All in all, he thought that this was just another thing that he would be forced to cope with in his life, and he half cursed himself for falling into a situation where he was so easily made vulnerable by a simple action of removing a young woman from his presence. He... would aim not to make that mistake again.

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