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Diego Morales is a leaky indie folk faucet. 💧 (morale) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2016-12-22 18:15:00

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[OOC: Rather than the drawing and the graphic, imagine that Diego has spell-o-taped a photograph of his hands into his journal. The bracelets given to him by Ravi and Cecil, typically worn 24/7, have been moved over onto his right hand for the time being, because the left now sports a fresh tattoo of a winding serpent with the constellation Serpens behind it. Credit goes to Mirko Sata, whose style and design I ripped off for pretendy fun times.]

If I don't come back to school, it's because my mom has killed me. My body's been buried somewhere in the deserts of southern Utah, and no one will ever find it. Mina, Essie, my real Christmas gift to you is that you are officially the Good Children for the next three years. You're welcome.

Jesus Christ it hurt. Imagine how much you think it hurt going over all those little bones and tendons, and then triple it.

[Warded to Levi]

No regrets, though.

[Warded to Cecil]

How's your break going? Are you [...] busy? I kind of need to talk to [...] someone. Someone meaning you, ideally, I guess.

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Diego/Cecil

morale
2016-12-26 09:15 pm UTC (link)

It's not ~~really~~ that I think you're lying to me about how you see me. If I didn't believe you or, like, actually thought you secretly hated me I wouldn't be able to talk to you about this at all. You're always here for me, I feel comfortable with you, and... there's no one at school I'm closer to. I want to always be there for you, too. And I'm sorry this is like... intense and weird and rambling. [...] I'm glad you don't see our friendship like that. ~~But if~~ ~~Sometimes~~ [...] I'm going to resist torturing both of us with more talking shit about myself. We've been down that road before. I go down it a lot less with you.

About your Divination, though... I know it's hard to tell you to not hold yourself to such high standards, because you're worried about peoples' safety. But Cecil, if there's one thing that can never say about you, it's that you didn't do enough. You're always putting your all into things, especially when you're trying to help other people. I want you to take better care of yourself, too, you know?

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Diego/Cecil

choneychurch
2016-12-27 12:37 pm UTC (link)

All right. I just [...] needed to be certain that you knew all of that. Without a doubt. Our friendship is precious to me, Diego, and I wouldn't want you to think it's anything less than it is; especially not when you're dealing with all of this.

You don't need to be sorry, though. This isn't an easy conversation because this isn't an easy situation, but I'm glad that you told me. I think you needed to tell someone. [...] Therapy won't be easy either, but if this person is someone you can put your trust in and if you commit yourself to it you could find what you're looking for. You could get to a place where you feel better about yourself and take better care of yourself. You could stop digging that hole. And if there's ever anything that I can do to help, even if you just need to talk, tell me. I can't understand everything you're dealing with, but I'll try and you'll have all the support I can give. You're stronger than you think, Diego; I know you can do this.

And [...] thank you. I try to give it my all, but I can't always. Emotions can hinder your judgment in divination, color your readings, and you know how I can be. I can't always set those things aside. And, once, I put off doing additional readings to try to understand a prediction because I felt sick and didn't think I'd be able to focus, but what I'd foreseen happened before I could. Things like that make it hard to believe I'm doing everything I can. But I know I can't always help that and I'm trying to know that with my heart as well as my head. Like I said, it's a work in progress.

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