Who: Parvati and Padma Where: Vati's flat When: Sunday night, Jan 24 What: Padma helps Parvati get ready and baby proof the flat for the official arrival on Monday. Rating: Uh, probably low? Status: In progress
For the thousandth time, Parvati questioned whether she was going to be able to do this. Be a mother 24/7, by herself. Even as those doubts bounced around her mind, however, Parvati knew they were a product of her own insecurities, of anxiety over the significant and daunting change her life was about to undergo. Was currently undergoing. Much as she worried, she also felt in her bones that this was the right thing to do. That this was what was supposed to happen.
And she'd done a reading. Well, multiple. But one in particular had helped her to feel certain in her decision. The crystal ball had shown her symbols of growth, of nurturing, of difficult change but a fulfilling outcome. She could do it, she was going to do it, and she was overwhelmingly excited about it. Her stomach felt tight with nerves, but light with fluttering anticipation. She was going to be a mother, and she was determined to be good at it.
She just didn't quite feel ready, and tonight was her last chance for that. She had to become ready. Mentally and... environmentally.
The mental stuff was her own job, of course, but Parvati had invited her sister to come help her with the environmental piece. She still had to put away baby clothes, decide where the best place to store the diapers would be, set up the change station, and hang his mobile... When she got ahead of herself, she started worrying about things like how she'd go about making the flat safe once he started crawling, whether he'd get sick a lot because he wasn't breast fed for very long, or if the trauma of losing his mother and ending up with Parvati instead would mess him up.
When Padma arrived, Parvati was standing in the middle of the living room, her weight on her good leg, looking around to decide where to put the change table. In lieu of a hello, she called out, "What do you think, over there nearer the kitchen, or the other wall nearer the bedroom? For the change table, I mean."