hphalloween_mod (hphalloween_mod) wrote in hp_halloween, @ 2012-10-31 17:49:00 |
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Entry tags: | !2012, #gen, *katelinmr, ^george weasley, rating: pg13 |
Halloween Treat for Magnetic_Pole
Gift for: magnetic_pole
From: katelinmr
Title: Finally
Beta: lordhellebore
Character(s): George, mentions of Fred
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Neither Harry Potter, the world, the characters nor the magic belong to me. If they would I wouldn't be here.
Warnings: Dark thoughts, heavy emotions
Summary: George thinks back of Fred after the war, only not in a way we'd expect him to.
Notes: Maggie love, you asked for 'complexities of being whoever you are'. I tried to establish that by digging a little deeper into George's thoughts than 'we' normally do. I hope you'll like it. Happy Halloween! ♥
Finally. No more being a part of, no more belonging to. I'm finally free. Free, and yet my guilt keeps eating away at me. I cannot look at them, I cannot even look at myself in the mirror, because I will only see him and with that, my betrayal. Because I'm happy, I'm actually happy that he's gone.
Yes, I will miss him and yes, I will get my revenge, but that does not take away the feeling of finally being able to breathe. Finally.
They think it is his death that causes my moods. They think the reason I stay inside and hide is because I miss him so much. If only they knew. If only they realised that it is not his death, it's my reaction to it that makes me want to be alone.
And yet, even though the guilt is destroying me, I'm happy. There will be no more living in his shadow, no more having to live up to their expectations. I can finally be myself, I can finally be just one person, I can finally be me. I trace my mirror image with my hand and sneer. It is time to start living.
Finally.