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Tweak says, "the iris embraces you"

Bucky Barnes (sniper) wrote in incompletedata,
@ 2018-02-04 21:44:00

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marvel: comics: bucky barnes, marvel: comics: steve rogers

[Filtered to Steve Rogers (616)]

I heard you talked to Kobik.

Thank you. I know that must have been hard for you.

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	shield 2018-02-05 05:55 am UTC (link)
	Can I tell you something? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	sniper 2018-02-05 06:00 am UTC (link)
	If you want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shield 2018-02-05 06:03 am UTC (link)
	I've always found that it's easiest to forgive the people who need it the most. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sniper 2018-02-05 06:05 am UTC (link)
	Well. That's handy, because this is the first part of an apology tour. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shield 2018-02-05 06:06 am UTC (link)
	You don't have to apologise to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sniper 2018-02-05 06:07 am UTC (link)
	Is it okay if I do it anyway? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shield 2018-02-05 06:12 am UTC (link)
	Of course. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sniper
2018-02-05 06:27 am UTC (link)

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry about how I reacted when you asked for my help. I'm sorry I acted like you were putting me out, and not considering my feelings, when really that's what I've been doing. I'm sorry that I called someone else "my family" like you weren't. I'm sorry that there was a minute in there where I-- actually wanted to hurt your feelings. And I'm sorry I tried to make you feel bad instead of talking to you about what was bothering me like a normal adult person.

And I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you while you're recovering like you were for me when I was. I'm sorry that I haven't been paying enough attention to you, and to what you need, for a while now. I'm sorry I haven't made time for you. I'm sorry I've been pushing you away. I'm sorry I've been asking for a lot from you without-- giving much back. I'm sorry I didn't realize how hard this was for you. All of it. I'm sorry I didn't think about it.

I have not been a good friend. I want to be better.

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shield
2018-02-05 06:43 am UTC (link)

Apology accepted.

There is so much in your life that you never asked for. I know there are aspects of that you would change, and things about it that you wouldn't. I know you've always tried to adapt and be the person other people have needed you to be. Natasha. Me. Kobik, now. And you've never gotten the credit that you deserve for your ability to do that for people. But it's a strength, it's your strength, and it's one that I've always admired. Don't ever let anyone convince you that it's not one of the most incredible things about you.

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	sniper 2018-02-05 07:04 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I appreciate that a lot. Especially from you. You know your opinion means a lot to me. Probably slightly too much. I love you a lot, you know. I want to be someone you can count on again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shield 2018-02-05 07:06 am UTC (link)
	I will always count on you. But I think the foundations of what makes us us could use a little repair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sniper 2018-02-05 07:10 am UTC (link)
	I'd like to get back to that. And anyway, it should be way easier to follow through while the moon is not yet an option for skipping out on difficult conversations. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shield 2018-02-05 07:12 am UTC (link)
	How are you, though? Are you okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sniper 2018-02-05 07:17 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, I'm okay. I was kind of an idiot yesterday, so I've been trying to sort that out. But I'm okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shield 2018-02-05 07:35 am UTC (link)
	I'm here if you need me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sniper 2018-02-05 01:22 pm UTC (link)
	I know. You always are. (Reply to this) (Parent)